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May 6-12
Go to church and hear cousin Dabney Davis [preach.] Say good bye then to Miss Carrie. Hope to see more of her before she leaves Virginia ....Today a meeting was appointed. Nothing is talked of now but Convention. My nose cold is very bad. Mary Lewis comes up on Wednesday and as a matter of course John Macmurdo comes too. It is now fully decided that John is to be my brother and I must learn to love him for Sue's sake. Oh, dear, I wonder why I'm so blind, but such an event never took the shape of a possibility with me before. It is a hard hard trial for me to give up my very own sister but the change may be for her happiness and it seems selfish in me to put any obstacles in the way. For last six months my trials have been many and when this last one came, I felt indeed as if my cup of sorrow was full to overflowing but thank God I can both think and talk of it now with calmness and see and feel a wiser providence in it all by showing me how vain are all the loves of this world. I've long feared that my happiness depended too much upon the love of earthly friends and my Best Friend seeing these breakers ahead will seem fit to aim his blows at my idols and lo how vain they have proved themselves. This world with its joys and sorrows would be a barren world without human sympathy but we must not think too much of that for there is but One to whom we can look in all times of our tribulations ....[Letters written and received.] Finish reading Irving's Life of Columbus. Mary Lewis brings me such a nice copy of Mrs. Brownings poems from Richmond. Mary Lewis seems much pleased with her trip. She was as far as Washington where she spent about ten hours; saw the fine buildings ....
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