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Letter from Adelaide E. Case to Charles N. Tenney, No Date

Conflicting emotions
are now raging in my heart. Last
night I heard them news. that desperate
fighting was going on at Richmond.
that 1200 of our brave men were already
lying cold and insensible upon the field
and what is worse. not an inch has
been gained, For a few days dearest. I
have lost all knowledge of your position
and who knows. oh heaven forbid. but

that you are there sharing the perils
of the battle field. Oh. Charlie. why
does cruel fate thus separate us.
Why are you so far away. suffering often
for want of the comforts of life. alone
while I can remain at home in
security surrounded by kind friends
all striving to make my life a happy
one. but dearest I am far from happy this
morning. Could I but be with you. even
on the dreaded battle field. I should be
happier than now. Bitter very bitter are
my feelings this morning. darling. but
I can not control them. I am not fit
to discharge the duties lying before me to-
day. for I have no control over my feelings
whatever. If there would but come a shower
thunder. lightning and rain mingle together
in one great storm and commotion. I should
feel better. but the sun shines just as bright
the birds sing just as sweetly and all nature
is just as gay as if no pitiless war was
raging over our land leaving desolate hearths
sobbing children and broken hearted wives.
in all parts of the Unitid states. It
seems so like mockery. this beautiful
morn. when my poor heart aches so hard
But these fears may be all unfounded
and you may laugh--no you will never
do that dearest.- but if they are unfounded
I thank God for it. But dear, I must
close as it is near school time.