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III.-ARQUA.

I am an old man now, my life has been
Endowed beyond my fellows—honours, fame,
And good report in store above my due.
And I have written many books; explored
The ancient wisdom of the mighty dead,
Through me regenerate; philosopher,
Poet, and scholar, pattern to the youth
In all the schools from Avignon to Rome;
The friend of Popes and Princes—styled, in short,
Boccaccio says, the “glory of our age”
He brought that word from Florence—from my land!
Therefore, as one who laboured not in vain,
Have I bequeathed my riches to the world.
There lie my songs, themes, epics—one word more,
Here at the last, when I record my gain,
The best, the harvest, and the truth I found,
The soul of my philosophy remains
Love only: first, the one, the spiritual love,
That is the loadstar and the light of life,
And the hereafter haply—as I deem,

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Since love at highest needs no earthly hope;
And then that other love inspired of this,
The all-embracing, all-forgiving love;
The love that labours for the rest, endures,
And gives the world its earnest, that is all
Doubt has no part in, when we stand for truth,
And every heart is great enough for love,
As every soul is for eternity.
Now I will tell my story in few words,
In life's young spring there met me on my way
A spirit fashioned in no mortal mould,
But one whose earthly sojourn seemed to me
A revelation of the holier life,
A benediction from the home of heaven.
It was at morning song on the sixth day
Of the fourth month, the spring of year and youth,
In Santa Chiara's church, at Avignon,
I saw my lady of the blessed name,
And on the pulseless current of my thought
There flashed the change, the glory, and the doom.
And that same hour, the hour of morning song,
The same sixth day of that same April tide,

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Twice ten years after, was she taken hence.
Her stainless body on the day she died
They laid to rest in its appointed place,
And her pure spirit I am bold to say
Went back to God, by whose good gift it came;
But I misfortuned then to be from home
And in Verona, knowing not my loss.
Now here make I my record, in my love
For Laura was no one base thought, nor vile;
I think not anything a man might blame,
Unless it were that love's excess; this much
Let no man doubt, whate'er my life hath been,
All that I am that by her grace am I,
Nor have I looked for other praise than hers
Who drew my spirit to her own pure light,
And stayed my gaze upon abiding things;
And there was never one I cared to please
Save her alone, whose fair ensample stands
Like the saint's lily in a stormy world,
Changeless and sweet and loveable and white,
Whom envy found no fault in to assail,
And faith assigns the circle of the saints.

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Therefore, I say, love only; life shall prove
The need of loving. Many a man sees truth,
Knows the sheer way he half would choose to climb,
But little needs and fleeting aims withhold
The still strong step should mount to meet the dawn.
To see the truth is somewhat,—just to guage
The reach and effort, but to be the man
One would have men be, seek no meaner gains
But make the ideal real—this to do
She shewed me, having that great love for hope,
Through chance and change to glorify the end.
Who loves not pity, for none loves in vain,
Though here on earth it must suffice to know
Love is the lover's first, and the beloved's
In less degree, so incomplete at best.
But after, he who saw life's end in love,
Shall he not find the need he recognized
In some divine, unfathomable way
Returning and enfolding him at last?
I have my hope, I reason not with faith.—
If love be life's end, then the end of love
Remains, is surely to be loved again.

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My best on earth was out of reach for me,
Past striving for and only all life long
A far-off benediction and a hope:
But this I know, so much of mine was hers,
Clasped close, so close, no other life shall mark
Its seal on hers to hold our souls apart
When soul meets soul with nothing more between,
Till then I tarry and abide my doom.
Therefore, I would that in far years to be,
When great things grow forgotten, tides of change,
Events of import shadow-like and dim,
If aught that sounds on many tongues to-day
Of all I strove to make abiding here,
Should find a corner in men's hearts and breathe
Among hereafter voices, they should tell
Not of my epic that they crowned me for,
Not of the kinship with the hero-time,
But how once lived a lover in the world
Who prized the myrtle better than the bay,
Who sang one master-song to many keys,
Whose faith this was, and, loving once and well,
He gave his lady all a poet may,
The glory of an everlasting name.