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Appendix A. Diary and Paterna Verse

High Attainments.

Psal. 68.19.

[Health, Bread, with Life, my God mee sends]

[Lord, bought by thy All-worthy Blood]

[In Peace with God Ly down I Will]

Or,

Sometimes I thus varied it.

Heb. 11. 17. with Gen. 22. 12

The dearest Lord of Heaven gave
Himself an Off'ring once for me:
The dearest Thing on Earth I have,
Now, Lord, I'l offer unto Thee.
I See, my best Enjoyments here
Are Loans, and Flow'rs, and Vanities;
E're well-Enjoy'd they disappear:
Vain Smoke, they pierce and Leave oe Eyes.
But I Beleeve, O Glorious Lord,
That when I Seem to Lose these Toyes,
What's Lost, will fully be Restor'd,
In Glory, with Eternal Joyes.
I do Beleeve, That I and Mine,
Shall Come to Everlasting Rest;
Because, Blest JESUS, We are Thine,
And with thy Promises are Blest.
I do Beleeve, That Every Bird
Of Mine, which to the ground shall fall,
Does fall at they Kind Will and Word;
Nor I, nor It, is hurt at all.
Now my Beleeving Soul does Hear
This among the Glad Angels told:
I know, Thou dost thy Maker Fear,
From whom thou nothing dost withold.

[I Stript of Earthly Comforts am]

I Stript of Earthly Comforts am;
Stript, Lett me duely mourn:
Naked from Earth at first I came,
And Naked I Return.
What, but Gifts from above were They?
GOD gave them unto me.
And now they Take their Flight away,
Taken by GOD they be.
The Name of my Great GOD, I will
Forever then Adore;
Hee's Wise, and Just, and Sovereign Still,
And Good forevermore.

[AND now to Life Rais'd by the Heavenly Call]

AND now to Life Rais'd by the Heavenly Call,
Henceforth, Vain Idols, I Renounce you all.
Vile Flesh, Thy raging Lust, & Sordid Ease,
My Winged Soul now shall not Serve & Please.
False World, Thy Lawes shall be no longer Mine,
Nor to thy Wayes my Newborn Soul incline.
Satan, Thou wilt, I know, my Tempter be,
But thy Temptation shall not govern me.
Foolish I've been; O Lord, I blush, I grieve;
And Gladly would my Woful Folly Leave.
Fain would I Turn to God, but can't alone:
Help, Sovereign Grace, Or it will ne'er be done
To the Great GOD of Heaven I repair,
And Help'd by Heaven thus to Him declare.
Great GOD, Since to be Mine thou Willing art,
Oh! Be thou mine! Replies my Conquered Heart.
To Glorify Thee, Glorious Lord, I Take
For That alone which can me Happy make.
O FATHER, of all Things Creator Great,
Wilt Thou all Happiness for me Create?
Eternal SON of God, Wilt thou me Save,
That I the Hopes may of a Gods Children have?
Eternal SPIRIT of God, Poor me Wilt thou
With Spiritual Blessings of all sorts Endow?
Lord, Ravish'd at thy wondrous Grace, I do
These gracious offers now Conform unto.
O Alsufficient ONE, Wilt thou Supply
My Wants from Stores of Rich Immensity?
Shall boundless Wisdome for my Good Contrive?
And boundless Power ye Fruits of Goodness give?
Shall Spotless Holiness on me imprint
An Holy Temper, with thine Image in't?
Lord, Thy Perfections all I do adore;
And to a Perfect Love my Mind would soar.
A State of BLISS, according to thy Word,
Thou Wilt unto thy Chosen ones afford.
A State of Blissful Rest and Joy, wherein
Rais'd from the Dead, they shall be freed from Sin.
There bath'd in Rivers of Eternal Joy,
No Sorrowes more shall them at all annoy.
GOD shall be All in All; Brought nigh to God,
In Him they shall forever make Abode.
They shall See God; The Beatific Sight!
And their own God shall take in them Delight.
My Soul, Make now thy Choice. O Say: Is This
What thou doest Choose for thy chief Blessedness?
Things of this Present Time I now Refuse;
My Blessed GOD, Thee, Thee, and This, I chuse.
May the Sweet JESUS me to Glory bring,
And be my Glorious Prophet, Priest, & King.
Does the Almighty CHRIST of God, to those
That Will, an Union with Himself propose?
My Lord, I Will! The Will thou didst bestow;
To Thee, Oh, Lett me be United so.
The full Obedience which my Surety paid
To God, may That my Righteousness be made.
A Wretched Sinner would appear in That,
Righteous before ye dreadful Judgment-Seat.
Show me thy Way, O Lord, Lest that I shou'd
Fall by those Mockers that will me delude.
To thy Pure Scriptures-Way I will adhere,
And find the Rule of my Whole Conduct there.
All the Rebellion of my Heart Subdue;
And for thy Work, O Lord, my Strength Renew.
From thy Vast Fulness lett my Faith derive
Strength to do all things, & to Thee to Live.
May thy Good SPIRIT me Possess, & Fill
With Light and Zeal, to Learn and Do thy Will.
With his Kind Flames may He upon me Sieze,
And keep me alwayes on my Bended knees.
May all I am and have, be us'd for Him
Whose is my All, for He did me Redeem.
To Thee, Good SPIRIT, I Lift up my Cries,
That thou Wilt fall upon ye Sacrifice.
May the Bright ANGELS be my Guardians then;
For Thee they'l Guard and Guide ye Sons of Men.
By Thee assisted, LORD, thus I Consent
Unto they Everlasting COVENANT.

[I did lift up my Voice to Jah]

[Go then, my DOVE, but now no longer mine]

Go then, my DOVE, but now no longer mine;
Leave Earth, and now in heavenly Glory shine.
Bright for thy Wisdome, Goodness, Beauty here;
Now brighter in a more angelick Sphære.
JESUS, with whom thy Soul did long to be,
Into His Ark, and Arms, has taken thee.
Dear Friends, with whom thou didst so dearly live,
Feel thy one Death to them a thousand give.
Thy Prayers are done; thy Alms are spent; thy Pains
Are ended now, in endless Joyes and Gains.
I faint, till thy last Words to Mind I call;
Rich Words! HEAV'N, HEAV'N WILL MAKE AMENDS FOR ALL.

The Sons of God shouting for Joy at the Arrival of the Lord's-day.

My Saviour's risen from the Dead,
And lives enthron'd Above.
The Price of my Salvation's paid;
My Life is in His Love.
With holy Sabbaths and Peace
Hath me victorious Blest.
Lord, bring thou my Holiness,
To Victory and Rest.

[O Glorious CHRIST of GOD; I live]