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25. CHAPTER XXV.
BUD WOOING.

THE Sunday that Ralph spent in Lewisburg, the
Sunday that Shocky spent in an Earthly Paradise,
the Sunday that Mrs. Thomson spent with Shocky
instead of old Mowley, the Sunday that Miss Nancy
thought was “just like heaven,” was also an eventful
Sunday with Bud Means. He had long adored Miss Martha in
his secret heart, but, like many other giants, while brave
enough to face and fight dragons, he was a coward in the
presence of the woman that he loved. Let us honor him for
it. The man who loves a woman truly, reverences her profoundly,
and feels abashed in her presence. The man who is
never abashed in the presence of womanhood, the man who
tells his love without a tremor, is a heartless, shallow egotist.
Bud's nature was not fine. But it was deep, true, and manly.
To him Martha Hawkins was the chief of women. What was
he that he should aspire to possess her?

And yet on that Sunday, with his crippled arm carefully

bound up, with his cleanest shirt, and with his heavy boots
freshly oiled with the fat of the raccoon, he started hopefully
through fields white with snow to the house of Squire Hawkins.
When he started his spirits were high, but they descended
exactly in proportion to his proximity to the object of his
love. He thought himself not dressed well enough. He
wished his shoulders were not so square, and his arms not so
stout. He wished that he had book-larnin' enough to court in
nice, big words. And so, by recounting his own deficiencies,
he succeeded in making himself feel weak, and awkward, and
generally good-for-nothing, by the time he walked up between
the long rows of hollyhocks to the Squire's front door, to tap
at which took all his remaining strength.

Miss Martha received her perspiring lover most graciously,
but this only convinced Bud more than ever that she was a
superior being. If she had slighted him a bit, so as to awaken
his combativeness a little, his bashfulness would have disappeared.

It was in vain that Martha inquired about his arm and complimented
his courage. Bud could only think of his big feet,
his clumsy hands, and his slow tongue. He answered in
monosyllables, using his red silk handkerchief diligently.

“Is your arm improving?” asked Miss Hawkins.

“Yes, I think it is,” said Bud, hastily crossing his right leg
over his left, and trying to get his fists out of sight.

“Have you heard from Mr. Pearson?”

“No, I ha'n't,” answered Bud, removing his right foot to the
floor again, because it looked so big, and trying to push his left
hand into his pocket.

“Beautiful sunshine, isn't?” said Martha.

“Yes, 'tis,” answered Bud, sticking his right foot up on the
rung of the chair and putting his right hand behind him.

“This snow looks like the snow we have at the East,” said
Martha. “It snowed that way the time I was to Bosting.”

“Did it?” said Bud, not thinking of the snow at all, nor
of Boston, but thinking how much better he would have appeared
had he left his arms and legs at home.

“I suppose Mr. Hartsook rode your horse to Lewisburg?”

“Yes, he did;” and Bud hung both hands at his side.

“You were very kind.”

This set Bud's heart a-going so that he could not say anything,
but he looked eloquently at Miss Hawkins, drew both
feet under the chair, and rammed his hands into his pockets.
Then, suddenly remembering how awkward he must look, he
immediately pulled his hands out again, and crossed his legs.
There was a silence of a few minutes, during which Bud made
up his mind to do the most desperate thing he could think of—
to declare his love and take the consequences.

“You see, Miss Hawkins,” he began, forgetting boots and
fists in his agony, “I thought as how I'd come over here to-day,
and”—but here his heart failed him utterly—“and—see—
you.”

“I'm glad to see you, Mr. Means.”

“And I thought I'd tell you”—Martha was sure it was
coming now, for Bud was in dead earnest—“and I thought I'd
just like to tell you, ef I only know'd jest how to tell it right”—
here Bud got frightened, and did not dare close the sentence
as he had intended—“I thought as how you might like to
know—or ruther I wanted to tell you—that—the—that I—that
we—all of us—think—that I—that we are going to have a
spellin'-school a Chewsday night.”

“I'm real glad to hear it,” said the bland but disappointed
Martha. “We used to have spelling-schools at the East.” But
Miss Martha could not remember that they had them “to
Bosting.”

Hard as it is for a bashful man to talk, it is still more difficult
for him to close the conversation. Most men like to leave

a favorable impression, and a bashful man is always waiting
with the forlorn hope that some favorable turn in the talk
may let him out without absolute discomfiture. And so Bud
stayed a long time, and how he ever did get away he never
could tell.