8
And as she sat on her bed that night, musing and half-undressed, she began to run one hand down her arm and
scrutinize the soft flow of muscle under her skin. She
thought of the marvellous beauty of skin, and all the
delightfulness of living texture. Oh the back of her
arm she found the faintest down of hair in the world.
“Etherialized monkey,” she said. She held out her arm
straight before her, and turned her hand this way and
that.
“Why should one pretend?” she whispered. “Why
should one pretend?
“Think of all the beauty in the world that is covered
up and overlaid.”
She glanced shyly at the mirror above her dressing-table, and then about her at the furniture, as though it
might penetrate to the thoughts that peeped in her mind.
“I wonder,” said Ann Veronica at last, “if I am
beautiful? I wonder if I shall ever shine like a light, like a
translucent goddess? —
“I wonder —
“I suppose girls and women have prayed for this,
have come to this — In Babylon, in Nineveh.
“Why shouldn't one face the facts of one's self?”
She stood up. She posed herself before her mirror
and surveyed herself with gravely thoughtful, gravely
critical, and yet admiring eyes. “And, after all, I am
just one common person!”
She watched the throb of the arteries in the stem of her
neck, and put her hand at last gently and almost timidly
to where her heart beat beneath her breast.