Chapter XLIV
"I would not creep along the coast but steer
Out in mid-sea, by guidance of the stars."
When Dorothea, walking round the laurel-planted plots of
the New Hospital with Lydgate, had learned from him that
there were no signs of change in Mr. Casaubon's bodily
condition beyond the mental sign of anxiety to know the
truth about his illness, she was silent for a few moments,
wondering whether she had said or done anything to rouse
this new
anxiety. Lydgate, not willing to let slip an
opportunity of furthering a favorite purpose, ventured to
say —
"I don't know whether your or Mr. — Casaubon's attention
has been drawn to the needs of our New Hospital.
Circumstances have made it seem rather egotistic in me to
urge the subject; but that is not my fault: it is because
there is a fight being made against it by the other medical
men. I think you are generally interested in such things,
for I remember that when I first had the pleasure of seeing
you at Tipton Grange before your marriage, you were asking
me some questions about the way in which the health of the
poor was affected by their miserable housing."
"Yes, indeed," said Dorothea, brightening. "I shall be
quite grateful to you if you will tell me how I can help to
make things a little better. Everything of that sort has
slipped away from me since I have been married. I mean,"
she said, after a moment's hesitation, " that the people in
our village are tolerably comfortable, and my mind has been
too much taken up for me to inquire further. But here — in
such a place as Middlemarch — there must be a great deal to
be done."
"There is everything to be done," said Lydgate, with
abrupt energy. "And this Hospital is a capital piece of
work, due entirely to Mr. Bulstrode's exertions, and in a
great degree to his money. But one man can't do everything
in a scheme of this sort. Of course he looked forward to
help. And now there's a mean, petty feud set up against the
thing in the town, by certain persons who want to make it a
failure."
"What can be their reasons?" said Dorothea, with
naive surprise.
"Chiefly Mr. Bulstrode's unpopularity, to begin with.
Half the town would almost take trouble for the sake of
thwarting him. In this stupid world most people never
consider that a thing is good to be done unless it is done
by their own set. I had no connection with Bulstrode before
I came here. I look at him quite impartially, and I see
that he has some notions — that he has set things on
foot — which I can turn to good
public purpose. If a
fair number of the better educated men went to work with the
belief that their observations might contribute to the
reform of medical doctrine and practice, we should soon see
a change for the better. That's my point of view. I hold
that by refusing to work with Mr. Bulstrode I should be
turning my back on an opportunity of making my profession
more generally serviceable."
"I quite agree with you," said Dorothea, at once
fascinated by the situation sketched in Lydgate's words. "
But what is there against Mr. Bulstrode? I know that my
uncle is friendly with him."
"People don't like his religious tone," said Lydgate,
breaking off there.
"That is all the stronger reason for despising such an
opposition," said Dorothea, looking at the affairs of
Middlemarch by the light of the great persecutions.
"To put the matter quite fairly, they have other
objections to him: — he is masterful and rather unsociable,
and he is concerned with trade, which has complaints of its
own that I know nothing about. But what has that to do with
the question whether it would not be a fine thing to
establish here a more valuable hospital than any they have
in-the county? The immediate motive to the opposition,
however, is the fact that Bulstrode has put the medical
direction into my hands. Of course I am glad of that. It
gives me an opportunity of doing some good work, — and I am
aware that I have to justify his choice of me. But the
consequence is, that the whole profession in Middlemarch
have set themselves tooth and nail against the Hospital, and
not only refuse to cooperate themselves, but try to blacken
the whole affair and hinder subscriptions."
"How very petty!" exclaimed Dorothea, indignantly.
"I suppose one must expect to fight one's way: there is
hardly anything to be done without it. And the ignorance of
people about here is stupendous. I don't lay claim to
anything else than having used some opportunities which have
not come within everybody's reach; but there is no stifling
the offence of being young, and a new-comer, and happening
to know
something more than the old inhabitants. Still,
if I believe that I can set going a better method of
treatment — if I believe that I can pursue certain
observations and inquiries which may be a lasting benefit to
medical practice, I should be a base truckler if I allowed
any consideration of personal comfort to hinder me. And the
course is all the clearer from there being no salary in
question to put my persistence in an equivocal light."
"I am glad you have told me this, Mr. Lydgate," said
Dorothea, cordially. " I feel sure I can help a little. I
have some money, and don't know what to do with it — that is
often an uncomfortable thought to me. I am sure I can spare
two hundred a-year for a grand purpose like this. How happy
you must be, to know things that you feel sure will do great
good! I wish I could awake with that knowledge every
morning. There seems to be so much trouble taken that one
can hardly see the good of!"
There was a melancholy cadence in Dorothea's voice as
she spoke these last words. But she presently added, more
cheerfully, "Pray come to Lowick and tell us more of this.
I will mention the subject to Mr. Casaubon. I must hasten
home now."
She did mention it that evening, and said that she
should like to subscribe two hundred a-year — she had
seven-hundred a-year as the equivalent of her own fortune,
settled on her at her marriage. Mr. Casaubon made no
objection beyond a passing remark that the sum might be
disproportionate in relation to other good objects, but when
Dorothea in her ignorance resisted that suggestion, he
acquiesced. He did not care himself about spending money,
and was not reluctant to give it. If he ever felt keenly
any question of money it was through the medium of another
passion than the love of material property.
Dorothea told him that she had seen Lydgate, and recited
the gist of her conversation with him about the Hospital.
Mr. Casaubon did not question her further, but he felt sure
that she had wished to know what had passed between Lydgate
and himself "She knows that I know," said the
ever
restless voice within; but that increase of tacit
knowledge only thrust further off any confidence between
them. He distrusted her affection; and what loneliness is
more lonely than distrust?