Collected poems of Thomas Hardy | ||
LATE LYRICS AND EARLIER
WEATHERS
I
This is the weather the cuckoo likes,And so do I;
When showers betumble the chestnut spikes,
And nestlings fly:
And the little brown nightingale bills his best,
And they sit outside at “The Travellers' Rest,”
And maids come forth sprig-muslin drest,
And citizens dream of the south and west,
And so do I.
II
This is the weather the shepherd shuns,And so do I;
When beeches drip in browns and duns,
And thresh, and ply;
And hill-hid tides throb, throe on throe,
And meadow rivulets overflow,
And drops on gate-bars hang in a row,
And rooks in families homeward go,
And so do I.
THE MAID OF KEINTON MANDEVILLE
(A TRIBUTE TO SIR H. BISHOP)
Of Keinton Mandeville
Singing, in flights that played
Till they made our mood a thrall
To their aery rise and fall,
“Should he upbraid!”
From a stage in Stower Town
Did she sing, and singing smile
As she blent that dexterous voice
With the ditty of her choice,
And banished our annoys
Thereawhile.
To wing the heaviest hour
Of him who housed with her.
Who did I never knew
When her spoused estate ondrew,
And her warble flung its woo
In his ear.
Time-trenched on cheek and brow,
Whom I once heard as a maid
From Keinton Mandeville
Of matchless scope and skill
Sing, with smile and swell and trill.
“Should he upbraid!”
SUMMER SCHEMES
Calls again
Her little fifers to these hills,
We'll go—we two—to that arched fane
Of leafage where they prime their bills
Before they start to flood the plain
With quavers, minims, shakes, and trills.
“—We'll go,” I sing; but who shall say
What may not chance before that day!
Waters spring
From chinks the scrubby copses crown;
And we shall trace their oncreeping
To where the cascade tumbles down
And sends the bobbing growths aswing,
And ferns not quite but almost drown.
“—We shall,” I say; but who may sing
Of what another moon will bring!
EPEISODIA
I
Past the hills that peepWhere the leaze is smiling,
On and on beguiling
Crisply-cropping sheep;
Under boughs of brushwood
Linking tree and tree
In a shade of lushwood,
There caressed we!
II
Hemmed by city wallsThat outshut the sunlight,
In a foggy dun light,
Where the footstep falls
With a pit-pat wearisome
In its cadency
On the flagstones drearisome
There pressed we!
III
Where in wild-winged crowdsBlown birds show their whiteness
Up against the lightness
Of the clammy clouds;
By the random river
Pushing to the sea,
Under bents that quiver
There shall rest we.
FAINTHEART IN A RAILWAY TRAIN
At ten there passed me by the sea,
At twelve a town of smoke and smirch,
At two a forest of oak and birch,
And then, on a platform, she:
I said, “Get out to her do I dare?”
But I kept my seat in my search for a plea,
And the wheels moved on. O could it but be
That I had alighted there!
AT MOONRISE AND ONWARDS
On Heath-Plantation Hill,
Dealing out mischief the most dire
To the chattels of men of hire
There in their vill.
You turned a yellow-green,
Like a large glow-worm in the sky;
And then I could descry
Your mood and mien.
Your furtive feminine shape!
As if reluctantly you show
You nude of cloud, and but by favour throw
Aside its drape . . . .
Have you kept pace with me,
Wan Woman of the waste up there
Behind a hedge, or the bare
Bough of a tree!
O Lady of all my time,
Veering unbid into my view
Whether I near Death's mew,
Or Life's top cyme!
THE GARDEN SEAT
And its once firm legs sink in and in;
Soon it will break down unaware,
Soon it will break down unaware.
Those who once sat thereon come back;
Quite a row of them sitting there,
Quite a row of them sitting there.
Nor winter freeze them, nor floods drown,
For they are as light as upper air,
They are as light as upper air!
BARTHÉLÉMON AT VAUXHALL
François Hippolite Barthélémon, first-fiddler at Vauxhall Gardens, compose what was probably the most popular morning hymn-tune ever written. It was formerly sung, full-voiced, every Sunday in most churches, to Bishop Ken's words, but is now seldom heard.
And paused upon the bridge, his eyes due east,
Where was emerging like a full-robed priest
The irradiate globe that vouched the dark as done.
Who in the adjacent gardens charged his string,
Nightly, with many a tuneful tender thing,
Till stars were weak, and dancing hours outrun.
In trial tones as he pursued his way:
“This is a morn,” he murmured, “well begun:
This strain to Ken will count when I am clay!”
It spread to galleried naves and mighty quires.
“I SOMETIMES THINK”
Of things I have done,
Which seemed in doing not unfit
To face the sun:
Yet never a soul has paused a whit
On such—not one.
To sow good seed;
There was that saving from distress
In the nick of need;
There were those words in the wilderness:
Who cared to heed?
For one did care,
And, spiriting into my house, to, fro,
Like wind on the stair,
Cares still, heeds all, and will, even though
I may despair.
JEZREEL
ON ITS SEIZURE BY THE ENGLISH UNDER ALLENBY, SEPTEMBER 1918
When their cavalry smote through the ancient Esdraelon Plain,
And they crossed where the Tishbite stood forth in his enemy's way—
His gaunt mournful Shade as he bade the King haste off amain?
Who slay with their arms of new might in that long-ago place,
Flashed he who drove furiously? . . . Ah, did the phantom arise
Of that queen, of that proud Tyrian woman who painted her face?
Spectre-spots of the blood of her body on some rotten wall?
And the thin note of pity that came: “A King's daughter is she,”
As they passed where she trodden was once by the chargers' footfall?
Of pursuit, at the dusk-hour, ere slumber their senses could seal?
Enghosted seers, kings—one on horseback who asked “Is it peace?” . . .
Yea, strange things and spectral may men have beheld in Jezreel!
A JOG-TROT PAIR
So many times together
Hither and back,
In spells of certain and uncertain weather?
Who wandered to and fro here
Day by day:
Two that few dwellers troubled themselves to know here.
That daily they would follow:
Borders trim:
Never a wayward sprout, or hump, or hollow.
Had tended to their plighting.
“It's just worth while,
Perhaps,” they had said. “And saves much sad good-nighting.”
That ministered to their joyance:
Simple things,
Onerous to satiate souls, increased their buoyance
Of days the plainest, barest?
They were we;
Yes; happier than the cleverest, smartest, rarest.
“THE CURTAINS NOW ARE DRAWN”
(SONG)
I
The curtains now are drawn,And the spindrift strikes the glass,
Blown up the jaggèd pass
By the surly salt sou'-west,
And the sneering glare is gone
Behind the yonder crest,
While she sings to me:
“O the dream that thou art my Love, be it thine,
And the dream that I am thy Love, be it mine,
And death may come, but loving is divine.”
II
I stand here in the rain,With its smite upon her stone,
And the grasses that have grown
Over women, children, men,
And their texts that “Life is vain;”
But I hear the notes as when
Once she sang to me:
“O the dream that thou art my Love, be it thine,
And the dream that I am thy Love, be it mine,
And death may come, but loving is divine.”
“ACCORDING TO THE MIGHTY WORKING”
I
When moiling seems at ceaseIn the vague void of night-time,
And heaven's wide roomage stormless
Between the dusk and light-time,
And fear at last is formless,
We call the allurement Peace.
II
Peace, this hid riot, Change,This revel of quick-cued mumming,
This never truly being,
This evermore becoming,
This spinner's wheel onfleeing
Outside perception's range.
“I WAS NOT HE”
(SONG)
Who used to pilgrim to your gate,
At whose smart step you grew elate,
And rosed, as maidens can,
For a brief span.
Beside the keys you touched so true
With note-bent eyes, as if with you
It counted not whence sprang
The voice that rang . . . .
It was to miss your early sweet,
You still, when turned to you my feet,
Had sweet enough to be
A prize for me!
THE WEST-OF-WESSEX GIRL
As blithe as blithe could be,
Was once well-known to me,
And she would laud her native town,
And hope and hope that we
Might sometime study up and down
Its charms in company.
In jaunts to Hoe or street
When hearts were high in beat,
Nor saw her in the marbled ways
Where market-people meet
That in her bounding early days
Were friendly with her feet.
When midnight hammers slow
From Andrew's, blow by blow,
As phantom draws me by the hand
To the place—Plymouth Hoe—
Where side by side in life, as planned,
We never were to go!
WELCOME HOME
Bent upon returning,
Bosom all day burning
To be where my race
Well were known, 'twas keen with me
There to dwell in amity.
But I hailed: to view me
Under the moon, out to me
Several pushed their heads,
And to each I told my name,
Plans, and that therefrom I came.
Said they, “back a long time,
Here had spent his young time,
Some such man as you . . .
Good-night.” The casement closed again,
And I was left in the frosty lane.
GOING AND STAYING
I
The moving sun-shapes on the spray,The sparkles where the brook was flowing,
Pink faces, plightings, moonlit May,
These were the things we wished would stay;
But they were going.
II
Seasons of blankness as of snow,The silent bleed of a world decaying,
The moan of multitudes in woe,
These were the things we wished would go;
But they were staying.
III
Then we looked closelier at Time,And saw his ghostly arms revolving
To sweep off woeful things with prime,
Things sinister with things sublime
Alike dissolving.
READ BY MOONLIGHT
By the moon's cold shine,
Eyeing it in the tenderest way,
And edging it up to catch each ray
Upon her light-penned line.
Of her life's span and mine
Ere I read another letter of hers
By the moon's cold shine!
By the moon's cold shine;
It is the one remaining page
Out of the many shallow and sage
Whereto she set her sign.
Who could foresee there were to be
Such missives of pain and pine
Ere I should read this last of hers
By the moon's cold shine!
AT A HOUSE IN HAMPSTEAD
SOMETIME THE DWELLING OF JOHN KEATS
Where streets have stolen up all around,
And never a nightingale pours one
Full-throated sound?
Thought you to find all just the same
Here shining, as in hours of old,
If you but came?
At seeing that changes wrought in Rome
Are wrought yet more on the misty slope
One time your home?
Swing the doors open noisily?
Show as an umbraged ghost beside
Your ancient tree?
You further and yet further look,
Learn that a laggard few would fain
Preserve your nook? . . .
And catch late light at eventide,
I once stood, in that Rome, and thought,
“'Twas here he died.”
Where day and night a pyramid keeps
Uplifted its white hand, and said,
“'Tis there he sleeps.”
That here, where sang he, more of him
Remains than where he, tuneless, cold,
Passed to the dim.
A WOMAN'S FANCY
'Twas sad—your husband's so swift death,
And you away! You shouldn't have left him:
It hastened his last breath.”
I know not her, nor know her name;
I've come to lodge here—a friendless woman;
My health my only aim.”
They held her as no other than
The lady named; and told how her husband
Had died a forsaken man.
Mistakenly, by that man's name,
So much did they declare about him,
That his past form and fame
As if she truly had been the cause—
Yea, his deserter; and came to wonder
What mould of man he was.
“Our history,” she said mournfully.
“But you know, surely, Ma'am?” they would answer,
Much in perplexity.
And a second time in the dusk of the morrow;
Then a third time, with crescent emotion
Like a bereaved wife's sorrow.
—“I marvel why this is?” she said.
—“He had no kindred, Ma'am, but you near.”
—She set a stone at his head.
“In slumber often uprises he,
And says: ‘I am joyed that, after all, Dear,
You've not deserted me!’”
As he had died she had grown to crave;
And at her dying she besought them
To bury her in his grave.
“Call me by his name on the stone,
As I were, first to last, his dearest,
Not she who left him lone!”
That, by the strength of a tender whim,
The stranger was she who bore his name there,
Not she who wedded him.
HER SONG
To witch an idle while,
I sang that song on Monday,
As fittest to beguile:
And the new slid in;
I thought not what might shape before
Another would begin.
All unforeknowingly,
To him as a new-comer
From regions strange to me:
I sang it when in afteryears
The shades stretched out,
And paths were faint; and flocking fears
Brought cup-eyed care and doubt.
In some dim land afar,
On Saturdays, or Mondays,
As when the evening star
Glimpsed in upon his bending face,
And my hanging hair,
And time untouched me with a trace
Of soul-smart or despair?
A WET AUGUST
And nine-and-ninety smear the stones and tiles:
—'Twas not so in that August—full-rayed, fine—
When we lived out-of-doors, sang songs, strode miles.
Of summer? Were dun clouds, a dribbling bough,
Gilt over by the light I bore in me,
And was the waste world just the same as now?
Of coming down-drip on the sunless gray,
By the then golden chances seen in things
Were wrought more bright than brightest skies to-day.
THE DISSEMBLERS
Only myself,” flipped she;
“I like this spot of phantasies,
And thought you far from me.”
But O, he was the secret spell
That led her to the lea!
Or works, or thoughts,” he said.
“I scarcely marked her living days,
Or missed her much when dead.”
But O, his joyance knew its knell
When daisies hid her head!
TO A LADY PLAYING AND SINGING IN THE MORNING
And I will lurk here listening,
Though nought be done, and nought begun,
And work-hours swift are scurrying.
Aye, I will wait each note you trill,
Though duties due that press to do
This whole day long I unfulfil.
One not designed to waste the noon,”
You say. I know: time bids me go—
For daytide passes too, too soon!
This once, to my rash ecstasy:
When sounds nowhere that carolled air
My idled morn may comfort me!
“A MAN WAS DRAWING NEAR TO ME”
Apart from aught to hear, to see,
I dreamt not that from shires unknown
In gloom, alone,
By Halworthy,
A man was drawing near to me.
No sense of coming pull-heart play;
Yet, under the silent outspreading
Of even's wing
Where Otterham lay,
A man was riding up my way.
But only of trifles—legends, ghosts—
Though, on the moorland dim and dun
That travellers shun
About these coasts,
The man had passed Tresparret Posts.
Only the seaward pharos-fire,
Nothing to let me understand
That hard at hand
By Hennett Byre
The man was getting nigh and nigher.
A draught disturbed the drapery,
And but a minute passed before,
With gaze that bore
My destiny,
The man revealed himself to me.
THE STRANGE HOUSE
(MAX GATE, A.D. 2000)
Just as a ghost might play.”
“—O, but what are you saying?
There's no piano to-day;
Years past it went amiss.”
“—I heard it, or shouldn't have spoken:
A strange house, this!
From some one out of sight.”
“—Impossible; we are alone here,
And shall be through the night.”
“—The parlour-door—what stirred it?”
“—No one: no soul's in range.”
“—But, anyhow, I heard it,
And it seems strange!
A figure is on the stair!”
“—What figure? Nay, I scan not
Any one lingering there.
A bough outside is waving,
And that's its shade by the moon.”
“—Well, all is strange! I am craving
Strength to leave soon.”
Of showings beyond our sphere;
Some sight, sense, intuition
Of what once happened here?
The house is old; they've hinted
It once held two love-thralls,
And they may have imprinted
Their dreams on its walls?
Queer in their works and ways;
The teller would often hold me
With weird tales of those days,
Some folk can not abide here,
But we—we do not care
Who loved, laughed, wept, or died here,
Knew joy, or despair.”
“AS 'TWERE TO-NIGHT”
(SONG)
Of a far eventime,
My spirit rang achime
At vision of a girl of grace;
As 'twere to-night, in the brief space
Of a far eventime.
I airily walked and talked,
And wondered as I walked
What it could mean, this soar from sorrow;
As 'twere at noontide of to-morrow
I airily walked and talked.
Broke a new life on me;
Trancings of bliss to be
In some dim dear land soon to seek;
As 'twere at waning of this week
Broke a new life on me!
THE CONTRETEMPS
And we clasped, and almost kissed;
But she was not the woman whom
I had promised to meet in the thawing brume
On that harbour-bridge; nor was I he of her tryst.
“O why, why feign to be
The one I had meant!—to whom I have sped
To fly with, being so sorrily wed!”
—'Twas thus and thus that she upbraided me.
Some others' like it, I found.
And her lover rose on the night anon;
And then her husband entered on
The lamplit, snowflaked, sloppiness around.
“I wash my hands of her.
I'll find me twice as good a bride!”
—All this to me, whom he had eyed,
Plainly, as his wife's planned deliverer.
Madam, you had a third!
Kissing here in my very view!”
—Husband and lover then withdrew.
I let them; and I told them not they erred.
Two strangers who'd kissed, or near,
Chancewise. To see stand weeping by
A woman once embraced, will try
The tension of a man the most austere.
She pretty, by the lamp,
As flakes came waltzing down among
The waves of her clinging hair, that hung
Heavily on her temples, dark and damp.
She one cast off for me,
Or so it seemed: while night ondrew,
Forcing a parley what should do
We twain hearts caught in one catastrophe
Wakes latencies unknown,
Whose impulse may precipitate
A life-long leap. The hour was late,
And there was the Jersey boat with its funnel agroan.
It grunted, as still it stayed.
“One pairing is as good as another
Where all is venture! Take each other,
And scrap the oaths that you have aforetime made.”
On earth at this late day.
And what of the chapter so begun?
In that odd complex what was done?
Well; happiness comes in full to none:
Let peace lie on lulled lips: I will not say.
A GENTLEMAN'S EPITAPH ON HIMSELF AND A LADY, WHO WERE BURIED TOGETHER
She far by the sea,
With folk perhaps good, gracious, witty;
But never with me.
I never once met,
To guide her with accents adoring
Through Weippert's “First Set.”
In Vanity Fair,
And she enjoyed hers among hale ones
In salt-smelling air.
Maybe they were blue,
Maybe as she aged they got duller;
That never I knew.
But I never kissed them,
Saw pouting, nor curling in quarrel,
Nor sought for, nor missed them.
Between us, nor thrill;
We'd never a husband-and-wife time,
For good or for ill.
Lie I and lies she,
This never-known lady, eternal
Companion to me!
THE OLD GOWN
(SONG)
Of azure, green, and red,
And in the simplest, whitest,
Muslined from heel to head;
I have watched her walking, riding,
Shade-flecked by a leafy tree,
Or in fixed thought abiding
By the foam-fingered sea.
When boughs were mourning loud,
In the rain-reek she has shown her
Wild-haired and watery-browed.
And once or twice she has cast me
As she pomped along the street
Court-clad, ere quite she had passed me,
A glance from her chariot-seat.
For evermore stand she
In the gown of fading fashion
She wore that night when we,
In the snug small room; yea, when
She sang with lips that trembled,
“Shall I see his face again?”
A NIGHT IN NOVEMBER
And the panes began to quake,
And the winds rose up and ranged,
That night, lying half-awake.
And alighted upon my bed,
And a tree declared to the gloom
Its sorrow that they were shed.
And I thought that it was you
There stood as you used to stand,
And saying at last you knew!
A DUETTIST TO HER PIANOFORTE
SONG OF SILENCE
(E. L. H.—H. C. H.)
How can I play you
Just as I might if you raised no scene,
By your ivory rows, of a form between
My vision and your time-worn sheen,
As when each day you
Answered our fingers with ecstasy?
So it's hushed, hushed, hushed, you are for me!
Her notes no more
In those old things I used to know,
In a fashion, when we practised so,
“Good-night!—Good-bye!” to your pleated show
Of silk, now hoar,
Each nodding hammer, and pedal and key,
For dead, dead, dead, you are to me!
As when she was by,
Aye, even from the ancient clamorous “Fall
Of Paris,” or “Battle of Prague” withal,
To the “Roving Minstrels,” or “Elfin Call”
Sung soft as a sigh:
But upping ghosts press achefully,
And mute, mute, mute, you are for me!
Afresh on the air,
Too quick would the small white shapes be here
Of the fellow twain of hands so dear;
And a black-tressed profile, and pale smooth ear;
—Then how shall I bear
Such heavily-haunted harmony?
Nay: hushed, hushed, hushed, you are for me!
“WHERE THREE ROADS JOINED”
And over a gate was the sun-glazed sea,
And life laughed sweet when I halted there;
Yet there I never again would be.
With a wistful blankness upon their face,
While the few mute passengers notice how
Spectre-beridden is the place;
And grieves that a pair, in bliss for a spell
Not far from thence, should have let it roll
Away from them down a plumbless well
And of her who was waiting him sobs from near
As they haunt there and drink the wormwood cup
They filled for themselves when their sky was clear.
While over the gate is no sun-glazed sea;
And though life laughed when I halted there,
It is where I never again would be.
“AND THERE WAS A GREAT CALM”
(ON THE SIGNING OF THE ARMISTICE, NOV. 11, 1918)
I
There had been years of Passion—scorching, cold,And much Despair, and Anger heaving high,
Care whitely watching, Sorrows manifold,
Among the young, among the weak and old,
And the pensive Spirit of Pity whispered, “Why?”
II
Men had not paused to answer. Foes distraughtPierced the thinned peoples in a brute-like blindness,
Philosophies that sages long had taught,
And Selflessness, were as an unknown thought,
And “Hell!” and “Shell!” were yapped at Lovingkindness.
III
The feeble folk at home had grown full-usedTo “dug-outs,” “snipers,” “Huns,” from the war-adept
In the mornings heard, and at evetides perused;
To day-dreamt men in millions, when they mused—
To nightmare-men in millions when they slept.
IV
Waking to wish existence timeless, null,Sirius they watched above where armies fell;
He seemed to check his flapping when, in the lull
Of night a boom came thencewise, like the dull
Plunge of a stone dropped into some deep well.
V
So, when old hopes that earth was bettering slowlyWere dead and damned, there sounded “War is done!”
One morrow. Said the bereft, and meek, and lowly,
“Will men some day be given to grace? yea, wholly,
And in good sooth, as our dreams used to run?”
VI
Breathless they paused. Out there men raised their glanceTo where had stood those poplars lank and lopped,
As they had raised it through the four years' dance
Of Death in the now familiar flats of France;
And murmured, “Strange, this! How? All firing stopped?”
VII
Aye; all was hushed. The about-to-fire fired not,The aimed-at moved away in trance-lipped song.
One checkless regiment slung a clinching shot
And turned. The Spirit of Irony smirked out, “What?
Spoil peradventures woven of Rage and Wrong?”
VIII
Thenceforth no flying fires inflamed the gray,No hurtlings shook the dewdrop from the thorn,
No moan perplexed the mute bird on the spray;
Worn horses mused: “We are not whipped to-day”;
No weft-winged engines blurred the moon's thin horn.
IX
Calm fell. From Heaven distilled a clemency;There was peace on earth, and silence in the sky;
Some could, some could not, shake off misery:
The Sinister Spirit sneered: “It had to be!”
And again the Spirit of Pity whispered, “Why?”
HAUNTING FINGERS
A PHANTASY IN A MUSEUM OF MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS
Comrades, this silent night?
Well 'twere if all of our glossy gluey make
Lay in the damp without, and fell to fragments quite!”
I watch, though Phosphor nears,
And I fain would drowse away to its utter end
This dumb dark stowage after our loud melodious years!”
Though none was in the room,
Old players' dead fingers touch them,
Shrunk in the tomb.
You speak my mind as yours:
Doomed to this voiceless, crippled, corpselike state,
Who, dear to famed Amphion, trapped here, long endures?”
The populace through and through,
Wake them to passioned pulsings past their will.” . . .
(A contra-basso spake so, and the rest sighed anew.)
Over their tense contours,
And with long skill unravel
Cunningest scores.
Of her aery finger-tips
Upon me daily—I rejoiced thereat!”
(Thuswise a harpsicord, as 'twere from dampered lips.)
Now sallow, met a hand
Even whiter. . . . Tones of hers fell forth with mine
In sowings of sound so sweet no lover could withstand!”
Like tapering flames—wan, cold—
Or the nebulous light that lingers
In charnel mould.
Was I,” reverbed a drum;
“The regiments, marchings, throngs, hurrahs! What a host
I stirred—even when crape mufflings gagged me well-nigh dumb!
“Much tune have I set free
To spur the dance, since my first timid trial
Where I had birth—far hence, in sun-swept Italy!”
From those that pressed him then;
Who seem with their glance to con him,
Saying, “Not again!”
Mourned a shawm's voice subdued,
“Steeped my Cecilian rhythms when hymn and psalm
Poured from devout souls met in Sabbath sanctitude.”
Nightly,” twanged a sick lyre,
“Over ranked lights! O charm of life in mock,
O scenes that fed love, hope, wit, rapture, mirth, desire!”
Stroked thinner and more thin,
And the morning sky grew grayer
And day crawled in.
THE WOMAN I MET
A lamp-lit crowd;
And anon there passed me a soul departed,
Who mutely bowed.
Full-pulsed; but now, no more life's debtor,
Onward she slid
In a shroud that furs half-hid.
Trouble me;
You whom I knew when warm and human?
—How it be
That you quitted earth and are yet upon it
Is, to any who ponder on it,
Past being read!”
“Still, it is so,” she said.
Hours of breath;
Here I went tempting frail youth nightly
To their death;
But you deemed me chaste—me, a tinselled sinner!
How thought you one with pureness in her
Could pace this street
Eyeing some man to greet?
Mid such town dross,
Till I set not Heaven itself above you,
Who grew my Cross;
For you'd only nod, despite how I sighed for you;
So you tortured me, who fain would have died for you!
—What I suffered then
Would have paid for the sins of ten!
To fling me a nod
Each time, no more: till love chastised me
As with a rod
That a fresh bland boy of no assurance
Should fire me with passion beyond endurance,
While others all
I hated, and loathed their call.
Hovering around
As still I found
My beauty left no least impression,
And remnants of pride withheld confession
Of my true trade
By speaking; so I delayed.
He'll be beguiled.’
I held it, in passing you one late hour,
To your face: you smiled,
Keeping step with the throng; though you did not see there
A single one that rivalled me there! . . .
Well: it's all past.
I died in the Lock at last.”
The quick among,
Elbowing our kind of every feather
Slowly and long;
Yea, long and slowly. That a phantom should stalk there
With me seemed nothing strange, and talk there
That winter night
By flaming jets of light.
Guessing their lot;
She showed me her sort that cursed their fall-time,
And that did not.
Till suddenly murmured she: “Now, tell me,
Why asked you never, ere death befell me,
To have my love,
Much as I dreamt thereof?”
All in my heart,
Said: “God your guardian kept our fleeting
Forms apart!”
Sighing and drawing her furs around her
Over the shroud that tightly bound her,
With wafts as from clay
She turned and thinned away.
“IF IT'S EVER SPRING AGAIN”
(SONG)
Spring again,
I shall go where went I when
Down the moor-cock splashed, and hen,
Seeing me not, amid their flounder,
Standing with my arm around her;
If it's ever spring again,
Spring again,
I shall go where went I then.
Summer-time,
With the hay crop at the prime,
And the cuckoos—two—in rhyme,
As they used to be, or seemed to,
We shall do as long we've dreamed to,
If it's ever summer-time,
Summer-time,
With the hay, and bees achime.
THE TWO HOUSES
When farers were not near,
The left house said to the house on the right,
“I have marked your rise, O smart newcomer here.”
“Newcomer here I am,
Hence haler than you with your cracked old hide,
Loose casements, wormy beams, and doors that jam.
My hangings fair of hue;
While my windows open as they should,
And water-pipes thread all my chambers through.
Your face wears furrows untold.”
“—Yours might,” mourned the other, “if you held, brother,
The Presences from aforetime that I hold.
Men's lives, deaths, toils, and teens;
You are but a heap of stick and stone:
A new house has no sense of the have-beens.
You stand: I am packed with these,
Though, strangely, living dwellers who come
See not the phantoms all my substance sees!
Stand they, when dawn drags in;
Visible at night; yet hint or warning
Of these thin elbowers few of the inmates win.
Obsess my rooms; straight-stretched
Lank corpses, ere outborne to earth;
Yea, throng they as when first from the Byss upfetched.
Throb in me now as once;
Rich-noted throats and gossamered flingers
Of heels; the learned in love-lore and the dunce.
The bridegroom and the bride,
Who smile and greet their friends and kin,
And down my stairs depart for tracks untried.
A dwelling's character
Takes theirs, and a vague semblancy
To them in all its limbs, and light, and atmosphere.
My tenants, who come and go
In the flesh mid these, with souls unwoke,
Of such sylph-like surrounders do not know.”
Said the new one, awestruck, faint,
“When I shall lodge shades dim and dumb—
And with such spectral guests become acquaint?”
Such shades will people thee,
Each in his misery, irk, or joy,
And print on thee their presences as on me.”
ON STINSFORD HILL AT MIDNIGHT
Sing-songing airily
Against the moon; and still she sang,
And took no heed of me.
What first I had not scanned,
That now and then she tapped and shook
A timbrel in her hand.
So strange the look it lent
To that blank hill, I could not guess
What phantastry it meant.
Are you so happy now?”
Her voice swam on; nor did she show
Thought of me anyhow.
That kind of note I need!”
The song kept softening, loudening on,
In placid calm unheed.
“You seem to have no care.”
But the wild wavering tune went forth
As if I had not been there.
I said, “I cannot be!”
But still the happy one sang on,
And had no heed of me.
THE FALLOW DEER AT THE LONELY HOUSE
Through the curtain-chink
From the sheet of glistening white;
One without looks in to-night
As we sit and think
By the fender-brink.
Watching in the snow;
Lit by lamps of rosy dyes
We do not discern those eyes
Wondering, aglow,
Fourfooted, tiptoe.
THE SELFSAME SONG
With never a fault in its flow,
That we listened to here those long
Long years ago.
A strain of such rapturous rote
Should have gone on thus till now
Unchanged in a note!
No: perished to dust is he. . . .
As also are those who heard
That song with me.
THE WANDERER
But I,
And no beseeming abode
I can try
For shelter, so abroad
I must lie.
And to be
The lights by which I sup
Glimmeringly,
Set out in a hollow cup
Over me.
Panting for joy
Where they shine, above all care.
And annoy,
And demons of despair—
Life's alloy.
Feet swing past,
Clock-like, and then go hence,
Till at last
There is a silence, dense,
Deep, and vast.
To and fro,
To-morrow, at the dawn,
On I go,
And where I rest anon
Do not know!
And roofless plight;
For there's a house of clay,
My own, quite,
To roof me soon, all day
And all night.
A WIFE COMES BACK
Of his life's one day of dreamery.
Between the dawn and the creeping day.
She was the years-wed wife from whom
He had parted, and who lived far away,
As if strangers they.
She put on youth in her look and air,
And more was he wonderstruck as he viewed
Her form and flesh bloom yet more fair
While he watched her there;
That were hers on the night when first they met,
When she was the charm of the idle town,
And he the pick of the club-fire set. . . .
His eyes grew wet,
He cried. “Abide with me so, my own!”
But his arms closed in on his hard bare breast;
She had vanished with all he had looked upon
Of her beauty: gone.
But she was not in the house, he found;
And he passed out under the leafy pairs
Of the avenue elms, and searched around
To the park-pale bound.
To the city to which she had long withdrawn,
The vision he bore all day in his sight
Being her young self as pondered on
In the dim of dawn.
Is she now here?—young—or such age as she is?”
“—She is still here.”—“Thank God. Let her know;
She'll pardon a comer so late as this
Whom she'd fain not miss.”
Who hemmed, with features frozen and numb,
“How strange!—I'd almost forgotten your name!—
A call just now—is troublesome;
Why did you come?”
A YOUNG MAN'S EXHORTATION
By some determined deftness; put forth joys
Dear as excess without the core that cloys,
And charm Life's lourings fair.
That girdles us, and fill it full with glee,
Blind glee, excelling aught could ever be
Were heedfulness in power.
That limitless recruits from Fancy's pack
Shall rush upon your tongue, and tender back
All that your soul contains.
That a fresh love-leaf crumpled soon will dry,
And that men moment after moment die,
Of all scope dispossest.
It is the passing preciousness of dreams;
That aspects are within us; and who seems
Most kingly is the King.
AT LULWORTH COVE A CENTURY BACK
I might have gone, as I have gone this year,
By Warmwell Cross on to a Cove I know,
And Time have placed his finger on me there:
“O yes: I see him. One that boat has brought
Which dropped down Channel round Saint Alban's Head.
So commonplace a youth calls not my thought.”
Of an idling town-sort; thin; hair brown in hue;
And as the evening light scants less and less
He looks up at a star, as many do.”
“I have fifteen miles to vamp across the lea,
And it grows dark, and I am weary-kneed:
I have said the third time; yes, that man I see!”
And no one notes him now but you and I:
A hundred years, and the world will follow him there,
And bend with reverence where his ashes lie.”
In September 1820 Keats, on his way to Rome, landed one day on the Dorset coast, and composed the sonnet, “Bright star! would I were steadfast as thou art.” The spot of his landing is judged to have been Lulworth Cove.
A BYGONE OCCASION
(SONG)
That song, that song!
Will such again be evened quite
Through lifetimes long?
To outer seers,
But mood to match has not been known
In modern years.
O lips that lured;
That such would last was one beguiled
To think ensured!
That song, that song;
O drink to its recalled delight,
Though tears may throng!
TWO SERENADES
I On Christmas Eve
Outside a house, on the pavement-stone,
I sang to her, as we'd sung together
On former eves ere I felt her tether.—
Above the door of green by me
Was she, her casement seen by me;
But she would not heed
What I melodied
In my soul's sore need—
She would not heed.
And the Seven of the Wain, heard what I said
As I bent me there, and voiced, and fingered
Upon the strings. . . . Long, long I lingered:
Only the curtains hid from her
One whom caprice had bid from her;
But she did not come,
And my heart grew numb
And dull my strum;
She did not come.
II A Year Later
I hoped she would not come or know
That the house next door was the one now dittied,
Not hers, as when I had played unpitied;
—Next door, where dwelt a heart fresh stirred,
My new Love, of good will to me,
Unlike my old Love chill to me,
Who had not cared for my notes when heard:
Yet that old Love came
To the other's name
As hers were the claim;
Yea, the old Love came.
I tried to sing on, but vain my will:
I prayed she would guess of the later, and leave me;
She stayed, as though, were she slain by the smart,
She would bear love's burn for a newer heart.
The tense-drawn moment wrought to bereave me
Of voice, and I turned in a dumb despair
At her finding I'd come to another there.
Sick I withdrew
At love's grim hue
Ere my last Love knew;
Sick I withdrew.
THE WEDDING MORNING
“Tabby, why look so sad?”
“—O I feel a great gloominess spreading, spreading,
Instead of supremely glad! . . .
And he came whilst I was there,
Not knowing I'd called. So I kept out of sight,
And I heard what he said to her:
You, Dear, to-morrow!’ he said,
‘But that cannot be.’—O I'd give him to Carry,
And willingly see them wed,
His baby will soon be born?
After that I hope I may die. And then
She can have him. I shall not mourn!”
END OF THE YEAR 1912
You are not here at his agèd end;
Off he coaxed you from Life's mad spinning,
Lest you should see his form extend
Shivering, sighing,
Slowly dying,
And a tear on him expend.
In the star-lit avenue,
Dropping broken lipwords only,
For we hear no songs from you,
Such as flew here
For the new year
Once, while six bells swung thereto.
THE CHIMES PLAY “LIFE'S A BUMPER!”
I said; and rose, on peradventures bent.
The chimes played “Life's a Bumper!” long that day
To the measure of my walking as I went:
Their sweetness frisked and floated on the lea,
As they played out “Life's a Bumper!” there to me.
—The sun arose behind me ruby-red
As I journeyed townwards from the countryside,
The chiming bells saluting near ahead.
As they played out “Life's a Bumper!” there to me.
And go forth slowly on an autumn noon,
And there I lay her who has been my hope,
And think, “O may I follow hither soon!”
While on the wind the chimes come cheerily,
Playing out “Life's a Bumper!” there to me.
“I WORKED NO WILE TO MEET YOU”
(SONG)
My sight was set elsewhere,
I sheered about to shun you,
And lent your life no care.
I was unprimed to greet you
At such a date and place,
Constraint alone had won you
Vision of my strange face!
Then or at all, you said,
—Meant passing when you neared me,
But stumbling-blocks forbade.
You even had thought to flee me,
By other mindings moved;
No influent star endeared me,
Unknown, unrecked, unproved!
The flux of flustering hours
Of their own tide would bring us
By no device of ours
To where the daysprings well us
Heart-hydromels that cheer,
Till Time enearth and swing us
Round with the turning sphere.
AT THE RAILWAY STATION, UPWAY
For I've no money that's quite my own!”
Spoke up the pitying child—
A little boy with a violin
At the station before the train came in,—
“But I can play my fiddle to you,
And a nice one 'tis, and good in tone!”
The constable looked, and he smiled, too,
As the fiddle began to twang;
And the man in the handcuffs suddenly sang
With grimful glee:
“This life so free
Is the thing for me!”
And the constable smiled, and said no word,
As if unconscious of what he heard;
And so they went on till the train came in—
The convict, and boy with the violin.
SIDE BY SIDE
The estranged two,
Thrust in one pew
By chance that day;
Placed so, breath-nigh,
Each comer unwitting
Who was to be sitting
In touch close by.
Blindly alighted,
They seemed united
As groom and bride,
Who'd not communed
For many years—
Lives from twain spheres
With hearts distuned.
His garment's hem
As the harmonies rushed
Through each of them:
Her lips could be heard
In the creed and psalms,
And their fingers neared
At the giving of alms.
The matins ended,
By looks commended
Them, joined again.
Quickly said she,
“Don't undeceive them—
Better thus leave them:”
“Quite so,” said he.
Between them said,
Those two, once wed,
Who had not stood fast.
Diverse their ways
From the western door,
To meet no more
In their span of days.
DREAM OF THE CITY SHOPWOMAN
Who'd vow to love this garreteer,
By city people's snap and sneer
Tried oft and hard!
To some snug solitary glen,
And never be seen to haunt again
This teeming yard.
We'd list the flitting pipers play,
Our lives a twine of good and gay
Enwreathed discreetly;
That doves should coo in soft surprise,
“These must belong to Paradise
Who live so sweetly.”
Our sprinkle-bath the passing showers,
Our church the alleyed willow bowers,
The truth our theme;
Their shining heads would dot us round
Like mushroom balls on grassy ground.
—But all is dream!
A yearning nature's strong appeal
Should writhe on this eternal wheel
In rayless grime;
Each star of early promise set;
Till Death relieves, and they forget
Their one Life's time!
A MAIDEN'S PLEDGE
(SONG)
To take me soon or late as bride,
And lift me from the nook where now
I tarry your farings to my side.
In this green labyrinth—let all be,
If but, whatever may betide,
You do not leave off loving me!
With patience time shall not wear through;
The yellowing years will not abate
My largened love and truth to you,
Nor drive me to complaint undue
Of absence, much as I may pine,
If never another 'twixt us two
Shall come, and you stand wholly mine.
THE CHILD AND THE SAGE
“I have been favoured so
With cloudless skies, I must expect
This dash of rain or snow.”
“So many months of late,
I must not chafe that one short day
Of sickness mars my state.”
From Love's unbroken smile,
It is but reason I should bear
A cross therein awhile.”
Continuance of joy;
But, when at ease, expect anon
A burden of annoy.
Where no reprisals reign,
Where never a spell of pleasantness
Makes reasonable a pain?
MISMET
I
He was leaning by a face,He was looking into eyes,
And he knew a trysting-place,
And he heard seductive sighs;
But the face,
And the eyes,
And the place,
And the sighs,
Were not, alas, the right ones—the ones meet for him—
Though fine and sweet the features, and the feelings all abrim.
II
She was looking at a form,She was listening for a tread,
She could feel a waft of charm
When a certain name was said;
But the form,
And the tread,
And the charm,
And name said,
Were the wrong ones for her, and ever would be so,
While the heritor of the right it would have saved her soul to know!
AN AUTUMN RAIN-SCENE
With a sturdy swing,
On whom the rain comes down.
Is another bent,
On whom the rain comes down.
Ere ill befall,
On whom the rain comes down.
With quickening breath,
On whom the rain comes down.
From the hill afar,
On whom the rain comes down.
Unhired moves one,
On whom the rain comes down.
Upon him at all,
On whom the rain comes down.
MEDITATIONS ON A HOLIDAY
(A NEW THEME TO AN OLD FOLK-MEASURE)
All-adorning,
No cloud warning
Of rain to-day.
Where shall I go to,
Go to, go to?—
Can I say No to
Lyonnesse-way?
Now at this season
Is there for treason
To other shrines?
Tristram is not there,
Isolt forgot there,
New eras blot there
Sought-for signs!
Poesy-paven—
I'll find a haven
There, somehow!—
Nay—I'm but caught of
Dreams long thought of,
The Swan knows nought of
His Avon now!
I go to see, then,
Under the plea, then,
Of votary?
I'll go to Lakeland,
Lakeland, Lakeland,
Certainly Lakeland
Let it be.
That place, that place,
Such a hard come-at place
Need I fare?
When its bard cheers no more,
Loves no more, fears no more,
Sees no more, hears no more
Anything there!
Burns's Scotland,
And Waverley's. To what land
Better can I hie?—
Yet—if no whit now
Feel those of it now—
Care not a bit now
For it—why I?
Aye, a brick-brown street,
Quite a tumbledown street,
Drawing no eyes.
For a Mary dwelt there,
And a Percy felt there
Heart of him melt there,
A Claire likewise.
Such a city, that city,
Now a mud-bespat city!—
Care the lovers who
Now live and walk there,
Sit there and talk there,
Buy there, or hawk there.
Or wed, or woo?
Greet so fond a folly
As nursing melancholy
In this and that spot,
Which, with most endeavour,
Those can visit never,
But for ever and ever
Will now know not!
With a broadened vision
And a faint derision
Conscious be they,
How they might reprove me
That these fancies move me,
Think they ill behoove me,
Smile, and say:
Where the bygone drowses,
Nor a child nor spouse is
Of our name at all?
Such abodes to care for,
Inquire about and bear for,
And suffer wear and tear for—
How weak of you and small!”
AN EXPERIENCE
In anything that was said,
In anything that was done;
All was of scope to cause not
To even the subtlest one,
My friend,
To even the subtlest one.
An aura zephyring round
That care infected not:
It came as a salutation,
And, in my sweet astound,
I scarcely witted what
Might pend,
I scarcely witted what.
Spoke, as they grayly gazed,
—First hills to speak so yet!
The thin-edged breezes blew me
What I, though cobwebbed, crazed
Was never to forget,
My friend,
Was never to forget!
THE BEAUTY
In such word-wild degree,
And say I am one all eyes adore;
For these things harass me!
“From now unto the end
Come weal, come wanzing, come what may,
Dear, I will be your friend.”
My beauty is not I:
I wear it: none cares whether, alas,
Its wearer live or die!
Yea, me and what I am,
And shall be at the gray hour when
My cheek begins to clam.
“The Regent Street beauty, Miss Verrey, the Swiss confectioner's daughter, whose personal attractions have been so mischievously exaggerated, died of fever on Monday evening, brought on by the annoyance she had been for some time subject to.” —London paper, October 1828.
THE COLLECTOR CLEANS HIS PICTURE
I had been deep in duty for my sick neighbour—
His besides my own—over several Sundays,
Often, too, in the week; so with parish pressures,
Baptisms, burials, doctorings, conjugal counsel—
All the whatnots asked of a rural parson—
Faith, I was well-nigh broken, should have been fully
Saving for one small secret relaxation,
One that in mounting manhood had grown my hobby.
Stowed in the backmost slums of a soon-reached city,
Merely on chance to uncloak some worthy canvas,
Panel, or plaque, blacked blind by uncouth adventure,
Yet under all concealing a precious artfeat.
Such I had found not yet. My latest capture
Came from the rooms of a trader in ancient house-gear
Who had no scent of beauty or soul for brushcraft.
Only a tittle cost it—murked with grimefilms,
Gatherings of slow years, thick-varnished over,
Never a feature manifest of man's painting.
Ere an hour subserved, I set me upon it.
Long with coiled-up sleeves I cleaned and yet cleaned,
Till a first fresh spot, a high light, looked forth,
Then another, like fair flesh, and another;
Tapering, shapely, significantly pointing slantwise.
“Flemish?” I said. “Nay, Spanish. . . . But, nay, Italian!”
—Then meseemed it the guise of the ranker Venus,
Named of some Astarte, of some Cotytto.
Down I knelt before it and kissed the panel,
Drunk with the lure of love's inhibited dreamings.
A hag, that had slowly emerged from under my hands there,
Pointing the slanted finger towards a bosom
Eaten away of a rot from the lusts of a lifetime. . .
—I could have ended myself at the lashing lesson!
Stunned I sat till roused by a clear-voiced bell-chime,
Fresh and sweet as the dew-fleece under my luthern.
It was the matin service calling to me
From the adjacent steeple.
THE WOOD FIRE
(A FRAGMENT)
“—Aye, it has been the bleakest spring I have felt for years,
And nought compares with cloven logs to keep alight:
I buy them bargain-cheap of the executioners,
As I dwell near; and they wanted the crosses out of sight
By Passover, not to affront the eyes of visitors.
At Kranion. We can sometimes use the poles again,
But they get split by the nails, and 'tis quicker work than mending
To knock together new; though the uprights now and then
Serve twice when they're let stand. But if a feast's impending,
As lately, you've to tidy up for the comers' ken.
So quietly as was wont? That Galilee carpenter's son
Who boasted he was king, incensed the rabble to scoff:
Yes, it blazes up well if lit with a few dry chips and shroff;
And it's worthless for much else, what with cuts and stains thereon.”
SAYING GOOD-BYE
(SONG)
“Good-bye, good-bye!”
In work, in playing,
In gloom, in gaying:
At many a stage
Of pilgrimage
From youth to age
We say, “Good-bye,
Good-bye!”
Which go to sigh,
Which will be yearning
For soon returning;
And which no more
Will dark our door,
Or tread our shore,
But go to die,
To die.
With joy again;
Some, who come homing
By stealth at gloaming,
Had better have stopped
Till death, and dropped
By strange hands propped,
Than come so fain,
So fain.
“Good-bye, good-bye,”
We speed their waying
Without betraying
No more to hear
From them, close, clear,
Again: “Good-bye,
Good-bye!”
ON THE TUNE CALLED THE OLD-HUNDRED AND-FOURTH
Ravenscroft's terse old tune
On Sundays or on weekdays,
In sharp or summer weather,
At night-time or at noon.
Why never so incline
On Sundays or on weekdays,
Even when soft wafts would wing it
From your far floor to mine?
Stand voicing side by side
On Sundays or on weekdays? . . .
Or shall we, when for ever
In Sheol we abide,
As we might long have done
On Sundays or on weekdays
With love and exultation
Before our sands had run?
THE OPPORTUNITY
We met at this phase of the Maytime:
We might have clung close through all,
But we parted when died that daytime.
Perhaps should have cared but slightly,
Just then, if we never had met:
Strange, strange that we lived so lightly!
At that critical date in the Maytime,
One life had been ours, one place,
Perhaps, till our long cold claytime.
For thee, O man: what ails it?
The tide of chance may bring
Its offer; but nought avails it!
EVELYN G. OF CHRISTMINSTER
In mind quite clear
Not many hours'
Faring from here;
But how up and go,
And briskly bear
Thither, and know
That you are not there?
And apple and pear
On your trees by the wall
Are ripe and rare,
Though none excel them,
I have no care
To taste them or smell them
And you not there.
Are stroked with the sun,
And the gownsmen and Dons
Who held you as one
Of brightest brow
Still think as they did,
Why haunt with them now
Your candle is hid?
A pealing swells:
They cost me a quiver—
Those prayerful bells!
How go to God,
Who can reprove
With so heavy a rod
As your swift remove!
Wait all in a row,
And the bellows wheeze
As long ago.
And the psalter lingers,
And organist's chair;
But where are your fingers
That once wagged there?
That desert place
This or next week,
And those tracks trace
That fill me with cark
And cloy; nowhere
Being movement or mark
Of you now there!
THE RIFT
When yellow begins to show in the leaf,
That your old gamut changed its chime
From those true tones—of span so brief!—
That met my beats of joy, of grief,
As rhyme meets rhyme.
We faced but chancewise after that,
And never I knew or guessed my crime. . . .
Yes; 'twas the date—or nigh thereat—
Of the yellowing leaf; at moth and gnat
And cobweb-time.
VOICES FROM THINGS GROWING IN A CHURCHYARD
Sir or Madam,
A little girl here sepultured.
Once I flit-fluttered like a bird
Above the grass, as now I wave
In daisy shapes above my grave,
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
Sir or Madam;
In shingled oak my bones were pent;
Hence more than a hundred years I spent
In my feat of change from a coffin-thrall
To a dancer in green as leaves on a wall,
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
Sir or Madam,
Am clean forgotten as Thomas Voss;
Thin-urned, I have burrowed away from the moss
That covers my sod, and have entered this yew,
And turned to clusters ruddy of view,
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
Sir or Madam,
Am I—this laurel that shades your head;
Into its veins I have stilly sped,
And made them of me; and my leaves now shine,
As did my satins superfine,
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
Sir or Madam,
Am one Eve Greensleeves, in olden time
Kissed by men from many a clime,
As now by glowworms and by bees,
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
Sir or Madam,
A weary of life, and in scorn withdrew;
Till anon I clambered up anew
As ivy-green, when my ache was stayed,
And in that attire I have longtime gayed
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
Sir or Madam
Who lingers there, and their lively speech
Affords an interpreter much to teach,
As their murmurous accents seem to come
Thence hitheraround in a radiant hum,
All day cheerily,
All night eerily!
It was said her real name was Eve Trevillian or Trevelyan; and that she was the handsome mother of two or three illegitimate children, circa 1784–95.
ON THE WAY
Shutters rattle and carpets heave,
Slime is the dust of yestereve,
And in the streaming mist
Fishes might seem to fin a passage if they list.
Drawing nigh and nigher
A hidden seat,
The fog is sweet
And the wind a lyre.
A moisture gathers on each knop
Of the bramble, rounding to a drop,
That greets the goer-by
With the cold listless lustre of a dead man's eye
Drawing nigh and nigher
Its deep delight,
The fog is bright
And the wind a lyre.
“SHE DID NOT TURN”
But passed foot-faint with averted head
In her gown of green, by the bobbing fern,
Though I leaned over the gate that led
From where we waited with table spread;
But she did not turn:
Why was she near there if love had fled?
Though the gate was whence I had often sped
In the mists of morning to meet her, and learn
Her heart, when its moving moods I read
As a book—she mine, as she sometimes said;
But she did not turn,
And passed foot-faint with averted head.
GROWTH IN MAY
And thence thread a jungle of grass:
Hurdles and stiles scarce visible stand
Above the lush stems as I pass.
And seem to reveal a dim sense
That amid such ambitious and elbow-high green
They make a mean show as a fence.
That range not greatly above
The rich rank thicket which brushes their teats,
And her gown, as she waits for her Love.
THE CHILDREN AND SIR NAMELESS
“These wretched children romping in my park
Trample the herbage till the soil is bared,
And yap and yell from early morn till dark!
Go keep them harnessed to their set routines:
Thank God I've none to hasten my decay;
For green remembrance there are better means
Than offspring, who but wish their sires away.”
“To be perpetuate for my mightiness
Sculpture must image me when I am gone.”
—He forthwith summoned carvers there express
To shape a figure stretching seven-odd feet
(For he was tall) in alabaster stone,
With shield, and crest, and casque, and sword complete:
When done a statelier work was never known.
And, no one of his lineage being traced,
They thought an effigy so large in frame
Best fitted for the floor. There it was placed,
Under the seats for schoolchildren. And they
Kicked out his name, and hobnailed off his nose;
And, as they yawn through sermon-time, they say,
“Who was this old stone man beneath our toes?”
AT THE ROYAL ACADEMY
Woodland and meadowland—here hung aloft,
Gay with limp grass and leafery new and soft,
I saw last noonday shining over the field,
By rapid snatch, while still are uncongealed
Yester's quick greenage here set forth in mime
Just as it stands, now, at our breathing-time.
Soft verdures spread in sprouting novelty,
Are not this summer's though they feign to be.
Last autumn browned and buried every one,
And no more know they sight of any sun.
HER TEMPLE
—If craftsmanly art should be mine
I will build up a temple, and set you
Therein as its shrine.
—Be told, “O, so sweet was her fame,
That a man heaped this splendour upon her;
None now knows his name.”
A TWO-YEARS' IDYLL
Just those two seasons unsought,
Sweeping like summertide wind on our ways;
Moving, as straws,
Hearts quick as ours in those days;
Going like wind, too, and rated as nought
Save as the prelude to plays
Soon to come—larger, life-fraught:
Yes; such it was.
Even by ourselves—that which springs
Out of the years for all flesh, first or last,
Commonplace, scrawled
Dully on days that go past.
Yet, all the while, it upbore us like wings
Even in hours overcast:
Aye, though this best thing of things,
“Nought” it was called!
Lost: such beginning was all;
Nothing came after: romance straight forsook
Quickly somehow
Life when we sped from our nook,
Primed for new scenes with designs smart and tall. . . .
—A preface without any book,
A trumpet uplipped, but no call;
That seems it now.
BY HENSTRIDGE CROSS AT THE YEAR'S END
(From this centuries-old cross-road the highway leads east to London, north to Bristol and Bath, west to Exeter and the Land's End, and south to the Channel coast.)
That way a youth went on a morrow
After mirth, and he brought back sorrow
Painted upon his brow:
Why go the east road now?
Torn, leaf-strewn, as if scoured by foemen,
Once edging fiefs of my forefolk yeomen,
Fallows fat to the plough:
Why go the north road now?
Thence to us came she, bosom-burning,
Welcome with joyousness returning. . . .
She sleeps under the bough:
Why go the west road now?
That way marched they some are forgetting,
Stark to the moon left, past regretting
Loves who have falsed their vow. . . .
Why go the south road now?
White stands the handpost for brisk onbearers,
“Halt!” is the word for wan-cheeked farers
Musing on Whither, and How. . . .
Why go any road now?
Answer the stones. “Want chit-chat, laughter:
Plenty of such to go hereafter
By our tracks, we trow!
We are for new feet now.”
PENANCE
At the end of the room
By that harpsichord, built on the quaint old plan?
—It is cold as a tomb,
And there's not a spark within the grate;
And the jingling wires
Are as vain desires
That have lagged too late.”
A woman lyred here
In the evenfall; one who fain did so
From year to year;
And, in loneliness bending wistfully,
Would wake each note
In sick sad rote,
None to listen or see!
But drew away,
Though the winter fire beamed brightly. . . . Aye!
I do to-day
Like a skull's brown teeth
Loose in their sheath,
Freeze my touch; yes, freeze.”
“I LOOK IN HER FACE”
“Sing as you used to sing
About Love's blossoming”;
But she hints not Yea or Nay.
If, Dear, you think it so,
Whether it be or no;”
But dumb her lips remain.
A faint song ghosts my ear;
Which song I cannot hear,
But it seems to come from a tomb.
AFTER THE WAR
Across the mead
To where he loitered
With absent heed.
Five years before
In the evening there
Had flown that call
To him and his Dear.
“You'll never come back;
Good-bye!” she had said;
“Here I'll be living,
And my Love dead!”
Had been as shafts darting
Through him and her pressed
In that last parting;
In the selfsame place
With the selfsame sun
On his war-seamed face.
“Lurks a god's laughter
In this?” he said,
“That I am the living
And she the dead!”
“IF YOU HAD KNOWN”
When listening with her to the far-down moan
Of the white-selvaged and empurpled sea,
And rain came on that did not hinder talk,
Or damp your flashing facile gaiety
In turning home, despite the slow wet walk
By crooked ways, and over stiles of stone;
If you had known
Fifty years thence, on her monument, that discloses
Its graying shape upon the luxuriant green;
Fifty years thence to an hour, by chance led there,
What might have moved you?—yea, had you foreseen
That on the tomb of the selfsame one, gone where
The dawn of every day is as the close is,
You would lay roses!
THE CHAPEL-ORGANIST
(A.D. 185*)
By the light of that lowering sun peering in at the window-pane,
And over the back-street roofs, throwing shades from the boys of the chore
In the gallery, right upon me, sitting up to these keys once more. . . .
“Who is she playing the organ? She touches it mightily true!”
“She travels from Havenpool Town,” the deacon would softly speak,
“The stipend can hardly cover her fare hither twice in the week.”
(It fell far short of doing, indeed; but I never told,
For I have craved minstrelsy more than lovers, or beauty, or gold.)
“It cannot go on much longer, from what we hear of her now!”
At the meaning wheeze in the words the inquirer would shift his place
Till he could see round the curtain that screened me from people below.
“A handsome girl,” he would murmur, upstaring (and so I am).
“But—too much sex in her build; fine eyes, but eyelids too heavy;
A bosom too full for her age; in her lips too voluptuous a dye.”
(It may be. But who put it there? Assuredly it was not I.)
Though tears half-blinded me; yes, I remained going on and on,
Just as I used me to chord and to sing at the selfsame time! . . .
For it's a contralto—my voice is; they'll hear it again here to-night
In the psalmody notes that I love far beyond every lower delight.
They troubled his mind not a little, for he was a worthy man.
(He trades as a chemist in High Street, and during the week he had sought
His fellow-deacon, who throve as a bookbinder over the way.)
“These are strange rumours,” he said. “We must guard the good name of the chapel.
If, sooth, she's of evil report, what else can we do but dismiss her?”
“—But get such another to play here we cannot for double the price!”
It settled the point for the time, and I triumphed awhile in their strait,
And my much-beloved grand semibreves went living on, pending my fate.
And my dismissal was ruled, though I was not warned of it then.
But a day came when they declared it. The news entered me as a sword;
I was broken; so pallid of face that they thought I should faint, they said.
I rallied. “O, rather than go, I will play you for nothing!” said I.
'Twas in much desperation I spoke it, for bring me to forfeit I could not
Those melodies chorded so richly for which I had laboured and lived.
They paused. And for nothing I played at the chapel through Sundays again,
Upheld by that art which I loved more than blandishments lavished of men.
Some member had seen me at Havenpool, comrading close a sea-captain.
(O yes; I was thereto constrained, lacking means for the fare to and fro.)
Yet God knows, if aught He knows ever, I loved the Old-Hundredth, Saint Stephen's,
Mount Zion, New Sabbath, Miles-Lane, Holy Rest, and Arabia, and Eaton,
Above all embraces of body by wooers who sought me and won! . . .
Next week 'twas declared I was seen coming home with a swain ere the sun.
I saw all was lost for me, quite, but I made a last bid in my throbs.
My bent, finding victual in lust, men's senses had libelled my soul,
But the soul should die game, if I knew it! I turned to my masters and said:
“I yield, Gentlemen, without parlance. But—let me just hymn you once more!
They saw that consent would cost nothing, and show as good grace, as knew I,
Though tremble I did, and feel sick, as I paused thereat, dumb for their words.
They gloomily nodded assent, saying, “Yes, if you care to. Once more,
And only once more, understand.” To that with a bend I agreed.
—“You've a fixed and a far-reaching look,” spoke one who had eyed me awhile.
“I've a fixed and a far-reaching plan, and my look only showed it,” I smile.
“She plays as if she were possessed!” they exclaim, glancing upward and round.
“Such harmonies I never dreamt the old instrument capable of!”
Meantime the sun lowers and goes; shades deepen; the lights are turned up,
And the people voice out the last singing: tune Tallis: the Evening Hymn.
(I wonder Dissenters sing Ken: it shows them more liberal in spirit
At this little chapel down here than at certain new others I know.)
I sing as I play. Murmurs some one: “No woman's throat richer than hers!”
“True: in these parts,” think I. “But, my man, never more will its richness outspread.”
And I sing with them onward: “The grave dread as little do I as my bed.”
From the symphonies born of my fingers, I do that whereon I am set,
And draw from my “full round bosom” (their words; how can I help its heave?)
A bottle blue-coloured and fluted—a vinaigrette, they may conceive—
I drink from the phial at a draught, and they think it a pick-me-up; so.
Then I gather my books as to leave, bend over the keys as to pray.
When they come to me motionless, stooping, quick death will have whisked me away.
The deacons will say as they carry me down and the night shadows fall,
“Though the charges were true,” they will add. “It's a case red as scarlet withal!”
I have never once minced it. Lived chaste I have not. Heaven knows it above! . . .
But past all the heavings of passion—it's music has been my life-love! . . .
That tune did go well—this last playing! . . . I reckon they'll bury me here. . . .
Not a soul from the seaport my birthplace—will come, or bestow me . . . a tear.
FETCHING HER
My friend,
You lit your waiting bedside-lamp,
Your breakfast-fire anon,
And outing into the dark and damp
You saddled, and set on.
My friend,
You sought her on her surfy shore,
To fetch her thence away
Unto your own new-builded door
For a staunch lifelong stay.
My friend,
That I were bringing to my place
The mews—all her old sky and space,
In bringing her with me!”
My friend,
Such magic-minted conjurings:
The brought breeze fainted soon,
And then the sense of seamews' wings,
And the shore's sibilant tune.
My friend,
Perhaps, had you not pulled this flower
From the craggy nook it knew,
And set it in an alien bower;
But left it where it grew!
“COULD I BUT WILL”
Will to my bent,
I'd have afar ones near me still,
And music of rare ravishment,
In strains that move the toes and heels!
And when the sweethearts sat for rest
The unbetrothed should foot with zest
Ecstatic reels.
Head-god, “Come, now,
Dear girl,” I'd say, “whose flame is fled,
Who liest with linen-banded brow,
Stirred but by shakes from Earth's deep core—”
I'd say to her: “Unshroud and meet
That Love who kissed and called thee Sweet!—
Yea, come once more!”
In spinning dooms
Had I, this frozen scene should flower,
And sand-swept plains and Arctic glooms
Should green them gay with waving leaves,
Mid which old friends and I would walk
With weightless feet and magic talk
Uncounted eves.
SHE REVISITS ALONE THE CHURCH OF HER MARRIAGE
Where all's the same!
—Brighter and larger in my dreams
Truly it shaped than now, meseems
Is its substantial frame.
But, anyhow, I made my vow,
Whether for praise or blame.
Here in this church and chancel
Where all's the same.
My knees and his?
The step looks shyly at the sun,
And says, “'Twas here the thing was done,
For bale or else for bliss!”
Of all those there I least was ware
Would it be that or this
When touched the check-floored chancel
My knees and his!
Where all's the same,
I thought the culminant crest of life
Was reached when I went forth the wife
I was not when I came.
Each commonplace one of my race,
Some say, has such an aim—
To go from a fateful chancel
As not the same.
Where all's the same,
A thrill, a gaiety even, ranged
That morning when it seemed I changed
My nature with my name.
Though now not fair, though gray my hair,
He loved me, past proclaim,
Here in this hoary chancel,
Where all's the same.
AT THE ENTERING OF THE NEW YEAR
I (OLD STYLE)
And roused the home-gone husbandmen;
Our allemands, our heys, poussettings,
Our hands-across and back again,
Sent rhythmic throbbings through the casements
On to the white highway,
Where nighted farers paused and muttered,
“Keep it up well, do they!”
Sped at each bar to the parish bounds,
To shepherds at their midnight lambings,
To stealthy poachers on their rounds;
And everybody caught full duly
The notes of our delight,
As Time unrobed the Youth of Promise
Hailed by our sanguine sight.
II (NEW STYLE)
As if to give ear to the muffled peal,
Brought or withheld at the breeze's whim;
But our truest heed is to words that steal
And seems, so far as our sense can see,
To feature bereaved Humanity,
As it sighs to the imminent year its say:—
Calm comely Youth, untasked, untired;
Though stars irradiate thee about
Thy entrance here is undesired.
Open the gate not, mystic one;
Must we avow what we would close confine?
With thee, good friend, we would have converse none,
Albeit the fault may not be thine.”
THEY WOULD NOT COME
She'd knelt at morning prayer,
To call her up as if there;
But she paid no heed to my suing,
As though her old haunt could win not
A thought from her spirit, or care.
The prophets in high declaim,
That my soul's ear the same
Full tones should catch as aforetime;
But silenced by gear of the Present
Was the voice that once there came!
I stood, to recall it as then:
The same eluding again!
No vision. Shows contingent
Affrighted it further from me
Even than from my home-den.
But fugitives prone to flee
From where they had used to be,
It vouched I had been led hither
As by night wisps in bogland,
And bruised the heart of me!
AFTER A ROMANTIC DAY
An earthen cutting out from a city:
There was no scope for view,
Though the frail light shed by a slim young moon
Fell like a friendly tune.
And the blank lack of any charm
Of landscape did no harm.
The bald steep cutting, rigid, rough,
And moon-lit, was enough
For poetry of place: its weathered face
Formed a convenient sheet whereon
The visions of his mind were drawn.
THE TWO WIVES
(SMOKER'S CLUB-STORY)
My wife and my near neighbour's wife:
Till there entered a woman I loved more than life,
And we sat and sat on, and beheld the uprising dark weather,
With a sense that some mischief was rife.
Was drowned—which of them was unknown:
And I marvelled—my friend's wife?—or was it my own
Who had gone in such wise to the land where the sun as the shade is?
—We learnt it was his had so gone.
To him as it would be to me!”
“—But it is,” said the woman I loved, quietly.
“How?” I asked her. “—Because he has long loved me too without ceasing,
And it's just the same thing, don't you see.”
“I KNEW A LADY”
(CLUB SONG)
Grew long, and evenings goldened;
But I was not emboldened
By her prompt eyes and winning ways.
“Another's wife I'll be,
And then you'll care for me,”
She said, “and think how sweet I was!”
As such I often met her,
And sighed, “How I regret her!
My folly cuts me like a knife!”
And moaned, “Why did you flout her?
Well could I do without her!
For both our burdens you are to blame!”
A HOUSE WITH A HISTORY
Some past ones made their own;
Its floors were criss-crossed by their feet,
And their babblings beat
From ceiling to white hearth-stone.
Who talk across its floor?
Mere freshlings are they, blank of brow,
Who read not how
Its prime had passed before
Afflicted its memoried face,
That had seen every larger phase
Of human ways
Before these filled the place.
No former voices call
Aloud therein. Its aspect bears
Their joys and cares
Alone, from wall to wall.
A PROCESSION OF DEAD DAYS
I know his face, and the feel of his dawn:
'Twas he who took me far away
To a spot strange and gray:
Look at me, Day, and then pass on,
But come again: yes, come anon!
His features are not cold or white,
But rosy as a vein seen through:
Too soon he smiles adieu.
Adieu, O ghost-day of delight;
But come and grace my dying sight.
He brought it in his foggy hand
To where the mumbling river is,
And the high clematis;
It lent new colour to the land,
And all the boy within me manned.
He is the day that wrought a shine
Even on a precinct common and tame,
As 'twere of purposed aim.
He shows him as a rainbow sign
Of promise made to me and mine.
And yet, despite their misty blue,
They mark no sombre custom-growths
That joyous living loathes,
But a meteor act, that left in its queue
A train of sparks my lifetime through.
This next in train—who looks at me
As I were slave, and he were god
Wielding an iron rod.
I close my eyes; yet still is he
In front there, looking mastery.
The phantom of the next one comes:
I did not know what better or worse
Chancings might bless or curse
When his original glossed the thrums
Of ivy, bringing that which numbs.
Upon their windy pillows of gray
When he stole in. Silent his creep
On the grassed eastern steep. . . .
I shall not soon forget that day,
And what his third hour took away!
HE FOLLOWS HIMSELF
Along a louring way,
Till my leading self to my following self
Said: “Why do you hang on me
So harassingly?”
“So often going astray
And leaving me, that I have pursued,
Feeling such truancy
Ought not to be.”
From noon to the dun of day
By prowling paths, until anew
He begged: “Please turn and flee!—
What do you see?”
“Dimming his hours to gray.
I will not leave him while I know
Part of myself is he
Who dreams such dree!”
“So do not watch me, pray!”
“Well, I will leave you in peace,” said I,
“Though of this poignancy
You should fight free:
You know not what you say.”
—“That do I! And at his green-grassed door
By night's bright galaxy
I bend a knee.”
Though only boughs were they,
And I seemed to go; yet still was there,
And am, and there haunt we
Thus bootlessly.
THE SINGING WOMAN
Came riding across the mead
At the time of the mild May weather,
Tameless, tireless;
This song she sung: “I am fair, I am young!”
And many turned to heed.
Sat crooning in her need
At the time of the winter weather;
Friendless, fireless,
She sang this song: “Life, thou'rt too long!”
And there was none to heed.
WITHOUT, NOT WITHIN HER
Not inly were,
That throned you from all else human,
However fair!
Into a soul
Whereon no thought of yours tarried
Two moments at all.
And bale, and ban,
Like the corn-chaff under the breath
Of the winnowing-fan.
“O I WON'T LEAD A HOMELY LIFE”
As father's Jack and mother's Jill,
But I will be a fiddler's wife,
With music mine at will!
Just a little tune,
Another one soon,
As I merrily fling my fill!”
And merry all day she strove to be;
And he played and played afar and near,
But never at home played he
Any little tune
Or late or soon;
And sunk and sad was she!
IN THE SMALL HOURS
With a dreamland viol and bow,
And the tunes flew back to my fingers
I had melodied years ago.
It was two or three in the morning
When I fancy-fiddled so
Long reels and country-dances,
And hornpipes swift and slow.
The chamber in the gray
Figures of jigging fieldfolk—
Saviours of corn and hay—
To the air of “Haste to the Wedding,”
As after a wedding-day;
Yea, up and down the middle
In windless whirls went they!
And couples in a train,
Gay partners time and travail
Had longwhiles stilled amain! . . .
It seemed a thing for weeping
To find, at slumber's wane
And morning's sly increeping,
That Now, not Then, held reign.
THE LITTLE OLD TABLE
When I touch you with elbow or knee;
That is the way you speak
Of one who gave you to me!
Brought me with her own hand,
As she looked at me with a thought
That I did not understand.
And hears it, will never know
What a history hangs upon
This creak from long ago.
VAGG HOLLOW
Vagg Hollow is a marshy spot on the old Roman Road near Ilchester, where “things” are seen. Merchandise was formerly fetched inland from the canal-boats at Load-Bridge by waggons this way.
Little boy, when you go
In the morning at five on your lonely drive?”
“—I see men's souls, who follow
Till we've passed where the road lies low,
When they vanish at our creaking!
Beside and behind the waggon—
One just as father's was when here.
The waggoner drinks from his flagon,
(Or he'd flinch when the Hollow is near)
But he does not give me any.
But I walk along by the horses,
He asleep on the straw as we jog;
And I hear the loud water-courses,
And the drops from the trees in the fog,
And watch till the day is breaking,
I hear in it father's call
As he called when I saw him dying,
And he sat by the fire last Fall,
And mother stood by sighing;
But I'm not afraid at all!”
THE DREAM IS—WHICH?
Splashed in its tumbling stir;
And then it is a blankness looms
As if I walked not there,
Nor she, but found me in haggard rooms,
And treading a lonely stair.
We sit where none espies;
Till a harsh change comes edging in
As no such scene were there,
But winter, and I were bent and thin,
And cinder-gray my hair.
Weightless as thistleball;
And then a curtain drops between,
As if I danced not there,
But wandered through a mounded green
To find her, I knew where.
THE COUNTRY WEDDING
(A FIDDLER'S STORY)
But the purple hillocks enjoyed fine weather
As we marched with our fiddles over the heather
—How it comes back!—to their wedding that day.
Till, two and two, the couples stood ready.
And her father said: “Souls, for God's sake, be steady!”
And we strung up our fiddles, and sounded out “A.”
But we'd gone to fiddle in front of the party,
(Our feelings as friends being true and hearty)
And fiddle in front we did—all the way.
And up Styles-Lane, and by Front-Street houses,
Where stood maids, bachelors, and spouses,
Who cheered the songs that we knew how to play.
Michael the tenor in front of the lady,
The bass-viol Reub—and right well played he!—
The serpent Jim; ay, to church and back.
As we kept up the tune outside the chancel,
While they were swearing things none can cancel
Inside the walls to our drumstick's whack.
And sorrow come.” But she gave in, laughing,
And by supper-time when we'd got to the quaffing
Her fears were forgot, and her smiles weren't slack.
We never thought. Or that we should have buried her
On the same day with the man that married her,
A day like the first, half hazy, half clear.
Though the purple hillocks enjoyed fine weather,
When we went to play 'em to church together,
And carried 'em there in an after year.
FIRST OR LAST
(SONG)
Joy comes late,
If joy come early
Grief will wait;
Aye, my dear and tender!
While the cheeks are red,
Banish grief till surly
Time has dulled their dread.
Ere youth has flown,
The later hours
May find us gone;
Aye, my dear and tender!
LONELY DAYS
Environed from sight
In the house where the gate was
Past finding at night.
None there to share it,
No one to tell:
Long she'd to bear it,
And bore it well.
Spent many a day;
Wishing to go she
Continued to stay.
And people without
Basked warm in the air,
But none sought her out,
Or knew she was there.
Even birthdays were passed so,
Sunny and shady:
Years did it last so
For this sad lady.
Never declaring it,
No one to tell,
Still she kept bearing it—
Bore it well.
And then she went
To a city, familiar
In years forespent,
Far to and fro,
But now, moving frailly,
Could nowhere go.
The cheerful colour
Of houses she'd known
Had died to a duller
And dingier tone.
Streets were now noisy
Where once had rolled
A few quiet coaches,
Or citizens strolled.
Through the party-wall
Of the memoried spot
They danced at a ball
Who recalled her not.
Tramlines lay crossing
Once gravelled slopes,
Metal rods clanked,
And electric ropes.
So she endured it all,
Thin, thinner wrought,
Until time cured it all,
And she knew nought.
“WHAT DID IT MEAN?”
You bade me pluck the flower
Within the other woman's bower,
Whom I knew nought of then?
And as I drew its stalk to me
It seemed to breathe: “I am, I see,
Made use of in a human play.”
As phantom from the pane thereby
A corpse-like countenance, with eye
That iced me by its baleful peer—
Silent, as from a bier. . . .
It was no face for me;
O did it speak of hearts estranged,
And deadly rivalry
In times before
I darked your door,
To seise me of
Mere second love,
Which still the haunting first deranged?
AT THE DINNER-TABLE
And glimpsed my face in the sideboard-glass,
And started as if I had seen a crime,
And prayed the ghastly show might pass.
Grinning back to me as my own;
I well-nigh fainted with affright
At finding me a haggard crone.
A warping mirror there, in whim
To startle me. My eyes grew wet;
I spoke not all the eve to him.
And took away the distorting glass,
Uncovering the accustomed one;
And so it ended? No, alas,
I sat me in the selfsame chair,
Thinking of him. Till, weary-eyed,
I saw the sideboard facing there;
Thing I'd become, each wrinkle and score
The image of me that I had seen
In jest there fifty years before.
THE MARBLE TABLET
Shows in its cold white look!
Not her glance, glide, or smile; not a tittle of her
Voice like the purl of a brook;
Not her thoughts, that you read like a book.
When first she breathed, witless of all;
Or in heavy years she would remember
When circumstance held her in thrall;
Or at last, when she answered her call!
Gives all that it can, tersely lined;
That one has at length found the haven
Which every one other will find;
With silence on what shone behind.
THE MASTER AND THE LEAVES
I
We are budding, Master, budding,We of your favourite tree;
March drought and April flooding
Arouse us merrily,
Our stemlets newly studding;
And yet you do not see!
II
We are fully woven for summerIn stuff of limpest green,
The twitterer and the hummer
Here rest of nights, unseen,
While like a long-roll drummer
The nightjar thrills the treen.
III
We are turning yellow, Master,And next we are turning red,
And faster then and faster
Shall seek our rooty bed,
All wasted in disaster!
But you lift not your head.
IV
—“I mark your early going,And that you'll soon be clay,
I have seen your summer showing
As in my youthful day;
But why I seem unknowing
Is too sunk in to say!”
LAST WORDS TO A DUMB FRIEND
Purrer of the spotless hue,
Plumy tail, and wistful gaze
While you humoured our queer ways,
Or outshrilled your morning call
Up the stairs and through the hall—
Foot suspended in its fall—
While, expectant, you would stand
Arched, to meet the stroking hand;
Till your way you chose to wend
Yonder, to your tragic end.
Let your place all vacant be;
Better blankness day by day
Than companion torn away.
Better bid his memory fade,
Better blot each mark he made,
Selfishly escape distress
By contrived forgetfulness,
Than preserve his prints to make
Every morn and eve an ache.
Sweep his fur, nor wince thereat;
Rake his little pathways out
Mid the bushes roundabout;
Smooth away his talons' mark
From the claw-worn pine-tree bark,
Where he climbed as dusk embrowned,
Waiting us who loitered round.
Subject to our mastering,
Subject for his life and food
To our gift, and time, and mood;
Timid pensioner of us Powers,
His existence ruled by ours,
Should—by crossing at a breath
Into safe and shielded death,
By the merely taking hence
Of his insignificance—
Loom as largened to the sense,
Shape as part, above man's will,
Of the Imperturbable.
Exercising in a yard,
Still retain I, troubled, shaken,
Mean estate, by him forsaken;
And this home, which scarcely took
Impress from his little look,
By his faring to the Dim
Grows all eloquent of him.
Bounding to the window-sill,
Over which I vaguely see
Your small mound beneath the tree,
Showing in the autumn shade
That you moulder where you played.
A DRIZZLING EASTER MORNING
And still the pensive lands complain,
And dead men wait as long ago,
As if, much doubting, they would know
What they are ransomed from, before
They pass again their sheltering door.
While blusters vex the yew and vane;
And on the road the weary wain
Plods forward, laden heavily;
And toilers with their aches are fain
For endless rest—though risen is he.
ON ONE WHO LIVED AND DIED WHERE HE WAS BORN
Blew forth its bleared airs
An infant descended
His birth-chamber stairs
For the very first time,
At the still, midnight chime;
All unapprehended
His mission, his aim.—
Thus, first, one November,
An infant descended
The stairs.
Of weariful cares,
A frail aged figure
Ascended those stairs
For the very last time:
All gone his life's prime,
All vanished his vigour,
And fine, forceful frame:
Thus, last, one November
Ascended that figure
Upstairs.
Apart eighty years—
The babe and the bent one
Who traversed those stairs
From the early first time
To the last feeble climb—
That fresh and that spent one—
Were even the same:
Yea, who passed in November
As infant, as bent one,
Those stairs.
From birth to blanched hairs
Descending, ascending,
Wealth-wantless, those stairs;
Who saw quick in time
As a vain pantomime
Life's tending, its ending,
The worth of its fame.
Wise child of November,
Descending, ascending
Those stairs!
THE SECOND NIGHT
(BALLAD)
It was gusty above, and clear;
She was there, with the look of one ill-content,
And said: “Do not come near!”
And now I have travelled all day;
And it's long rowing back to the West-Hoe Pier,
So brief must be my stay.”
Out plain to me all you mean?
Why you missed last night, and must now away
Is—another has come between!”
So be it!” I replied:
“And if I am due at a differing scene
Before the dark has died,
Has ever been my plight,
And at least I have met you at Cremyll side
If not last eve, to-night.”
And so do I, maybe;
Though there's a rest hid safe from sight
Elsewhere awaiting me!”
Wasting in sparks as it streamed,
And when I looked back at her wistfully
She had changed, much changed, it seemed.
She was vague as a vapour now,
And ere of its meaning I had dreamed
She'd vanished—I knew not how.
Like a cynic nodding there,
Moved up and down, though no man's brow
But mine met the wayward air.
Of what had come to pass,
Or had brought the secret of my new Fair
To my old Love, alas!
To the boat wherein I had come.
Said the man with the oars: “This news of the lass
Of Edgcumbe, is sharp for some!
On the shore here, whither she'd sped
To meet her lover last night in the glum,
And he came not, 'tis said.
So much for the faithful-bent!” . . .
I looked, and again a star overhead
Shot through the firmament.
SHE WHO SAW NOT
That made me call you before the red sunsetting?
Something that all this common scene endows
With a richened impress there can be no forgetting?”
O Sage, that should have made you urge me to enter,
Nothing to fire the soul, or the sense to win:
I rate you as a rare misrepresenter!”
Well: why does your face not shine like the face of Moses?”
“—I found no moving thing there save the light
And shadow flung on the wall by the outside roses.”
“—I go. . . . O Sage, it's only a man that sits there
With eyes on the sun. Mute,—average head to feet.”
“—No more?”—“No more. Just one the place befits there,
And he looks at his hand, and the sun glows through his fingers,
While he's thinking thoughts whose tenour is no more
To me than the swaying rose-tree shade that lingers.”
Till no sun came, dank fogs the house enfolding;
And she saw inside, when the form in the flesh had gone,
As a vision what she had missed when the real beholding.
THE OLD WORKMAN
Old mason? Many have not left their prime
So far behind at your age, and can still
Stand full upright at will.”
And to the stones of the quoin against the sky;
“Those upper blocks,” he said, “that there you see,
It was that ruined me.”
Crowning the corner height, the stones as set
By him—ashlar whereon the gales might drum
For centuries to come.
The last was as big a load as I could bear;
But on I heaved; and something in my back
Moved, as 'twere with a crack.
And those who live there, walled from wind and rain
By freestone that I lifted, do not know
That my life's ache came so.
But good I think it, somehow, all the same
To have kept 'em safe from harm, and right and tight,
Though it has broke me quite.
Facing the hail and snow and sun and cloud,
And to stand storms for ages, beating round
When I lie underground.”
THE SAILOR'S MOTHER
Figure in the night-fog that chills me numb?”
And I don't mind the brine-mist clinging to me
That blows from the quay,
For I heard him in my chamber, and thought you unaware.
That brought you blindly knocking in this middle-watch so drear?”
And I don't mind my bare feet clammy on the stones,
And the blight to my bones,
For he only knows of this house I lived in before.”
Woman like a skeleton, with socket-sunk eye.”
And this is the old home we loved in many a day
Before he went away;
And the salt fog mops me. And nobody's come!”
OUTSIDE THE CASEMENT
(A REMINISCENCE OF THE WAR)
And praised her whom
We saw in the portico-shade outside:
She could not hear
What was said of her,
But smiled, for its purport we did not hide.
That message, fraught
With evil fortune for her out there,
Whom we loved that day
More than any could say,
And would fain have fenced from a waft of care.
Like lead on each breast,
Should we cloak the tidings, or call her and tell?
It was too intense
A choice for our sense,
As we pondered and watched her we loved so well.
At what assailed us;
How long, while seeing what soon must come,
Should we counterfeit
No knowledge of it,
And stay the stroke that would blanch and numb?
For evermore
Joy left her, we practised to beguile
Her innocence when
She now and again
Looked in, and smiled us another smile.
THE PASSER-BY
(L. H. RECALLS HER ROMANCE)
My window every day,
And when I smiled on him he blushed,
That youth, quite as a girl might; aye,
In the shyest way.
That youth of bounding gait,
Until the one who blushed was I,
And he became, as here I sate,
My joy, my fate.
That youth I loved too true!
I grieve should he, as here of yore,
Pass elsewhere, seated in his view,
Some maiden new!
He'll make her feel him dear,
Become her daily comforter,
Then tire him of her beauteous gear,
And disappear!
“I WAS THE MIDMOST”
When first I frisked me free,
For though within its circuit gleamed
But a small company,
And I was immature, they seemed
To bend their looks on me.
When I went further forth,
And hence it was that, whether I turned
To south, east, west, or north,
Beams of an all-day Polestar burned
From that new axe of earth.
I trace it not at all:
No midmost shows it here, or there,
When wistful voices call
“We are fain! We are fain!” from everywhere
On Earth's bewildering ball!
A SOUND IN THE NIGHT
(WOODSFORD CASTLE: 17**)
What is it sounds in this house so eerily?
It seems to be a woman's voice: each little while I hear it,
And it much troubles me!”
Letting fancies worry thee!—sure 'tis a foolish thing,
When we were on'y coupled half an hour before the noontide,
And now it's but evening.”
And 'tis cold to-night, and rain beats, and this is a lonely place.
Didst thou fathom much of womankind in travel or adventure
Ere ever thou sawest my face?”
If it is not the eaves-drip upon the lower slopes,
Or the river at the bend, where it whirls about the hatches
Like a creature that sighs and mopes.”
And it saddens me much that so piteous a sound
On this my bridal night when I would get agone from sorrow
Should so ghost-like wander round!”
And set the rush-candle up, and undo the door,
And take the new horn-lantern that we bought upon our journey,
And throw the light over the moor.”
And lit the new horn-lantern and went from her sight,
And vanished down the turret; and she heard him pass the postern,
And go out into the night.
And his voice as he unclothed him: “'Twas nothing, as I said,
But the nor'-west wind a-blowing from the moor ath'art the river,
And the tree that taps the gurgoyle-head.”
Awaking me from sleep so, were but as you avow,
The rain-fall, and the wind, and the tree-bough, and the river,
Why is it silent now?
And thy sleeve and tags of hair so muddy and so wet,
And why feel I thy heart a-thumping every time thou kissest me,
And thy breath as if hard to get?”
Then started up and walked about the room resentfully:
“O woman, witch, whom I, in sooth, against my will have wedded,
Why castedst thou thy spells on me?
She came to me to-night, and her plight was passing sore,
As no woman. . . . Yea, and it was e'en the cry you heard, wife,
But she will cry no more!
This farmstead once a castle: I'll get me straight away!”
He dressed this time in darkness, unspeaking, as she listened,
And went ere the dawn turned day.
Where the Froom stream curves amid the moorland, washed aground,
And they searched about for him, the yeoman, who had darkly known her,
But he could not be found.
And in a county far away lives, mourns, and sleeps alone,
And thinks in windy weather that she hears a woman crying,
And sometimes an infant's moan.
ON A DISCOVERED CURL OF HAIR
This curl was waving on your head,
And when we walked where breakers dinned
It sported in the sun and wind,
And when I had won your words of grace
It brushed and clung about my face.
Then, to abate the misery
Of absentness, you gave it me.
For brightest brown have donned a gray,
And gone into a caverned ark,
Ever unopened, always dark!
Beams with live brown as in its prime,
So that it seems I even could now
Restore it to the living brow
By bearing down the western road
Till I had reached your old abode.
AN OLD LIKENESS
(RECALLING R. T.)
That, not having missed he
Talks, tears, laughter
In absence, or sought
To recall for so long
Her gamut of song;
Or ever to waft her
Signal of aught
That she, fancy-fanned,
Would well understand,
I should have kissed her
Picture when scanned
Yawning years after!
Dim-outlined form
Chancewise at night-time,
Some old allure
Came on me, warm,
Fresh, pleadful, pure,
As in that bright time
At a far season
Of love and unreason,
And took me by storm
Here in this blight-time!
That, yawning years after
Our early flows
Of wit and laughter,
At idle times,
At sight of her painting,
Though she lies cold
In churchyard mould,
I took its feinting
As real, and kissed it,
As if I had wist it
Herself of old.
HER APOTHEOSIS
(FADED WOMAN'S SONG)
Needless the asking when;
No honours, praises, pleasure
Reached common maids from men.
No hand was stretched to raise,
No gracious gifts enriched them,
No voices sang their praise.
Amid the accustomed slight
From denseness, dull unreason,
Ringed me with living light.
“SACRED TO THE MEMORY”
(MARY H.)
Is clearly carven there I own,
And all may think that on the stone
The words have been inscribed by me
In bare conventionality.
That my full script is not confined
To that stone space, but stands deep lined
Upon the landscape high and low
Wherein she made such worthy show.
TO A WELL-NAMED DWELLING
What I owed you in my lone work,
Noon and night!
Whensoever faint or ailing,
Letting go my grasp and failing,
You lent light.
Did some forward eye so name you
Knowing that one,
Stumbling down his century blindly,
Would remark your sound, so kindly,
And be won?
Bask in April, May, and June-light,
Zephyr-fanned;
Let your chambers show no sorrow,
Blanching day, or stuporing morrow,
While they stand.
THE WHIPPER-IN
Is still—if I'm not misled?
And now I see, where the hedge is thin,
A little spot of red;
Surely it is my father
Going to the kennel-shed!
And sailed to a foreign land;
And feeling sorry, I'm back, to stay,
Please God, as his helping hand.
Surely it is my father
Near where the kennels stand?”
For twenty years or more;
And you did go away to sea
As youths have done before.
Yes, oddly enough that red there
Is the very coat he wore.
And gave his back a crick,
And though that is his coat, 'tis now
The scarecrow of a rick;
You'll see when you get nearer—
'Tis spread out on a stick.
Your mother's things were sold,
And she went back to her own town,
And the coat, ate out with mould,
Is now used by the farmer
For scaring, as 'tis old.”
A MILITARY APPOINTMENT
(SCHERZANDO)
And have you seen him there, or near—
That soldier of mine—
Who long since promised to meet me here?”
And have seen your lover on sick-leave home—
That soldier of yours—
Who swore to meet you, or Strike-him-dumb;
Yet,—in short, he's coming, I heard him say—
That lover of yours—
To this very spot on this very day.”
I'll give him a goblet brimming high—
This lover of mine—
And not of complaint one word or sigh!”
That—he has grown the lover of me!—
That lover of yours—
And it's here our meeting is planned to be.”
THE MILESTONE BY THE RABBIT-BURROW
(ON YELL'HAM HILL)
As I dig my hole
I observe men look
At a stone, and sigh
As they pass it by
To some far goal.
To their glancing eyes
That must distress
The frail and lame,
And the strong of frame
Gladden or surprise.
Declare how far
Feet have to trace
Before they gain
Some blest champaign
Where no gins are?
THE LAMENT OF THE LOOKING-GLASS
To the curtains with a sigh:
“Why should I trouble again to glass
These smileless things hard by,
Since she I pleasured once, alas,
Is now no longer nigh!”
And of the plying limb
On the pensive pine when the air is loud
With its aerial hymn;
But never do they make me proud
To catch them within my rim!
That sometimes flit by me,
I echo roses red and white—
The loveliest blooms that be—
But now I never hold to sight
So sweet a flower as she.”
CROSS-CURRENTS
And rushing down the lane
He left her lonely near me there;
—I asked her of their pain.
“His friends have schemed it so,
That the long-purposed day to wed
Never shall we two know.”
“Love will contrive a course?”
“—Well, no . . . A thing may underlie,
Which robs that of its force;
Though all the year I have tried;
This: never could I have given him love,
Even had I been his bride.
Point-blank, there could not be
A happening in the world to-day
More opportune for me!
I am grieving, for his sake,
That I have escaped the sacrifice
I was distressed to make!”
THE OLD NEIGHBOUR AND THE NEW
But in the arm-chair I see
My old friend, for long years installed here,
Who palely nods to me.
In a smart and cheerful tone,
And I listen, the while that I'm scanning
The figure behind his own.
I return a vague smile thereto,
The olden face gazing upon me
Just as it used to do!
Which neighbour to-day I have seen,
The one carried out in September,
Or him who but entered yestreen.
THE CHOSEN
I said, and kissed her there:
And then I thought of the other five,
And of how charms outwear.
And I thought of the second with hers, green-gray
And I thought of the third, experienced, wise,
And I thought of the fourth who sang all day.
And I thought of them all, tear-fraught;
And that each had shown her a passable maid,
Yet not of the favour sought.
Just at the falling of the mast:
“After scanning five; yes, each and each,
I've found the woman desired—at last!”
As one ill-wished!” said she.
And soon it seemed that something fell
Was starving her love for me.
And wanly she swerved, and went away.
I followed sick: night numbed the air,
And dark the mournful moorland lay.
But never her face I viewed;
“O turn, O turn!” again I said,
And miserably pursued.
Which she had passed without discern;
And I knelt upon the leaves there strown,
And prayed aloud that she might turn.
I cried, “My heart revives!”
“Look more,” she said. I looked as bid;
Her face was all the five's.
I saw in her—with her made one,
The while she drooped upon the track,
And her frail term seemed well-nigh run.
“Who are you? Won't you say
Who you may be, you man so strange,
Following since yesterday?”
And carried her to an arbour small,
Not passion-moved, but even because
In one I could atone to all.
Till my life's threads unwind,
A various womanhood in blend—
Not one, but all combined.
THE INSCRIPTION
(A TALE)
Like a soul that could meet no more the sight of the sun,
Inclined her in weepings and prayings continually,
As his widowed one.
As a memory Time's fierce frost should never kill,
She caused to be richly chased a brass to his fame,
Which should link them still;
As if dead and interred there with him, and cold, and numb,
(Omitting the day of her dying and year of her age
Till her end should come;)
For these twaine Soules,”—yea, she who did last remain
Forgoing Heaven's bliss if ever with spouse should she
Again have lain.
Writ in quaint Church-text, with the date of her death left bare,
In the aged Estminster aisle, where the folk yet bow
Themselves in prayer.
When it slowly began to be marked of the standers-by
That she would regard the brass, and would bend away
With a drooping sigh.
Through a summer day of roving—a type at whose lip
Despite her maturing seasons, no meet man
Would be loth to sip.
For a newcomer who, while less in years, was one
Full eager and able to make her his own forthwith,
Restrained of none.
She adversely spake, overmuch as she loved the while,
Till he pressed for why, and she led with the face of one scourged
To the neighbouring aisle,
Memorizing her there as the knight's eternal wife,
Or falsing such, debarred inheritance due
Of celestial life.
Should bury her future—that future which none can spell;
And she wept, and purposed anon to inquire of the priest
If the price were hell
And they parted before the brass with a shudderful kiss,
For it seemed to flash out on their impulse of passionate need,
“Mock ye not this!”
Said she erred at the first to have written as if she were dead
Her name and adjuration; but since it was done
Nought could be said
And so, by her life, maintain the apostrophe good,
If she wished anon to reach the coveted goal
Of beatitude.
Would aver that, since earth's joys most drew her, past doubt,
Friends' prayers for her joy above by Jesu's aid
Could be done without.
That would rise at her back in the nave when she should pass
As another's avowed by the words she had chosen to inscribe
On the changeless brass.
While sorrow was gnawing her beauties ever and more,
Till he, long-suffering and weary, grew to show
Less warmth than before.
That he gave her till Midsummer morn to make her mind clear;
And that if, by then, she had not said Yea to his suit,
He should wed elsewhere.
She was seen in the church—at dawn, or when the sun dipt
And the moon rose, standing with hands joined, blank of gaze,
Before the script.
As summer drew nearer; but yet had not promised to wed,
When, just at the zenith of June, in the still night hours,
She was missed from her bed.
They found her: facing the brass there, else seeing none,
But feeling the words with her finger, gibbering in fits;
And she knew them not one.
Tracing words in the air with her finger, as seen that night—
Those incised on the brass—till at length unwatched one noon,
She vanished from sight.
Was unseen, save as wraith that in front of the brass made moan;
So that ever the way of her life and the time of her death
Remained unknown.
The quaint Church-text, with the date of her death left bare,
In the aged Estminster aisle, where folk yet bow
Themselves in prayer.
THE MARBLE-STREETED TOWN
Whose “Sound” outbreathes its air
Of sharp sea-salts;
I see the movement up and down
As when she was there.
Ships of all countries come and go,
The bandsmen boom in the sun
A throbbing waltz;
The schoolgirls laugh along the Hoe
As when she was one.
The place seems not to mind
That she—of old
The brightest of its native souls—
Left it behind!
Over this green aforedays she
On light treads went and came.
Yea, times untold;
Yet none here knows her history—
Has heard her name.
A WOMAN DRIVING
Firm-lipped, with steady rein,
Down that grim steep the coastguard treads,
Till all was safe again!
She passed against the sea,
And, dipping into the chine's obscure,
Was seen no more by me.
At times of dusky light,
But always, so they told, withdrew
From close and curious sight.
Rutless on softest loam,
And even that her steeds' footfall
Sank not upon the foam.
No mortal horses are,
But in a chariot of the air
Towards some radiant star.
A WOMAN'S TRUST
He'd find it not again
That scorn of him by men
Could less disturb a woman's trust
In him as a steadfast star which must
Rise scathless from the nether spheres:
If he should live a thousand years
He'd find it not again.
Unchilled by damps of doubt,
While from her eyes looked out
A confidence sublime as Spring's
When stressed by Winter's loiterings.
Thus, howsoever the wicked wiled,
She waited like a little child
Unchilled by damps of doubt.
Thus she believed in him
And his aurore, so dim;
That, after fenweeds, flowers would blow;
And above all things did she show
Her faith in his good faith with her;
Through cruel years and crueller
Thus she believed in him!
BEST TIMES
Basked by the bank, and bent to the ripple-gleam,
And I did not know
That life would show,
However it might flower, no finer glow.
That wound towards the wicket of your abode,
And I did not think
That life would shrink
To nothing ere it shed a rosier pink.
And you hailed me at the door by the swaying light
And I full forgot
That life might not
Again be touching that ecstatic height.
After a gaiety prolonged and rare,
No thought soever
That you might never
Walk down again, struck me as I stood there.
THE CASUAL ACQUAINTANCE
To speak to and to see,
Would I had known—more clearly known—
What that man did for me
And the spent west from white
To gray turned tiredly, and from gray
To broadest bands of night!
What shining life-tides flowed
To me-ward from his casual jot
Of service on that road.
We all do what we can;
'Twas only what one man would do
For any other man.”
He's slipped from human eyes;
And when he passed there's none can guess,
Or point out where he lies.
INTRA SEPULCHRUM
What curious things we did
Up there in the world we walked till dead,
Our kith and kin amid!
And its wildness, weakness, woe;
Yes, played thereat far more than enough
As it turned out, I trow!
And observing the ordinances,
I for your sake in impossible codes
Right ready to acquiesce.
Quite quainter than usual kinds,
We held that we could not abide a week
The tether of typic minds.
Pass by and look at us
From over the wall in a casual way
Are of this unconscious.
That none can be buried here
Removed from commonest fashioning,
Or lending note to a bier:
Themselves at all adept,
Who more than many laughed and loved
Who more than many wept,
Into blind matter hurled,
Or ever could have been to themselves
The centre of the world.
THE WHITEWASHED WALL
Whenever she stirs the fire,
And kiss to the chimney-corner wall,
As if entranced to admire
Of a rose in richest green?
I have known her long, but this raptured rite
I never before have seen.
A friend took a pencil and drew him
Upon that flame-lit wall. And the lines
Had a lifelike semblance to him.
And there long stayed his familiar look;
But one day, ere she knew,
The whitener came to cleanse the nook,
And covered the face from view.
And the draught is buried under;
When you have to whiten old cots and brighten,
What else can you do, I wonder?”
But she knows he's there. And when she yearns
For him, deep in the labouring night,
She sees him as close at hand, and turns
To him under his sheet of white.
JUST THE SAME
Hope never would hail again;
Fair days had ceased at a blast,
The world was a darkened den.
And the halo in which I had hied
So gaily gallantly on
Had suffered blot and died!
In a cloud too black for name:
—People frisked hither and thither;
The world was just the same.
THE LAST TIME
And gathered to many past:
It never could reawaken;
But I heard none say: “It's the last!”
But I did not turn and look:
I read no finis in it,
As at closing of a book.
When, at a time anon,
A figure lay stretched out whitely,
And I stood looking thereon.
THE SEVEN TIMES
Who trotted by me with uncertain air;
“I'll tell my tale,” he murmured, “for I fancy
A friend goes there? . . .”
A dwelling. Life was clogged in me with care;
I thought not I should meet an eyesome maiden,
But found one there.
'Twas an adventure fit and fresh and fair—
I slackened in my footsteps at the porchway,
And found her there.
The hope-hues growing gayer and yet gayer
As I hastened round the boscage of the outskirts,
And found her there.
(The best and rarest visit of the rare,
As it seemed to me, engrossed about these goings),
And found her there.
(Soft-thinking as I journeyed I would dare
A certain word at token of good auspice),
I found her there.
And dreamed on what we purposed to prepare;
I reached a tryst before my journey's end came,
And found her there.
The look of things was sinister and bare
As I caught no customed signal, heard no voice call,
Nor found her there.
To light upon her hiding unaware,
And, maybe, I shall nigh me to some nymph-niche,
And find her there!”
Given roomage for such loving, loss, despair?
A boy so young!” Forthwith I turned my lantern
Upon him there.
Was shrunken with old age and battering wear,
An eighty-years long plodder saw I pacing
Beside me there.
THE SUN'S LAST LOOK ON THE COUNTRY GIRL
(M. H.)
On the face in the winding-sheet—
The face it had lit when a babe's in its cot;
And the sun knew not, and the face knew not
That soon they would no more meet.
And lets not in one ray,
Do they wonder that they meet no more—
That face and its beaming visitor—
That met so many a day?
IN A LONDON FLAT
I
“You look like a widower,” she saidThrough the folding-doors with a laugh from the bed,
As he sat by the fire in the outer room,
Reading late on a night of gloom,
And a cab-hack's wheeze, and the clap of its feet
In its breathless pace on the smooth wet street,
Were all that came to them now and then. . . .
“You really do!” she quizzed again.
II
And the Spirits behind the curtains heard,And also laughed, amused at her word,
And at her light-hearted view of him.
“Let's get him made so—just for a whim!”
Said the Phantom Ironic. “'Twould serve her right
If we coaxed the Will to do it some night.”
“O pray not!” pleaded the younger one,
The Sprite of the Pities. “She said it in fun!”
III
But so it befell, whatever the cause,That what she had called him he next year was;
And on such a night, when she lay elsewhere,
He, watched by those Phantoms, again sat there,
And gazed, as if gazing on far faint shores,
At the empty bed through the folding-doors
As he remembered her words; and wept
That she had forgotten them where she slept.
DRAWING DETAILS IN AN OLD CHURCH
And the oil-less axle grind,
As I sit alone here drawing
What some Gothic brain designed;
And I catch the toll that follows
From the lagging bell,
Ere it spreads to hills and hollows
Where people dwell.
Incurious who he be;
So, some morrow, when those knolls for
One unguessed, sound out for me,
A stranger, loitering under
In nave or choir,
May think, too, “Whose, I wonder?”
But not inquire.
RAKE-HELL MUSES
Nor walks in blindness,
I may without unkindness
This true thing tell:
Though worse in speaking,
Were her poor footsteps seeking
A pauper's cell.
She now have sorrow,
Than gladness that to-morrow
Might know its knell.—
Could make of union
A lifelong sweet communion
Or passioned spell;
And bring salvation
By altar-affirmation
And bridal bell;
These tears come to her:—
My faith would more undo her
Than my farewell!
My moody madness
Would make her olden gladness
An intermell.
And bear the blaming.
'Twill pass. Full soon her shaming
They'll cease to yell.
Will grow her guerdon,
Until from blot and burden
A joyance swell;
My good part wholly,
My evil staining solely
My own vile fell.
“He shunned to share it,
Being false,” they'll say. I'll bear it;
Time will dispel
This much about me,
That she lives best without me
Who would live well.
But good intention
Pleads that against convention
We two rebel.
One midnight passion,
A rock whereon to fashion
Life's citadel?
Life's miles together
From upper slope to nether
Who trip an ell?
May tongues be calling
News of my further falling
Sinward pell-mell:
Our lives' division,
She's saved from more misprison
Though I plumb hell.
THE COLOUR
Please will white do
Best for your wearing
The long day through?”
“—White is for weddings,
Weddings, weddings,
White is for weddings,
And that won't do.”
Please will red do
Best for your wearing
The long day through?”
“—Red is for soldiers,
Soldiers, soldiers,
Red is for soldiers,
And that won't do.”
Please will blue do
Best for your wearing
The long day through?’
“—Blue is for sailors,
Sailors, sailors,
Blue is for sailors,
And that won't do.”
Please will green do
Best for your wearing
The long day through’”
“—Green is for mayings
Mayings, mayings,
Green is for mayings,
And that won't do.”
Then? Will black do
Best for your wearing
The long day through?”
“—Black is for mourning,
Mourning, mourning,
Black is for mourning,
And black will do.”
MURMURS IN THE GLOOM
(NOCTURNE)
Where populations meet, though seen of none;
And millions seemed to sigh around
As though their haunts were nigh around,
And unknown throngs to cry around
Of things late done.
(Came throbbing past in plainsong small and slow),
Teachers who train us shamelessly,
Why let ye smoulder flamelessly
The truths ye trow?
Whose fusty vials have long dried impotent,
Why prop ye meretricious things,
Denounce the sane as vicious things,
And call outworn factitious things
Expedient?
Why rank your magnanimities so low
That grace can smooth no waters yet,
But breathing threats and slaughters yet
Ye grieve Earth's sons and daughters yet
As long ago?
Whose accents might be oracles that smite
To hinder those who frowardly
Conduct us, and untowardly;
To lead the nations vawardly
From gloom to light?”
EPITAPH
I never cared for Life: Life cared for me,And hence I owed it some fidelity.
It now says, “Cease; at length thou hast learnt to grind
Sufficient toll for an unwilling mind,
And I dismiss thee—not without regard
That thou didst ask no ill-advised reward,
Nor sought in me much more than thou couldst find.”
AN ANCIENT TO ANCIENTS
Gentlemen,
The floors are sunken, cobwebs hang,
And cracks creep; worms have fed upon
The doors. Yea, sprightlier times were then
Than now, with harps and tabrets gone,
Gentlemen!
Gentlemen,
And damsels took the tiller, veiled
Against too strong a stare (God wot
Their fancy, then or anywhen!)
Upon that shore we are clean forgot,
Gentlemen!
Gentlemen,
The thinning of our ranks each year
Affords a hint we are nigh undone,
That we shall not be ever again
The marked of many, loved of one,
Gentlemen.
Gentlemen,
The paced quadrille, the spry schottische,
“Sir Roger.”—And in opera spheres
The “Girl” (the famed “Bohemian”),
And “Trovatore,” held the ears,
Gentlemen.
Gentlemen,
Like Etty, Mulready, Maclise;
Throbbing romance has waned and wanned;
No wizard wields the witching pen
Of Bulwer, Scott, Dumas, and Sand,
Gentlemen.
Gentlemen,
Is roof-wrecked; damps there drip upon
Sagged seats, the creeper-nails are rust,
The spider is sole denizen;
Even she who voiced those rhymes is dust,
Gentlemen!
Gentlemen,
Are wearing weary. We are old;
These younger press; we feel our rout
Is imminent to Aïdes' den,—
That evening shades are stretching out,
Gentlemen!
Gentlemen,
So were some others' history names,
Who trode their track light-limbed and fast
As these youth, and not alien
From enterprise, to their long last,
Gentlemen.
Gentlemen,
Pythagoras, Thucydides,
Herodotus, and Homer,—yea,
Clement, Augustin, Origen,
Burnt brightlier towards their setting-day,
Gentlemen.
Gentlemen;
Much is there waits you we have missed;
Much lore we leave you worth the knowing,
Much, much has lain outside our ken:
Nay, rush not: time serves: we are going,
Gentlemen.
AFTER READING PSALMS XXXIX., XL., ETC.
Kept no gallant tryst, I;
Even from good words held my tongue,
Quoniam Tu fecisti!
High adventure missed I,
Left the shining shrines unsought;
Yet—me deduxisti!
Love-lore little wist I,
Worldly less; but footed on;
Why? Me suscepisti!
“Shall,” I said, “persist I?”
“Dies” (I would add at times)
“Meos posuisti!”
Sadly little grist I
Bring my mill, or any one's,
Domine, Tu scisti!
“Though to prophets list I,
Which hath understood at all?
Yea: Quem elegisti?”
SURVIEW
Made me gaze where it seemed to be:
'Twas my own voice talking therefrom to me
On how I had walked when my sun was higher—
My heart in its arrogancy.
Said my own voice talking to me:
“Whatsoever was just you were slack to see;
Kept not things lovely and pure in view,”
Said my own voice talking to me.
Said my own voice talking to me;
“Vaunteth not, trusteth hopefully;
That suffereth long and is kind withal,”
Said my own voice talking to me.
Said my own voice talking to me;
“That the greatest of things is Charity. . . .”
—And the sticks burnt low, and the fire went out,
And my voice ceased talking to me.
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