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Holy of holies

Confessions of an anarchist [by J. E. Barlas]

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XXXVIII.

[Am I not bound? There scarcely lives on earth]

Am I not bound? There scarcely lives on earth
A life more triply fettered than I lead,
A toiler to the galley chained, my meed
Man's idiot laughter and fate's furial mirth.
I sit down in the ashes on life's hearth,
And to the cinders spread my frozen feet:
But, preying on my heart, there is a heat
That makes a garden in the midst of dearth;
But, kindling in my breast, there is a hope,
A deathless courage, an immortal love,
That shall not leave me, till into the dust,
The charred black dust, in which I daily grope
And gnaw for comfort, and find food enough,
My life too crumbles in an iron rust.
March 21st, 1886.