Clytemnestra, The Earl's Return, The Artist, and Other Poems | ||
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GOOD-NIGHT IN THE PORCH.
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A little longer in the light, love, let me be. The air is warm.I hear the cuckoo's last good-night float from the copse below the Farm.
A little longer, Sister sweet—your hand in mine—on this old seat.
II
In yon red gable, which the rose creeps round and o'er, your casement shinesAgainst the yellow west, o'er those forlorn and solitary pines.
The long, long day is nearly done. How silent all the place is grown!
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The stagnant levels, one and all, are burning in the distant marsh—126
The low reeds vibrate. See! the sun catches the long pools one by one.
IV
A moment, and those orange flats will turn dead gray or lurid white.Look up! o'erhead the winnowing bats are come and gone, eluding sight.
The little worms are out. The snails begin to move down shining trails,
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With slow pink cones, and soft wet horns. The garden-bowers are dim with dew.With sparkling drops the white-rose thorns are twinkling, where the sun slips thro'
Those reefs of coral buds hung free below the purple Judas-tree.
VI
From the warm upland comes a gust made fragrant with the brown hay there.The meek cows, with their white horns thrust above the hedge, stand still and stare.
The steaming horses from the wains droop o'er the tank their plaited manes.
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And o'er yon hill-side brown and barren (where you and I as children play'd,Starting the rabbit to his warren), I hear the sandy, shrill cascade
Leap down upon the vale, and spill his heart out round the muffled mill.
VIII
O can it be for nothing only that God has shown His world to me?Or but to leave the heart more lonely with loss of beauty . . . can it be?
O closer, closer, Sister dear. . . . nay, I have kist away that tear.
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God bless you, Dear, for that kind thought which only upon tears could rise!God bless you for the love that sought to hide them in those drooping eyes,
Whose lids I kiss! . . . poor lids, so red! but let my kiss fall there instead.
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Yes sad indeed it seems, each night—and sadder, Dear, for your sweet sake!128
To-night we sit together here. To-morrow night will come . . . . ah, where?
XI
O child! howe'er assured be faith, to say farewell is fraught with gloom,When, like one flower, the germs of death and genius ripen toward the tomb;
And earth each day, as some fond face at parting, gains a graver grace.
XII
There's not a flower, there's not a tree in this old garden where we sit,But what some fragrant memory is closed and folded up in it.
To-night the dog-rose smells as wild, as fresh, as when I was a child.
XIII
'Tis eight years since (do you forget?) we set those lilies near the wall:You were a blue-eyed child: even yet I seem to see the ringlets fall—
The golden ringlets, blown behind your shoulders in the merry wind.
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XIV
Ah, me! old times, they cling, they cling! And oft by yonder green old gateThe field shows thro', in morns of spring, an eager boy, I paused elate
With all sweet fancies loos'd from school. And oft' you know, when eves were cool,
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In summer-time, and thro' the trees young gnats began to be about,With some old book upon your knees 'twas here you watch'd the stars come out.
While oft, to please me, you sang thro' some foolish song I made for you.
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And there's my epic—I began when life seem'd long, tho' longer art—And all the glorious deeds of man made golden riot in my heart—
Eight books . . . it will not number nine! I die before my heroine.
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Sister! they say that drowning men in one wild moment can recall130
Last night those phantoms of the Past again came crowding round me fast.
XVIII
Near morning, when the lamp was low, against the wall they seem'd to flit;And, as the wavering light would glow or fall, they came and went with it.
The ghost of boyhood seem'd to gaze down the dark verge of vanisht days.
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Once more the garden where she walk'd on summer eves to tend her flowers,Once more the lawn where first we talk'd of future years in twilight hours
Arose; once more she seem'd to pass before me in the waving grass
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To that old terrace; her bright hair about her warm neck all undone,And waving on the balmy air, with tinges of the dying sun.
Just one star kindling in the west: just one bird singing near its nest.
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So lovely, so beloved! Oh, fair as tho' that sun had never setWhich staid upon her golden hair, in dreams I seem to see her yet!
To see her in that old green place—the same husht, smiling, cruel face!
XXII
A little older, love, than you are now; and I was then a boy;And wild and wayward-hearted too; to her my passion was a toy,
Soon broken! ah, a foolish thing—a butterfly with crumpled wing!
XXIII
Her hair, too, was like yours—as bright, but with a warmer golden tinge:Her eyes—a somewhat deeper light, and dream'd below a longer fringe:
And still that strange grave smile she had stays in my heart and keeps it sad!
XXIV
There's no one knows it, truest friend, but you: for I have never breath'd132
And death will come before again I breathe that name untouch'd by pain.
XXV
From little things—a star, a flower—that touch'd us with the self-same thought,My passion deepen'd hour by hour, until to that fierce heat 'twas wrought,
Which, shrivelling over every nerve, crumbled the outworks of reserve.
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I told her then, in that wild time, the love I knew she long had seen;The accusing pain that burn'd like crime, yet left me nobler than I had been;
What matter with what words I woo'd her? She said I had misunderstood her.
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And something more—small matter what! of friend-ship something—sister's love—She said that I was young—knew not my own heart—as the years would prove—
She wish'd me happy—she conceived an interest in me—and believed
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I should grow up to something great—and soon forget her—soon forgetThis fancy—and congratulate my life she had released it, yet—
With more such words—a lie! a lie! She broke my heart, and flung it by!
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A life's libation lifted up, from her proud lip she dash'd untasted:There trampled lay love's costly cup, and in the dust the wine was wasted.
She knew I could not pour such wine again at any other shrine.
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Then I remember a numb mood: mad murmurings of the words she said:A slow shame smouldering through my blood; that surged and sung within my head:
And drunken sunlights reeling thro' the leaves: above, the burnish't blue
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Hot on my eyes—a blazing shield: a noise among the waterfalls:134
And reapers reaping in the shocks of gold: and girls with purple frocks:
XXXII
All which the more confused my brain: and nothing could I realiseBut the great fact of my own pain: I saw the fields: I heard the cries:
The crow's shade dwindled up the hill: the world went on: my heart stood still.
XXXIII
I thought I held in my hot hand my life crusht up: I could have tostThe crumpled riddle from me, and laugh'd loud to think what I had lost.
A bitter strength was in my mind: like Samson, when she scorned him—blind,
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And casting reckless arms about the props of life to hug them down—A madman with his eyes put out. But all my anger was my own.
I spared the worm upon my walk: I left the white rose on its stalk.
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XXXV
All's over long since. Was it strange that I was mad with grief and shame?And I would cross the seas, and change my ancient home, my father's name?
In the wild hope, if that might be, to change my own identity!
XXXVI
I know that I was wrong: I know it was not well to be so wild.But the scorn stung so! . . . Pity now could wound not! . . . I have seen her child:
It had the self-same eyes she had: their gazing almost made me mad.
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Dark violet eyes whose glances, deep with April-hints of sunny tears,'Neath long soft lashes laid asleep, seem'd all too thoughtful for her years;
As tho' from mine her gaze had caught the secret of some mournful thought.
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But, when she spoke her father's air broke o'er her . . . that clear confident voice!136
The world by living; and receive from all men more than what they give.
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One handful of their buoyant chaff exceeds our hoards of careful grain:Because their love breaks thro' their laugh, while ours is fraught with tender pain:
The world, that knows itself too sad, is proud to keep some faces glad:
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And, so it is! from such an one Misfortune softly steps asideTo let him still walk in the sun. These things must be. I cannot chide.
Had I been she I might have made the selfsame choice. She shunn'd the shade.
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To some men God hath given laughter: but tears to some men He hath given:He bade us sow in tears, hereafter to harvest holier smiles in Heaven:
And tears and smiles, they are His gift: both good, to smite or to uplift:
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He knows His sheep: the wind and showers beat not too sharply the shorn lamb:His wisdom is more wise than ours: He knew my nature—what I am:
He tempers smiles with tears: both good, to bear in time the Christian mood.
XLIII
O yet—in scorn of mean relief, let Sorrow bear her heavenly fruit!Better the wildest hour of grief than the low pastime of the brute!
Better to weep, for He wept too, than laugh as every fool can do!
XLIV
For sure, 'twere best to bear the cross; nor lightly fling the thorns behind;Lest we grow happy by the loss of what was noblest in the mind.
—Here—in the ruins of my years—Father, I bless Thee thro' these tears!
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It was in the far foreign lands this sickness came upon me first.138
Until it reach'd some vital part. I die not of a broken heart.
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O think not that! If I could live . . . there's much to live for—worthy life.It is not for what fame could give—tho' that I scorn not—but the strife
Were noble for its own sake too. I thought that I had much to do—
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But God is wisest! Hark, again! . . . 'twas yon black bittern, as he roseAgainst the wild light o'er the fen. How red your little casement glows!
The night falls fast. How lonely, Dear, this bleak old house will look next year!
XLVIII
So sad a thought? . . . ah, yes! I know it is not good to brood on this:And yet—such thoughts will come and go, unbidden. 'Tis that you should miss,
My darling, one familiar tone of this weak voice when I am gone.
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And, for what's past—I will not say in what she did that all was right,But all's forgiven; and I pray for her heart's welfare, day and night.
All things are changed! This cheek would glow even near hers but faintly now!
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Thou—God! before whose sleepless eye not even in vain the sparrows fall,Receive, sustain me! Sanctify my soul. Thou know'st, Thou lovest all.
Too weak to walk alone—I see Thy hand: I falter back to Thee.
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Saved from the curse of time which throws its baseness on us day by day:Its wretched joys, and worthless woes; till all the heart is worn away.
I feel Thee near. I hold my breath, by the half-open doors of Death.
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And sometimes, glimpses from within of glory (wondrous sight and sound!)140
I seem to feel my native air blow down from some high region there,
LIII
And fan my spirit pure: I rise above the sense of loss and pain:Faint forms that lured my childhood's eyes, long lost, I seem to find again:
I see the end of all: I feel hope, awe, no language can reveal.
LIV
Forgive me, Lord, if overmuch I loved that form Thou mad'st so fair;I know that Thou didst make her such; and fair but as the flowers were—
Thy work: her beauty was but Thine; the human less than the divine.
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My life hath been one search for Thee 'mid thorns found red with Thy dear blood:In many a dark Gethsemanë I seem'd to stand where Thou hadst stood:
And, scorn'd in this world's Judgment-Place, at times, thro' tears, to catch Thy face.
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Thou suffered'st here, and didst not fail: Thy bleeding feet these paths have trod:But Thou wert strong, and I am frail: and I am man, and Thou wert God.
Be near me: keep me in Thy sight: or lay my soul asleep in light.
LVII
O to be where the meanest mind is more than Shakespeare! where one lookShows more than here the wise can find, tho' toiling slow from book to book!
Where life is knowledge: love is sure: and hope's brief promise made secure.
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O dying voice of human praise! the crude ambitions of my youth!I long to pour immortal lays! great pæans of perennial Truth!
A larger work! a loftier aim! . . . and what are laurelleaves, and fame?
LIX
And what are words? How little these the silence of the soul express!142
Against the planets and the sides of night—mute, yearning, mystic tides!
LX
To ease the heart with song is sweet: sweet to be heard if heard by love.And you have heard me. When we meet shall we not sing the old songs above
To grander music? Sweet, one kiss. O blest it is to die like this!
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To lapse from being without pain: your hand in mine, on mine your heart:The unshaken faith to meet again that sheaths the pang with which we part:
My head upon your bosom, sweet: your hand in mine, on this old seat!
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So; closer wind that tender arm . . . How the hot tears fall! Do not weep,Belov'd, but let your smile stay warm about me. “In the Lord they sleep.”
You know the words the Scripture saith . . . O light, O glory! . . . is this death?
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THE EARL'S RETURN.
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Ragged and tall stood the castle wall.And the squires, at their sport, in the great South Court,
Lounged all day long from stable to hall
Laughingly, lazily, one and all.
The land about was barren and blue,
And swept by the wing of the wet sea-mew.
Seven fishermen's huts on a shelly shore:
Sand-heaps behind, and sand-banks before:
And a black champaigne streaked white all thro'
To a great salt pool which the ocean drew,
Suck'd into itself, and disgorged it again
To stagnate and steam on the mineral plain;
Not a tree or a bush in the circle of sight,
But a bare black thorn which the sea-winds had wither'd
With the drifting scum of the surf and blight,
And some patches of gray grass-land to the right,
Where the lean red-hided cattle were tether'd:
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And a stout stone tower stood square to the main.
II.
And the flakes of the spray that were jerk'd awayFrom the froth on the lip of the bleak blue sea
Were sometimes flung by the wind, as it swung
Over turret and terrace and balcony,
To the garden below where, in desolate corners
Under the mossy green parapet there,
The lilies crouch'd, rocking their white heads like mourners,
And burn'd off the heads of the flowers that were
Pining and pale in their comfortless bowers,
Dry-bush'd with the sharp stubborn lavender,
And paven with discs of the torn sun-flowers,
Which, day by day, were strangled, and stripp'd
Of their ravelling fringes and brazen bosses,
And the hardy mary-buds nipp'd and ripp'd
Into shreds for the beetles that lurk'd in the mosses.
III.
Here she lived alone, and from year to yearShe saw the black belt of the ocean appear
At her casement each morn as she rose; and each morn
Her eye fell first on the bare black thorn.
This was all: nothing more: or sometimes on the shore
The fishermen sang when the fishing was o'er;
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Close on the shut of the glimmering eves,
Thro' some gusty pause in the moaning sea,
When the pools were splash'd pink by the thirsty beeves.
Or sometimes, when the pearl-lighted morns drew the tinges
Of the cold sunrise up their amber fringes,
A white sail peer'd over the rim of the main,
Look'd all about o'er the empty sea,
Stagger'd back from the fine line of white light again,
And dropp'd down to another world silently.
Then she breath'd freer. With sickening dread
She had watch'd five pale young moons unfold
From their notchy cavern in light, and spread
To the fuller light, and again grow old,
And dwindle away to a luminous shred.
“He will not come back till the Spring's green and gold.
“And I would that I with the leaves were dead,
“Quiet somewhere with them in the moss and the mould,
“When he and the summer come this way,” she said.
IV.
And when the dull sky darken'd down to the edges,And the keen frost kindled in star and spar,
The sea might be known by a noise on the ledges
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Thro' his roaring bays, and crawling back
Hissing, as o'er the wet pebbles he dragg'd
His skirt of foam fray'd, dripping, and jagg'd,
And reluctantly fell down the smooth hollow shell
Of the night, whose lustrous surface of black
In spots to an intense blue was worn.
But later, when up on the sullen sea-bar
The wide large-lighted moon had arisen,
Where the dark and voluminous ocean grew luminous,
Helping after her slowly one little shy star
That shook blue in the cold, and look'd forlorn,
The clouds were troubled, and the wind from his prison
Behind them leap'd down with a light laugh of scorn;
Then the last thing she saw was that bare black thorn;
For the forkëd tree as the bleak blast took it,
Howl'd thro' it, and beat it, and bit it, and shook it,
Seem'd to visibly waste and wither and wizen.
V.
And the snow was lifted into the airLayer by layer,
And turn'd into vast white clouds that flew
Silent and fleet up the sky, and were riven
And jerk'd into chasms which the sun leap'd thro',
Opening crystal gulfs of a breezy blue
Fed with rainy lights of the April heaven.
From eaves and leaves the quivering dew
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Was starr'd with snow-drops every where;
And the crocus upturn'd its flame, and burn'd
Here and there.
“The Summer,” she said, “cometh blithe and bold;
“And the crocus is lit for her welcoming;
“And the days will have garments of purple and gold;
“But I would be left by the pale green Spring
“With the snow-drops somewhere under the mould;
“For I dare not think what the Summer may bring.”
VI.
Pale she was as the bramble bloomsThat fill the long fields with their faint perfumes,
When the May-wind flits finely thro' sun-threaded showers,
Breathing low to himself in his dim meadow-bowers.
And her cheek each year was paler and thinner,
And white as the pearl that was hung at her ear,
As her sad heart sicken'd and pined within her,
And fail'd and fainted from year to year.
So that the Seneschal, rough and gray,
Said, as he look'd in her face one day,
“St. Catherine save all good souls I pray,
“For our pale young lady is paling away.
“O the Saints,” he said, smiling bitter and grim,
“Know she's too fair and too good for him!”
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Sometimes she walk'd on the upper leads,And lean'd on the arm of the weather-worn Warden.
Sometimes she sat 'twixt the mildewy beds
Of the sea-singed flowers in the Pleasaunce Garden.
Till the rotting blooms that lay thick on the walks
Were comb'd by the white sea-gust like a rake,
And the stimulant steam of the leaves and stalks
Made the coilëd memory, numb and cold,
That slept in her heart like a dreaming snake,
Drowsily lift itself fold by fold,
And gnaw and gnaw hungrily, half-awake.
VIII.
Sometimes she look'd from the window belowTo the great South Court, and the squires, at their sport,
Loungingly loitering to and fro.
She heard the grooms there as they curs'd one another.
She heard the great bowls falling all day long
In the bowling alleys. She heard the song
Of the shock-headed Pages that drank without stint in
The echoing courts, and swore hard at each other.
She saw the red face of the rough wooden Quintin,
And the swinging sand-bag ready to smother
The awkward Squire that miss'd the mark.
And, all day long, between the dull noises
Of the bowls, and the oaths, and the singing voices,
The sea boom'd hoarse till the skies were dark.
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IX.
But when the swallow, that sweet new-comer,Floated over the sea in the front of the summer,
The salt dry sands burn'd white, and sicken'd
Men's sight in the glaring horn of the bay;
And all things that fasten, or float at ease
In the silvery light of the leprous seas
With the pulse of a hideous life were quicken'd,
Fell loose from the rocks, and crawl'd crosswise away.
Slippery sidelong crabs, half strangled
By the white sea grasses in which they were tangled,
And those half-living creatures, orb'd, ray'd, and sharp-angled,
Fan-fish, and star-fish, and polypous lumps,
Hueless and boneless, that languidly thicken'd,
Or flat-faced, or spikëd, or ridgëd with humps,
Melting off from their clotted clusters and clumps,
Sprawl'd over the shore in the heat of the day.
X.
An hour before the sun was setA darker ripple roll'd over the sea;
The white rocks quiver'd in wells of jet;
And the great West, opening breathlessly
Up all his inmost orange, gave
Hints of something distant and sweet
That made her heart swell; far up the wave
The clouds that lay piled in the golden heat
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In an ancient land; the weeds, which forlorn
Waves were swaying neglectfully,
By their sound, as they dipp'd into sparkles that dripp'd
In the emerald creeks that ran up from the shore,
Brought back to her fancy the bubble of fountains
Leaping and falling continually
In valleys where she should wander no more.
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And when, over all of these, the nightAmong her mazy and milk-white signs,
And cluster'd orbs, and zig-zag lines,
Burst into blossom of stars and light,
The sea was glassy; the glassy brine
Was paven with lights—blue, crystalline,
And emerald keen; the dark world hung
Balanced under the moon, and swung
In a net of silver sparkles. Then she
Rippled her yellow hair to her knee,
Bared her warm white bosom and throat,
And from the lattice lean'd athirst.
There, on the silence did she gloat
With a dizzy pleasure steep'd in pain,
Half catching the soul of the secret that blended
God with His starlight, then feeling it vain,
Like a pining poet ready to burst
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Or a nightingale, mute at the sound of a lute
That is swelling and breaking his heart with its strain,
Waiting, breathless, to die when the music is ended.
For the sleek and beautiful midnight stole,
Like a faithless friend, her secret care,
Crept thro' each pore to the source of the soul,
And mock'd at the anguish which he found there,
Shining away from her, scornful and fair
In his pitiless beauty, refusing to share
The discontent which he could not controul.
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The water-rat; as he skulk'd in the moat,Set all the slumbrous lilies afloat,
And sent a sharp quick pulse along
The stagnant light, that heaved and swung
The leaves together. Suddenly
At times a shooting star would spin
Shell-like out of heaven, and tumble in,
And burst o'er a city of stars; but she,
As he dash'd on the back of the zodiac,
And quiver'd and glow'd down arc and node,
And split sparkling into infinity,
Thought that some angel, in his reveries
Thinking of earth, as he pensively
Lean'd over the star-grated balcony
In his palace among the Pleiades,
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Had dropp'd a white lily from his loose hand.
XIII.
And thus many a night, steep'd pale in the lightOf the stars, when the bells and clocks
Had ceased in the towers, and the sound of the hours
Was eddying about in the rocks,
Deep-sunken in bristling broidery between the black oak Fiends sat she,
And under the moth-flitted canopy
Of the mighty antique bed in her chamber,
With wild eyes drinking up the sea, and her white hands heavy with jewelry,
Flashing as she loosed languidly
Her satins of snow and of amber.
And as, fold by fold, these were rippled and roll'd
To her feet, and lay huddled in ruins of gold,
She look'd like some pale spirit above
Earth's dazzling passions for ever flung by,
Free'd from the stains of an earthly love,
And those splendid shackles of pride that press
On the heart till it aches with the gorgeous stress,
Quitting the base Past remorsefully.
And so she put by the coil and care
Of the day that lay furl'd like an idle weft
Of heapëd spots which a bright snake hath left,
Or that dark house, the blind worm's lair,
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Steep'd her soul in a tearful prayer,
Shrank into her naked self, and slept.
XIV.
And as she slumber'd, starr'd and eyed
All over with angry gems, at her side,
The Fiends in the oak kept ward and watch;
And the querulous clock, on its rusty catch,
With a quick tick, husky and thick,
Clamour'd and clack'd at her sharply.
All over with angry gems, at her side,
The Fiends in the oak kept ward and watch;
And the querulous clock, on its rusty catch,
With a quick tick, husky and thick,
Clamour'd and clack'd at her sharply.
There was
(Fronting a portrait of the Earl)
A shrine with a dim green lamp, and a cross
Of glowing cedar wreath'd with pearl,
Which the Arimathæan, so it was writ,
When he came from the holy Orient,
Had worn, with his prayers embalming it,
As with the San-Grael thro' the world he went.
Underneath were relics and gems
From many an antique king-saint's crown,
And some ('twas avouch'd) from the dusk diadems
And mighty rings of those Wise Kings
That evermore sleep 'mid the marble stems,
'Twixt chancel and chalice in God His palace,
The marvel of Cologne Town.
In a halo dim of the lamp all night
Smiled the sad Virgin, holy and white,
With a face as full of the soul's affliction
As one that had look'd on the Crucifixion.
(Fronting a portrait of the Earl)
A shrine with a dim green lamp, and a cross
Of glowing cedar wreath'd with pearl,
Which the Arimathæan, so it was writ,
When he came from the holy Orient,
Had worn, with his prayers embalming it,
As with the San-Grael thro' the world he went.
Underneath were relics and gems
From many an antique king-saint's crown,
And some ('twas avouch'd) from the dusk diadems
And mighty rings of those Wise Kings
That evermore sleep 'mid the marble stems,
'Twixt chancel and chalice in God His palace,
The marvel of Cologne Town.
In a halo dim of the lamp all night
Smiled the sad Virgin, holy and white,
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As one that had look'd on the Crucifixion.
XV.
At moon-rise the land was suddenly brighter;And thro' all its length and breadth the casement
Grew large with a luminous strange amazement;
And, as doubting in dreams what that sudden blaze meant,
The Lady's white face turn'd a thought whiter.
XVI.
Sometimes in sleep light finger-tipsTouch'd her behind; the pain, the bliss
Of a long slow despairing kiss
Doubled the heat on her feverish lips,
And down to her heart's-heart smouldering burn'd;
From lips long mute she heard her name;
Sad dreams and sweet to vex her came;
Sighing, upon her pillow she turn'd,
Like a weary waif on a weary sea
That is heaving over continually,
And finds no course, until for its sake
The heart of the silence begins to ache.
Unsooth'd from slumber she awoke
And hour ere dawn. The lamp burn'd faint.
The Fiends glared at her out of the oak.
She rose, and fell at the shrine of the Saint.
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Of many sorrows, in sorrow, she pray'd;
Till all things in the room melted into each other,
And vanish'd in gyres of flickering shade,
Leaving her all alone, with the face
Of the Saint growing large in its one bright place.
Then on a sudden, from far, a fear
Thro' all her heart its horror drew,
As of something hideous growing near.
Cold fingers seem'd roaming thro' her damp hair.
Her lips were lock'd. The power of prayer
Left her. She dared not turn. She knew,
From his panel atilt on the wall up there,
The grim Earl was gazing her thro' and thro'.
XVII.
But when the casement, a grisly square,Flicker'd with day, she flung it wide,
And look'd below. The shore was bare.
In the mist tumbled the dismal tide.
One ghastly pool seem'd solid white;
The forkëd shadow of the thorn
Fell thro' it, like a raven rent
In the steadfast blank down which it went.
The blind world slowly gather'd sight.
The sea was moaning on to morn.
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XVIII.
And the Summer into the Autumn waned.And under the watery Hyades
The gray sea swell'd, and the thick sky rain'd,
And the land was darken'd by slow degrees.
XIX.
But oft, in the low West, the daySmouldering sent up a sullen flame
Along the dreary waste of gray,
As tho' in that red region lay,
Heap'd up, like Autumn weeds and flowers
For fire, its thorny fruitless hours,
And God said “burn it all away!”
XX.
When all was dreariest in the skies,And the gusty tract of twilight mutter'd,
A strange slow smile grew into her eyes,
As tho' from a great way off it came
And was weary ere down to her lips it flutter'd,
And turn'd into a sigh, or some soft name
Whose syllables sounded likest sighs,
Half smother'd in sorrow before they were utter'd.
XXI.
Sometimes, at night, a music was roll'd—A ripple of silver harp-strings cold—
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With the silver hair, and the golden tongue,
And the eyes of passionless, peaceful blue
(Like twilight which faint stars gaze thro',)
Wise with the years which no man knew.
And first the music, as tho' the wings
Of some blind angel were caught in the strings,
Flutter'd with weak endeavour: anon
The uncaged heart of music grew bold
And cautiously loosen'd, length by length,
The golden cone of its great under-tone,
Like a strong man using mild language to one
That is weaker, because he is sure of his strength.
XXII.
But once—and it was at the fall of the day,When she, if she closed her eyes, did seem
To be wandering far, in a sort of dream,
With some lost shadow, away, away,
Down the heart of a golden land which she
Remember'd a great way over the sea,
There came a trample of horses and men;
And a blowing of horns at the Castle-Gate;
Then a clattering noise; then a pause; and then,
With the sudden jerk of a heavy weight,
And a wrangling and jangling and clinking and clanking,
The sound of the falling of cable and chain;
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That shriek'd and sung with the weight and strain.
And the rough Seneschal bawl'd out in the hall
“The Earl and the Devil are come back again!”
XXIII.
Her heart stood still for a moment or more.Then suddenly tugg'd, and strain'd, and tore
At the roots, which seem'd to give way beneath.
She rush'd to the window, and held her breath.
High up on the beach were the long black ships:
And the brown sails hung from the masts in strips;
And the surf was whirl'd over and over them,
And swept them dripping from stern to stem.
Within, in the great square court below,
Were a hundred rough-faced men, or so.
And one or two pale fair-hair'd slaves
Which the Earl had brought over the winter waves.
XXIV.
There was a wringing of horny hands;And a swearing of oaths; and a great deal of laughter;
The grim Earl growling his hoarse commands
To the Warden that follow'd him growling after;
A lowing of cattle along the wet sands;
And a plashing of hoofs on the slippery rafter,
As the long-tail'd black-maned horses each
Went over the bridge from the gray sea-beach.
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Then quoth the grim Earl, “fetch me a stoop!”And they brought him a great bowl that dripp'd from the brim,
Which he seiz'd upon with a satisfied whoop,
Drain'd, and flung at the head of him
That brought it; then, with a laugh like a howl,
Strok'd his beard; and strode in thro' the door with a growl.
XXVI.
Meanwhile the pale lady grew white and whiter,As the poplar pales when the keen winds smite her:
And, as the tree sways to the gust, and heaves
Quick ripples of white alarm up the leaves,
So did she seem to shrink and reel
From the casement—one quiver from head to heel
Of whitest fear. For she heard below,
On the creaking stairway loud and slow,
Like drops that plunge audibly down from the thunder
Into a sea that is groaning under,
The heavy foot of the Earl as he mounted
Step after step to the turret: she counted
Step after step, as he hasten'd or halted;
Now clashing shrill thro' the archways vaulted;
Now muffled and thick; now loud, and more
Loud as he came near the Chamber door.
Then there fell, with a rattle and shock,
An iron glove on the iron lock,
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But she saw him not. The window-pane,
Far off, grew large and small again;
The staggering light did wax and wane,
Till there came a snap of the heavy brain;
And a slow-subsiding pulse of pain;
And the whole world darken'd into rest,
As the grim Earl press'd to his grausome breast
His white wife. She hung heavy there
On his shoulder without breath,
Darkly fill'd with sleepy death
From her heart up to her eyes;
Dead asleep: and ere he knew it
(How Death took her by surprise
Helpless in her great despair)
Smoothing back her yellow hair,
He kiss'd her icy brows; unwound
His rough arms, and she fell to the ground.
XXVII.
“The woman was fairer than she was wise:But the serpent was wiser than she was fair:
For the serpent was lord in Paradise
Or ever the woman came there.
But when Eden-gates were barr'd amain,
And the fiery sword on guard in the East,
The lion arose from a long repose,
And quoth he, as he shook out his royal mane,
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Had the woman been wiser when she was queen
The lion had never been king, I ween.
But ever since storms began to lower
Beauty on earth hath been second to Power.”
And this is the song that the Minstrel sung,
With the silver hair and the golden tongue,
Who sung by night in the grim Earl's hall.
And they held him in reverence one and all.
XXVIII.
And so she died—the pale-faced girl.And, for nine days after that, the Earl
Fumed and fret, and raved and swore,
Pacing up and down the chamber-floor,
And tearing his black beard as he went
In the fit of his sullen discontent.
And the Seneschal said it was fearful to hear him;
And not even the weather-worn Warden went near him;
And the shock-headed Pages huddled anear,
And bit their white lips till they bled, for fear.
XXIX.
But at last he bade them lift her lightly,And bury her by the gray sea shore,
Where the winds that blew from her own land nightly
Might wail round her grave thro' the wild rocks hoar.
So they lifted her lightly at dead of night,
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Lank-hair'd faces, sallow and keen,
That burn'd out of the glassy pools between
The splashing sands which, as they plunged thro',
The coffin-lead weigh'd them down into;
And their feet, as they pluck'd them up, left pits
Which the water ooz'd into and out of by fits—
—And so to the deep-mouth'd bay's black brim,
Where the pale priests, all white-stoled and dim,
Lifted the cross and chaunted the hymn,
That her soul might have peace when her bones were dust,
And her name be written among the Just.
The Warden walked after the Seneschal grim;
And the shock-headed Pages walk'd after him:
And with mattock and spade a grave was made,
Where they carved the cross, and they wrote her name,
And, returning each by the way that he came,
They left her under the bare black thorn.
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The salt sea-wind sang shrill in the head of it;And the bitter night grew chill with the dread of it;
When the great round moon rose up forlorn
From the reefs, and whiten'd towards the morn.
For the forkèd tree, as the bleak blast took it,
Howl'd thro' it, and beat it, and bit it, and shook it,
Like a living thing bewitch'd and bedevil'd,
Visibly shrunk, and shudder'd and shrivel'd.
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And again the swallow, that false new-comer,Flutter'd over the sea in the front of the summer;
A careless singer, as he should be
That only skimmeth the mighty sea;
Dipp'd his wings as he came and went,
And chirrup'd and twitter'd for heart's content,
And built on the new-made grave. But when
The Summer was over he flew back again.
XXXII.
And the Earl, as years went by, and his lifeGrew listless, took him another wife:
And the Seneschal grim, and the Warden gray
Walk'd about in their wonted way:
And the lean-jaw'd shock-hair'd Pages too
Sung and swill'd as they used to do.
And the grooms, and the squires gamed and swore
And quarrel'd again as they quarrel'd before;
And the flowers decay'd in their dismal beds,
And dropp'd off from their lean shanks one by one,
Till nothing was left but the stalks and the heads,
Clump'd into heaps, or ripp'd into shreds,
To steam into salt in the sickly sun.
XXXIII.
And the cattle low'd late up the glimmering plain,Or dipp'd knee-deep, and splash'd themselves
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Wallowing in sandy dykes and delves:
And the blear-eyed filmy sea did boom
With his old mysterious hungering sound:
And the wet wind wail'd in the chinks of the tomb,
Till the weeds in the surf were drench'd and drown'd.
But once a stranger came over the wave,
And paused by the pale-faced Lady's grave.
XXXIII.
It was when, just about to set,A sadness held the sinking sun.
The moon delayed to shine as yet:
The Ave-Mary chime was done:
And from the bell-tower lean'd the ringers;
And in the chancel paused the singers,
With lingering looks, and claspëd fingers:
And the day reluctantly turn'd to his rest,
Like some untold life, that leaves exprest
But the half of its hungering love ere it close:
So he went sadly toward his repose
Deep in the heart of the slumbrous waves
Kindled far off in the desolate West.
And the breeze sprang up in the cool sea-caves.
The castle stood with its courts in shade,
And all its toothëd towers imprest
On the sorrowful light that sunset made—
Such a light as sleeps shut up in the breast
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Which, as you gaze at it, grows and grows
And all the warm leaves overflows;
Leaving its sweet source still to be guest.
XXXIV.
The crumpled shadow of the thornCrawl'd over the sand-heaps raggedly,
And over the gray stone cross-forlorn,
And on to that one man musing there
Moveless, while o'er him the night crept on,
And the hot yellow stars, slowly, one after one,
Mounted into the dark blue air
And brightened, and brightened. Then suddenly,
And sadly and silently,
Down the dim breezy rim of the sea sank the sun.
XXXV.
Ere the moon was abroad, the owlMade himself heard in the echoing tower
Three times, four times. The bat with his cowl
Came and went round the lonely Bower
Where dwelt of yore the Earl's lost Lady.
There night after night, for years, in vain
The lingering moon had look'd through the pane,
And miss'd the face she used to find there,
White and wan like some mountain flower
In its rocky nook, as it paled and pined there
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Lights flitted faint in the halls down lower
From lattice to lattice, and then glow'd steady.
XXXVI.
The dipping gull: and the long gray pool:And the reed that shows which way the breeze blows cool,
From the wide warm sea to the low black land:
And the wave makes no sound on the soft yellow sand:
But the inland shallows sharp and small
Are swarm'd about with the sultry midge:
And the land is still, and the ocean still:
And the weeds in the rifted rocks at will
Move on the tide, and float or glide.
And into the silent western side
Of the heaven the moon begins to fall.
But is it the fall of a plover's call
That is answer'd warily, low yet shrill,
From the sand-heapt mound and the rocky ridge?
And now o'er the dark plain so wild and wide
Falls the note of a horn from the old draw-bridge.
XXXVII.
Who is it that waits at the castle-gates?Call in the minstrel, and fill the bowl.
Bid him loose the great music and let the song roll.
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And first, as was due, to the Earl he bow'd:
Next to all the Sea-chieftains, blithe friends of the Earl's:
Then advanced thro' the praise of the murmuring crowd,
And sat down, as they bade him, and all his black curls
Bow'd over his harp, as in doubt which to choose
From the melodies coil'd at his heart. For a man
O'er some Beauty asleep for one moment might muse,
Half in love, ere he woke her. So ere he began,
He paused over his song. And they brought him, the Squires,
A heavy gold cup with the red wine ripe in it,
Then wave over wave of the sweet silver wires
'Gan ripple, and the minstrel took heart to begin it.
XXXVIII.
A harper that harps thorough mountain and glen,Wandering, wandering the wide world over,
Sweetest of singers, yet saddest of men,
His soul's lost Lady in vain to discover.
Most fair, and most frail of the daughters of men,
O blest, and O curst, the man that should love her!
Who has not loved? and who has not lost?
Wherever he wander, the wide world over,
Singing by city, and castle, and plain,
Abiding never, for ever a rover,
Each man that shall hear him will swear almost
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The selfsame lady by whom it was crost,
For love is love the wide world over.
XXXIX.
What shall he liken his love unto?Have you seen some cloud the sun sets thro',
When the lingering night is close at hand?
Have you seen some rose lie on the snow?
Or a summer bird in a winter land?
Or a lily dying for dearth of dew?
Or a pearl sea-cast on a barren strand?
Some garden never sunshine warms
Nor any tend? some lonely tree
That stretches bleak its barren arms
Turn'd inland from the blighting sea?
Her cheek was pale: her face was fair:
Her heart, he sung, was weak and warm:
All golden was the sleepy hair
That floated round about her form,
And hid the sweetness breathing there.
Her eyes were wild, like stars that shine
Far off in summer nights divine:
But her smile—it was like the golden wine
Pour'd into the spirit, as into a cup,
With passion brimming it up, and up,
And marvellous fancies fair and fine.
He took her hair to make sweet strings:
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This makes so rich the tune he sings
That o'er the world 'twill linger long.
XL.
There is a land far, far away from yours.And there the stars are thrice as bright as these.
And there the nightingale strange music pours
All day out of the hearts of myrtle trees.
There the voice of the cuckoo sounds never forlorn
As you hear it far off thro' the deep purple vallies.
And the firefly dances by night in the corn.
And the little round owls in the long cypress allies
Whoop for joy when the moon is born.
There ripen the olive and the tulip tree,
And in the sun broadens the green prickly pear.
And the bright galingales in the grass you may see.
And the vine, with her royal blue globes, dwelleth there,
Climbing and hanging deliciously
By every doorway and lone latticed chamber,
Where the damselfly flits, and the heavy brown bee
Hums alone, and the quick lizards rustle and clamber.
And all things, there, live and rejoice together,
From the frail peach-blossom that first appears
When birds are about in the blue summer weather,
To the oak that has lived through his eight hundred years.
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(And the wild windflowers burn about in the courts there)
They are white and undrench'd by the gray winter rains.
And the swallows, and all things, are blithe at their sports there.
O for one moment, at sunset, to stand
Far, far away, in that dear distant land
Whence they bore her—the loveliest lady that ever
Crost the bleak ocean. Oh nevermore, never,
Shall she stand with her feet in the warm dry grasses
Where the faint balm-heaping breeze heavily passes,
And the white lotus-flower leans lone on the river!
XLI.
Rare were the gems which she had for her dower.But all the wild flowers she left behind her.
—A broken heart and a rose-roof'd bower.
O oft, and in many a desolate hour,
The cold strange faces she sees shall remind her
Of hearts that were warmer, and smiles that were kinder,
Lost, like the roses they pluck'd from her bower!
Lonely and far from her own land they laid her!
—A swallow flew over the sea to find her.
Ah cold, cold and narrow, the bed that they made her!
The swallow went forth with the summer to find her.
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And strange were the tidings the bird brought to me.
XLII.
And the minstrel sung, and they prais'd and listen'd—Gazed and prais'd while the minstrel sung.
Flusht was each cheek, and each fixt eye glistened,
And husht was each voice to the minstrel's tongue.
But the Earl grew paler more and more
As the song of the Singer grew louder and clearer,
And so dumb was the hall, you might hear the roar
Of the sea in its pauses grow nearer and drearer.
And . . . hush! hush! hush!
O was it the wind? or was it the rush
Of the restless waters that tumble and splash
On the wild sea-rocks? or was it the crash
Of stones on the old wet bridge up there?
Or the sound of the tempest come over the main?
—Nay, but just now the night was fair.
Was it the march of the midnight rain
Clattering down in the courts? or the crash
Of armour yonder? . . . Listen again!
XLIII.
Can it be lightning?—can it be thunder?For a light is all round the lurid hall
That reddens and reddens the windows all,
And far away you may hear the fall
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It is not the thunder, and it is not the lightning
To which the castle is sounding and brightening,
But something worse than lightning or thunder;
For what is this that is coming yonder?
XLIV.
Which way? Here! Where?Call the men! . . . Is it there?
Call them out! Ring the bell!
Ring the Fiend back to Hell!
Ring, ring the alarum for mercy! . . . Too late!
It has crawl'd up the walls—it has burst in the gate—
It looks thro' the windows—it creeps near the hall—
Near, more near—red and clear—
It is here!
Now the saints save us all!
XLV.
And little, in truth boots it ringing the bell.For the fire is loose on its way one may tell
By the hot simmering whispers and humming up there
In the oak-beams and rafters. Now one of the Squires
His elbow hath thrust thro' the half-smoulder'd door—
Such a hole as some rat for his brown wife might bore—
And straightway in snaky, white, wavering spires
The thin smoke twirls thro', and spreads eddying in gyres
Here and there toucht with vanishing tints from the glare
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Soon the door ruin'd thro': and in tumbled a cloud
Of black vapour. And first 'twas all blackness, and then
The quick forkëd fires leapt out from their shroud
In the blackness: and thro' it rush'd in the arm'd men
From the courtyard. And then there was flying and fighting,
And praying and cursing—confusion confounded.
Each man, at wild hazard, thro' smoke ramparts smiting,
Has struck . . . is it friend? is it foe? Who is wounded?
XLVI.
But the Earl—who last saw him? Who cares? who knows?Some one, no doubt, by the weight of his blows.
And they all, at times, heard his oath—so they swore:—
Such a cry as some spear'd wild beast might give vent to,
When the lean dogs are on him, and forth with that roar
Of desolate wrath, the life is sent too.
If he die, he will die with the dying about him,
And his red wet sword in his hand, never doubt him:
If he live, perchance he will bear his new bride
Thro' them all, past the bridge, to the wild sea-side.
And there, whether he leave, or keep his wife still,
There's the free sea round him, new lands, and new life still.
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The soft, warm, vivid sparkles crowd kindling, and wander
Far away down the breathless blue cone of the night.
Saints! can it be that the ships are on fire,
Those fierce hot clots of crimson light,
Brightening, whitening in the distance yonder?
Slowly over the slumbrous dark
Up from those fountains of fire spark on spark
(You might count them almost) floats silent: and clear
In the steadfast glow the great cross beams,
And the sharp and delicate masts show black;
While wider and higher the red light streams,
And oozes, and overflows at the back.
Then faint thro' the distance a sound you hear,
And the bare poles totter and disappear.
XLVII.
Of the Earl, in truth, the Seneschal swore(And over the ocean this tale he bore)
That when, as he fled on that last wild night,
He had gain'd the other side of the moat,
Dripping, he shook off his wet leathern coat,
And turning round beheld, from basement
To cope, the castle swathed in light,
And, reveal'd in the glare thro' My Lady's casement,
He saw, or dream'd he saw, this sight—
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XLVIII.
Two forms (and one for the Earl's he knew,By the long shaggy beard and the broad back too)
Struggling, grappling, like things half human.
The other, he said, he but vaguely distinguish'd,
When a sound like the shriek of an agonized woman
Made him shudder, and lo, all the vision was gone!
Ceiling and floor had fallen thro',
In a glut of vomited flame extinguish'd;
And the still fire rose and broaden'd on.
XLIX.
How fearful a thing is fire!You might make up your mind to die by water
A slow cool death—nay, at times, when weary
Of pains that pass not, and pleasures that pall,
When the temples throb, and the heart is dreary,
And life is dried up, you could even desire
Thro' the flat green weeds to fall and fall
Half-asleep down the green light under them all,
As in a dream, while all things seem
Wavering, wavering, to feel the stream
Wind, and gurgle, and sound and gleam.
And who would very much fear to expire
By steel, in the front of victorious slaughter,
The blithe battle about him, and comrades in call?
But to die by fire—
O that night in the hall!
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L.
And the castle burn'd from base to top.You had thought that the fire would never stop,
For it roar'd like the great north wind in the pines,
And shone as the boreal meteor shines
Watch'd by wild hunters in shuddering bands,
When wolves are about in the icy lands.
From the sea you might mark for a space of three days,
Or fainter, or fiercer, the dull red blaze.
And when this ceased, the smoke above it
Hung so heavy not even the wind seem'd to move it;
So it glared and groan'd, and night after night
Smoulder'd—a terrible beacon-light.
LI.
Now the Earl's old minstrel—he that had sungHis youth out in those halls—the man beloved,
With the silver hair and the golden tongue,
They bore him out from the fire; but he roved
Back to the stifled courts; and there
They watch'd him hovering, day after day,
To and fro', with his long white hair
And his gold harp, chaunting a lonely lay;
Chaunting and changing it o'er and o'er,
Like the mournful mad melodious breath
Of some wild swan singing himself to death,
As he floats down a strange land leagues away.
One day the song ceased. They heard it no more.
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LII.
Did you ever an Alpine eagle seeCome down from flying near the sun
To find his eyrie all undone
On lonely cliffs where chance hath led
Some spying thief the brood to plunder?
How hangs he desolate overhead,
And circling now aloft, now under,
His ruin'd home screams round and round,
Then drops flat fluttering to the ground.
So moaning round the roofs they saw him,
With his gleaming harp and his vesture white:
Going, and coming, and ever returning
To those chambers, emptied of beauty and state
And chok'd with blackness and ruin and burning,
Then, as some instinct seem'd to draw him,
Like hidden hands, down to his fate,
He paused, plunged, dropp'd for ever from sight;
And a cone of smoke and sparkles roll'd up,
As out of some troubled crater-cup.
LIII.
As for the rest, some died; some fledOver the sea, nor ever return'd.
But until to the living return the dead
And they each shall stand and take their station
Again at the last great conflagration,
Never more will be seen the Earl or the stranger.
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Christ save us all in that day from the danger!
LIV.
And this is why these fishermen say,Sitting alone in their boats on the bay,
When the moon is low in the wild windy nights,
They hear strange sounds, and see strange sights.
Spectres gathering all forlorn
Under the boughs of this bare black thorn.
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A SOUL'S LOSS.
“If Beauty have a soul this is not she.”
—Troïlus and Cressida.
—Troïlus and Cressida.
I
'Twixt the Future and the PastThere's a moment. It is o'er.
Kiss sad hands! we part at last.
I am on the other shore.
Fly stern Hour! and hasten fast.
Nobler things are gone before.
II
From the dark of dying yearsGrows a face with violet eyes,
Tremulous thro' tender tears—
Warm lips heavy with rich sighs—
Ah, they fade! It disappears,
And with it my whole heart dies!
III
Dies . . . . and this chok'd world is sickening.Truth has nowhere room for breath.
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From the rottenness beneath
These rank social forms, are quickening
To a loathsome life-in-death.
IV
O those devil's-marketplaces!Knowing, nightly, she was there,
Can I marvel that the traces
On her spirit are not fair?
I forgot that air debases
When I knew she breath'd such air.
V
This a fair immortal spiritFor which God prepared his spheres?
What! shall this the stars inherit?
And the worth of honest tears?
A fool's fancy all its merit!
A fool's judgement all its fears!
VI
No, she loves no other! No,That is lost which she gave me.
Is this comfort—that I know
All her spirit's poverty?
When that dry soul is drain'd low,
His who wills the dregs may be!
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VII
Peace! I trust a heart forlornWeakly upon boisterous speech.
Pity were more fit than scorn.
Finger'd moth, and bloomless peach!
Gather'd rose without a thorn,
Set to fleer in all men's reach!
VIII
I am cloth'd with her disgrace.O her shame is made my own!
O I reel from my high place!
All belief is overthrown.
What! This whirligig of lace,
This the Queen that I have known?
IX
Starry Queen that did conferBeauty on the barren earth!
Woodlands, wander'd oft with her
In her sadness and her mirth,
Feeling her ripe influence stir
Brought the violets to birth.
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The great golden clouds of even,They, too, knew her, and the host
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And I deem'd I knew her most.
I, to whom the Word was given
How arch-angels have been lost!
XI
Given in vain! . . . But all is over!Every spell that bound me broken!
In her eyes I can discover
Of that perisht soul no token.
I can neither hate nor love her.
All my loss must be unspoken.
XII
Mourn I may, that from her featuresAll the angel light is gone.
But I chide not. Human creatures
Are not angels. She was none.
Women have so many natures!
I think she loved me well with one.
XIII
All is not with love departed.Life remains, tho' toucht with scorn.
Lonely, but not broken-hearted.
Nature changes not. The morn
Breathes not sadder. Buds have started
To white clusters on the thorn.
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XIV
And to-morrow I shall seeHow the leaves their green silk sheath
Have burst upon the chestnut tree.
And the white rose-bush beneath
My lattice which, once tending, she
Made thrice sweeter with her breath,
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Its black buds thro' moss and glueWill swell greener. And at eve
Winking bats will waver thro'
The grey warmth from eave to eave,
While the daisy gathers dew.
These things grieve not, tho' I grieve.
XVI
What of that? Deep Nature's gladnessDoes not help this grief to less.
And the stars will show no sadness,
And the flowers no heaviness,
Tho' each thought should turn to madness
Neath the strain of its distress!
XVII
No, if life seem lone to me,'Tis scarce lonelier than at first.
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Eagles are so. I was nurst
Far from love in infancy:
I have sought to slake my thirst
XVIII
At high founts; to fly alone,Haunt the heaven, and soar, and sing.
Earth's warm joys I have not known.
This one heart held everything.
Now my eirie is o'erthrown!
As of old, I spread the wing,
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And rise up to meet my fateWith a yet unbroken will.
When Heaven shut up Eden-gate
Man was given the earth to till.
There's a world to cultivate,
And a solitude to fill.
XX
Welcome man's old helpmate, Toil!How may this heart's hurt be heal'd?
Crush the olive into oil;
Turn the ploughshare; sow the field.
All are tillers of the soil.
Each some harvest hopes to yield.
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XXI
Shall I perish with the wholeOf the coming years in view
Unattempted? To the soul
Every hour brings something new.
Still suns rise: still ages roll.
Still some deed is left to do.
XXII
Some . . . but what? Small matter now!For one lily for her hair,
For one rose to wreathe her brow,
For one gem to sparkle there,
I had . . . words, old words, I know!
What was I, that she should care
XXIII
How I differ'd from the commonCrowd that thrills not to her touch?
How I deem'd her more than human,
And had died to crown her such?
They? To them she is mere woman.
Oh, her loss and mine is much!
XXIV
Fool, she haunts me still! No wonder!Not a bud on yon black bed,
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But recalls some fragrance fled!
Here, what marvel I should ponder
On the last word which she said?
XXV
I must seek some other placeWhere free Nature knows her not:
Where I shall not meet her face
In each old familiar spot.
There is comfort left in space.
Even this grief may be forgot.
XXVI
Great men reach dead hands unto meFrom the graves to comfort me.
Shakespeare's heart is throbbing thro' me.
All man has been man may be.
Plato speaks like one that knew me.
Life is made Philosophy.
XXVII
Ah, no, no! while yet the leafTurns, the truths upon it pall.
By the stature of this grief,
Even Shakespeare shows so small!
Plato palters with relief.
Grief is greater than them all!
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XXVIII
They were pedants who could speak.Grander souls have past unheard:
Such as found all language weak;
Choosing rather to record
Secrets before Heaven: nor break
Faith with angels by a word.
XXIX
And Heaven heeds this wretchednessWhich I suffer. Let it be.
Would that I could love thee less!
I, too, am dragg'd down by thee.
Thine—in weakness—thine—ah yes!
Yet farewell eternally.
XXX
Child, I have no lips to chide thee.Take the blessing of a heart
(Never more to beat beside thee!)
Which in blessing breaks. Depart.
Farewell! I that deified thee
Dare not question what thou art.
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THE ARTIST.
I
O Artist, range not over-wide:Lest what thou seek be haply hid
In bramble-blossoms at thy side,
Or shut within the daisy-lid.
II
God's glory lies not out of reach.The moss we crush beneath our feet,
The pebbles on the wet sea-beach,
Have solemn meanings strange and sweet.
III
The peasant at his cottage doorMay teach thee more than Plato knew:
See that thou scorn him not: adore
God in him, and thy nature too.
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IV
Know well thy friends. The woodbine's breath,The woolly tendril on the vine,
Are more to thee than Cato's death,
Or Cicero's words to Catiline.
V
The wild rose is thy next in blood:Share Nature with her, and thy heart.
The kingcups are thy sisterhood:
Consult them duly on thine art.
VI
Nor cross the sea for gems. Nor seek:Be sought. Fear not to dwell alone.
Possess thyself. Be proudly-meek.
See thou be worthy to be known.
VII
The Genius on thy daily waysShall meet, and take thee by the hand:
But serve him not as who obeys:
He is thy slave if thou command:
VIII
And blossoms on the blackberry-stalksHe shall enchant as thou dost pass,
Till they drop gold upon thy walks,
And diamonds in the dewy grass.
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IX
Such largess of the liberal bowersFrom left to right is grandly flung,
What time their subject blooms and flowers
King-Poets walk in state among.
X
Be quiet. Take things as they come:Each hour will draw out some surprise.
With blessing let the days go home:
Thou shalt have thanks from evening skies.
XI
Lean not on one mind constantly:Lest, where one stood before, two fall.
Something God hath to say to thee
Worth hearing from the lips of all.
XII
All things are thine estate: yet mustThou first display the title-deeds,
And sue the world. Be strong: and trust
High instincts more than all the creeds.
XIII
The world of Thought is pack'd so tight,If thou stand up another tumbles:
Heed it not, tho' thou have to fight
With giants: whoso follows stumbles.
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XIV
Assert thyself: and by-and-byThe world will come and lean on thee.
But seek not praise of men: thereby
Shall false shows cheat thee. Boldly be.
XV
Each man was worthy at the first:God spake to us ere we were born:
But we forget. The land is curst:
We plant the briar, reap the thorn.
XVI
Remember, every man He madeIs different: has some deed to do,
Some work to work. Be undismay'd,
Tho' thine be humble: do it too.
XVII
Not all the wisdom of the schoolsIs wise for thee. Hast thou to speak?
No man hath spoken for thee. Rules
Are well: but never fear to break
XVIII
The scaffolding of other souls:It was not meant for thee to mount;
Tho' it may serve thee. Separate wholes
Make up the sum of God's account.
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XIX
Earth's number-scale is near us set;The total God alone can see;
But each some fraction: shall I fret
If you see Four where I saw Three?
XX
A unit's loss the sum would mar;Therefore if I have One or Two,
I am as rich as others are,
And help the whole as well as you.
XXI
This wild white rose-bud in my handHath meanings meant for me alone,
Which no one else can understand:
To you it breathes with alter'd tone:
XXII
How shall I class its propertiesFor you? or its wise whisperings
Interpret? Other ears and eyes
It teaches many other things.
XXIII
We number daisies, fringe and star:We count the cinqfoils and the poppies:
We know not what they mean. We are
Degenerate copyists of copies.
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XXIV
We go to Nature, not as lords,But servants: and she treats us thus:
Speaks to us with indifferent words,
And from a distance looks at us.
XXV
Let us go boldly, as we ought,And say to her “We are a part
Of that supreme original Thought
Which did conceive thee what thou art:
XXVI
“We will not have this lofty look:Thou shalt fall down, and recognize
Thy kings: we will write in thy book,
Command thee with our eyes.”
XXVII
She hath usurpt us. She should beOur model: but we have become
Her miniature-painters. So when we
Entreat her softly she is dumb.
XXVIII
Nor serve the subject overmuch:Nor rhythm and rhyme, nor colour and form:
Know Truth hath all great graces, such
As shall with these thy work inform.
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XXIX
We ransack History's tatter'd page:We prate of epoch and costume:
Call this, and that, the Classic Age:
Choose tunic now, now helm and plume:
XXX
But while we halt in weak debate'Twixt that and this appropriate theme,
The offended wild-flowers stare and wait,
The bird hoots at us from the stream.
XXXI
Next, as to laws. What's beautifulWe recognise in form and face:
And judge it thus, and thus, by rule,
As perfect law brings perfect grace:
XXXII
If thro' the effect we drag the cause,Dissect, divide, anatomise,
Results are lost in loathsome laws,
And all the ancient beauty dies:
XXXIII
Till we, instead of bloom and light,See only sinews, nerves, and veins:
Nor will the effect and cause unite,
For one is lost if one remains:
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XXXIV
But from some higher point beholdThis dense, perplexing, complication;
And laws involved in laws unfold,
And orb into thy contemplation.
XXXV
God, when he made the seed, conceivedThe flower; and all the work of sun
And rain, before the stem was leaved,
In that prenatal thought was done:
XXXVI
The girl who twines in her soft hairThe orange-flower, with love's devotion,
By the mere act of being fair
Sets countless laws of life in motion:
XXXVII
So thou, by one thought thoroughly great,Shalt, without heed thereto, fulfil
All laws of art. Create! create!
Dissection leaves the dead dead still.
XXXVIII
All Sciences are branches, each,Of that first science—Wisdom. Seize
The true point whence, if thou shouldst reach
Thine arm out, thou may'st grasp all these,
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XXXIX
And close all knowledge in thy palm.As History proves Philosophy:
Philosophy, with warnings calm,
Prophet-like, guiding History.
XL
Burn catalogues. Write thine own books.What need to pore o'er Greece and Rome?
When whoso thro' his own life looks
Shall find that he is fully come
XLI
Thro' Greece and Rome, and Middle-Age:Hath been by turns, ere yet full-grown,
Soldier, and Senator, and Sage,
And worn the tunic and the gown.
XLII
Cut the world thoroughly to the heart.The sweet and bitter kernel crack.
Have no half-dealings with thine art.
All heaven is waiting: turn not back.
XLIII
If all the world for thee and meOne solitary shape possess'd,
What shall I say? a single tree—
Whereby to type and hint the rest,
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XLIV
And I could imitate the barkAnd foliage, both in form and hue,
Or silvery-grey, or brown and dark,
Or rough with moss, or wet with dew,
XLV
But thou, with one form in thine eye,Couldst penetrate all forms: possess
The soul of form: and multiply
A million like it, more or less,
XLVI
Which were the Artist of us twain?The moral's clear to understand.
Where'er we walk, by hill or plain,
Is there no mystery on the land?
XLVII
The ozier'd, oozy water, ruffledBy fluttering swifts that dip and wink:
Deep cattle in the cowslips muffled,
Or lazy-eyed upon the brink:
XLVIII
Or, when—a scroll of stars—the night(By God withdrawn), is roll'd away,
The silent sun, on some cold height,
Breaking the great seal of the day:
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XLIX
Are these not words more rich than ours?O seize their import if you can!
Our souls are parch'd like withering flowers.
Our knowledge ends where it began.
L
While yet about us fall God's dews,And whisper secrets o'er the earth
Worth all the weary years we lose
In learning legends of our birth,
LI
Arise, O Artist! and restoreTheir music to the moaning winds,
Love's broken pearls to life's bare shore,
And freshness to our fainting minds.
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THE WIFE'S TRAGEDY.
I. THE EVENING BEFORE THE FLIGHT.
I
Take the diamonds from my hair!Take the flowers from the urn!
Fling the lattice wide! more air!
Air—more air, or else I burn!
II
Put the bracelets by. And thrustOut of sight these hated pearls.
I could trample them to dust,
Tho' they were his gift, the Earl's!
III
Flusht I am? The dance it was.Only that. Now leave me, Sweet.
Take the flowers, Love, because
They will wither in this heat.
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IV
Good night, Dearest! Leave the doorHalf-way open as you go.
—Oh, thank God! . . . Alone once more.
Am I dreaming? . . . Dreaming? . . . no!
V
Still that music underneathWorks to madness in my brain.
Even the roses seem to breathe
Poison'd perfumes, full of pain.
VI
Let me think . . . my head is aching.I have little strength to think.
And I know my heart is breaking.
Yet, O love, I will not shrink!
VII
In his look was such sweet sadness.And he fix'd that look on me.
I was helpless . . . call it madness,
Call it guilt . . . but it must be.
VIII
I can bear it, if, in losingAll things else, I lose him not.
All the grief is my own choosing.
Can I murmur at my lot?
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IX
Ah, the night is bright and stillOver all the fields I know.
And the chestnuts on the hill:
And the quiet lake below.
X
By that lake I yet rememberHow, last year, we stood together
One wild eve in warm September
Bright with thunder: not a feather
XI
Stirr'd the slumbrous swans that floatedPast the reed-beds, husht and white:
Towers of sultry cloud hung moated
In the lake's unshaken light:
XII
Far behind us all the extensiveWoodland blacken'd against heaven:
And we spoke not:—pausing pensive:
Till the thunder-cloud was riven,
XIII
And the black wood whiten'd under,And the storm began to roll,
And the love laid up like thunder
Burst at once upon my soul.
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XIV
There! . . . the moon is just in crescentIn the silent happy sky.
And to-night the meanest peasant
In her light's more blest than I.
XV
Other moons I soon shall seeOver Asian headlands green:
Ocean-spaces sparkling free
Isles of breathless balm between:
XVI
And the rosy-rising starAt the setting of the day
From the distant sandy bar
Shining over Africa:
XVII
Steering thro' the glowing weatherPast the tracts of crimson light,
Down the sunset lost together
Far athwart the summer night.
XVIII
“Canst thou make such life thy choiceMy heart's own, my chosen one?”
So he whisper'd and his voice
Had such magic in its tone!
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XIX
But one hour ago we parted.And we meet again to-morrow.
Parted—silent, and sad-hearted:
And we meet—in guilt and sorrow.
XX
But we shall meet . . . meet, O God,To part never . . . the last time!
Yes! the Ordeal shall be trod.
Burning ploughshares—love and crime!
XXI
O with him, with him to wanderThro' the wide world—only his!
Heart and hope and heaven to squander
On the wild wealth of his kiss!
XXII
Then? . . . like these poor flowers that witherIn my bosom, to be thrown
Lightly from him any whither
When the sweetness all is flown?
XXIII
Oh I know it all, my fate!But the gulf is crost for ever.
And regret is born too late.
The shut Past re-opens never.
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XXIV
Fear? . . . I cannot fear! for fearDies with hope in every breast,
Oh I see the frozen sneer,
Careless smile, and callous jest!
XXV
But my shame shall yet be wornLike the purple of a Queen.
I can answer scorn with scorn.
Fool! I know not what I mean.
XXVI
Yet beneath his smile (his smile!)Smiles less kind I shall not see.
Let the whole wide world revile.
He is all the world to me.
XXVII
So to-night all hopes, all fears,All the bright and brief array
Of my lost youth's happier years,
With these gems I put away.
XXVIII
Gone! . . . so . . . one by one . . . all gone!Not one jewel I retain
Of my life's wealth. All alone
I tread boldly o'er my pain
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XXIX
On to him . . . Ah, me! my child—My own fair-hair'd, darling boy!
In his sleep just now he smiled.
All his dreams are dreams of joy.
XXX
How those soft long lashes shadeThat young cheek so husht and warm,
Like a half-blown rosebud laid
On the little dimpled arm!
XXXI
He will wake without a mother.He will hate me when he hears
From the cold lips of another
All my faults in after years.
XXXII
None will tell the deep devotionWherewith I have brooded o'er
His young life, since its first motion
Made me hope and pray once more.
XXXIII
On my breast he smiled and slept,Smiled between my wrongs and me,
Till the weak warm tears I wept
Set my dry, coil'd nature free.
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XXXIV
Nay, . . . my feverish kiss would wake him.How can I dare bless his sleep?
They will change him soon, and make him
Like themselves that never weep;
XXXV
Fitted to the world's bad part:Yet, will all their wealth afford him
Aught more rich than this lost heart
Whose last anguish yearns toward him?
XXVI
Ah, there's none will love him thenAs I love that leave him now!
He will mix with selfish men.
Yes, he has his father's brow!
XXXVII
Lie thou there, thou poor rose-blossom,In that little hand more light
Than upon this restless bosom,
Whose last gift is given to night.
XXXVIII
God forgive me!—My God cherishHis lone motherless infancy!
Would to-night that I might perish!
But heaven will not let me die.
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XXXIX
O love! love! but this is bitter!O that we had never met!
O but hate than love were fitter!
And he too may hate me yet.
XL
Yet to him have I not givenAll life's sweetness? . . . fame? and name?
Hope? and happiness? and heaven?
Can he hate me for my shame?
XLI
“Child,” he said, “thy life was gladIn the dawning of its years;
And love's morn should be less sad,
For his eve may close in tears.
XLII
“Sweet in novel lands,” he said,“Day by day to share delight;
On by soft surprises led,
And together rest at night.
XLIII
“We will see the shores of Greece,And the temples of the Nile:
Sail where summer suns increase
Toward the south from isle to isle.
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XLIV
“Track the first star that swims onGlowing depths toward night and us,
While the heats of sunset crimson
All the purple Bosphorus.
XLV
“Leaning o'er some dark ship-side,Watch the wane of mighty moons;
Or thro' starlit Venice glide,
Singing down the blue lagoons.
XLVI
“So from coast to coast we'll range,Growing nearer as we move
On our charm'd way; each soft change
Only deepening changeless love.”
XLVII
'Twas the dream which I, too, dream'dOnce, long since, in days of yore.
Life's long-faded fancies seem'd
At his words to bloom once more.
XLVIII
The old hope, the wreckt belief,The lost light of vanisht years,
Ere my heart was worn with grief,
Or my eyes were dimm'd with tears!
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XLIX
When a careless girl I clungWith proud trust to my own powers;
Ah, long since I, too, was young,
I, too, dream'd of happier hours!
L
Whether this may yet be so,(Truth or dream) I cannot tell.
But where'er his footsteps go
Turns my heart, I feel too well.
LI
Ha! the long night wears away.Yon cold drowsy star grows dim.
The long fear'd, long wisht-for, day
Comes, when I shall fly with him.
LII
In the laurel wakes the thrush.Thro' these dreaming chambers wide
Not a sound is stirring. Hush;
—Oh, it was my child that cried!
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II. THE PORTRAIT.
I
Yes, 'tis she! Those eyes! that hairWith the selfsame wondrous hue!
And that smile—which was so fair,
Is it strange I deemed it true?
II
Years, years, years I have not drawnBack this curtain! there she stands
By the terrace on the lawn,
With the white rose in her hands:
III
And about her the armorialScutcheons of a haughty race,
Graven each with its memorial
Of the old Lords of the Place.
IV
You, who do profess to seeIn the face the written mind,
Look in that face, and tell me
In what part of it you find
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V
All the falsehood, and the wrong,And the sin, which must have been
Hid in baleful beauty long,
Like the worm that lurks unseen
VI
In the shut heart of the flower.'Tis the Sex, no doubt! And still
Some may lack the means, the power,
There's not one that lacks the will.
VII
Their own way they seek the Devil,Ever prone to the deceiver!
If too deep I feel this evil
And this shame, may God forgive her!
VIII
For I loved her,—loved, ay, loved herAs a man just once may love.
I so trusted, so approved her,
Set her, blindly, so above
IX
This poor world which was about her!And (so loving her) because,
With a faith too high to doubt her,
I, forsooth, but seldom was
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X
At her feet with clamorous praisesAnd protested tenderness
(These things some men can do) phrases
On her face, perhaps her dress,
XI
Or the flower she chose to braidIn her hair—because, you see,
Thinking love's best proved unsaid,
And by words the dignity
XII
Of true feeling's often lost,I was vow'd to life's broad duty;
Man's great business uppermost
In my mind, not woman's beauty;
XIII
Toiling still to win for herHonour, fortune, state in life
(‘Too much with the Minister,
And too little with the wife!’)
XIV
Just for this, she flung asideAll my toil, my heart, my name;
Trampled on my ancient pride,
Turned my honour into shame.
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XV
Oh, if this old coronetWeigh'd too hard on her young brow,
Need she thus dishonour it,
Fling it in the dust so low?
XVI
But 'tis just these women's way—All the same the wide world over!
Fool'd by what's most worthless, they
Cheat in turn the honest lover.
XVII
And I was not, I thank heaven,Made, as some, to read them thro,'
Were life three times longer even,
There are better things to do.
XVIII
No! to let a woman lieLike a canker, at the roots
Of a man's life,—burn it dry,
Nip the blossom, stunt the fruits,
XIX
This I count both shame and thrall!Who is free to let one creature
Come between himself, and all
The true process of his nature,
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XX
While across the world the nationsCall to us that we should share
In their griefs, their exultations?—
All they will be, all they are!
XXI
And so much yet to be done—Wrong to root out, good to strengthen!
Such hard battles to be won!
Such long glories yet to lengthen!
XXII
'Mid all these, how small one grief—One wreck'd heart, whose hopes are o'er!
For myself I scorn relief.
For the people I claim more.
XXIII
Strange! these crowds whose instincts guide themFail to get the thing they would,
Till we nobles stand beside them,
Give our names, or shed our blood.
XXIV
From of old this hath been so.For we too were with the first
In the fight fought long ago
When the chain of Charles was burst.
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XXV
Who but we set Freedom's borderWrench'd at Runnymede from John?
Who but we stand, towers of order,
'Twixt the red cap and the Throne?
XXVI
And they wrong us, England's Peers,Us, the vanguard of the land,
Who should say the march of years
Makes us shrink at Truth's right hand.
XXVII
'Mid the armies of Reform,To the People's cause allied,
We—the forces of the storm!
We—the planets of the tide!
XXVIII
Do I seem too much to fretAt my own peculiar woe?
Would to heaven I could forget
How I loved her long ago!
XXIX
As a father loves a child,So I loved her:—rather thus
Than as youth loves, when our wild
New-found passions master us.
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XXX
And—for I was proud of old('Tis my nature)—doubtless she
In the man so calm, so cold,
All the heart's warmth could not see.
XXXI
Nay, I blame myself—nor lightly.Whose chief duty was to guide
Her young careless life more rightly
Thro' the perils at her side.
XXXII
Ah, but love is blind! and ILoved her blindly, blindly! . . . Well,
Who that ere loved trustfully
Such strange danger could foretell?
XXXIII
As some consecrated cupOn its saintly shrine secure,
All my life seem'd lifted up
On that heart I deem'd so pure.
XXXIV
Well, for me there yet remainsLabour—that's much: then, the state:
And, what pays a thousand pains,
Sense of right and scorn of fate.
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XXXV
And, oh, more! . . . my own brave boy,With his frank and eager brow,
And his hearty innocent joy.
For as yet he does not know
XXXVI
All the wrong his mother did.Would that this might pass unknown!
For his young years God forbid
I should darken by my own.
XXXVII
Yet this must come . . . But I meanHe shall be, as time moves on,
All his mother might have been,
Comfort, counsel—both in one.
XXXVIII
Doubtless, first, in that which moved meMan's strong natural wrath had part.
Wrong'd by one I deem'd had loved me,
For I loved her from my heart!
XXXIX
But that's past! If I was soreTo the heart, and blind with shame,
I see calmly now. Nay, more—
For I pity where I blame.
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XL
For, if he betray or grieve her,What is hers to turn to still?
And at last, when he shall leave her,
As at last he surely will,
XLI
Where shall she find refuge? whatThat worst widowhood can soothe?
For the Past consoles her not,
Nor the memories of her youth,
XLII
Neither that which in the dustShe hath flung—the name she bore;
But with her own shame she must
Dwell forsaken evermore.
XLIII
Nothing left but years of anguish,And remorse but not return:
Of her own self-hate to languish:
For her long-lost peace to yearn:
XLIV
Or, yet worse beyond all measure,Starting from wild reveries,
Drain the poison misnamed Pleasure,
And laugh drunken on the lees.
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XLV
O false heart! O woman, woman,Woman! would thy treachery
Had been less! For surely no man
Better loved than I loved thee.
XLVI
We must never meet again.Even shouldst thou repent the past.
Both must suffer: both feel pain:
Ere God pardon both at last.
XLVII
Farewell, thou false face! Life speeds meOn its duties. I must fight:
I must toil. The People needs me:
And I speak for them to-night.
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III. THE LAST INTERVIEW.
I
Thanks, Dear! Put the lamp down . . . . so!For my eyes are weak and dim.
How the shadows come and go!
Speak truth—have they sent for him?
II
Yes? thank Heaven! And he will come,Come and watch my dying hour—
Tho' I left and shamed his home.
—I am wither'd like this flower
III
Which he gave me long ago.'Twas upon my bridal eve,
When I swore to love him so
As a wife should—smile or grieve
IV
With him, for him—and not shrink.And now? . . . . . . O the long, long pain!
See this sunken cheek! You think
He would know my face again?
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V
All its wretched beauty gone!Only the deep care survives.
Ah, could years of grief atone
For those fatal hours! . . . . . It drives
VI
Past the pain, the bitter blast!In this garret one might freeze.
Hark there! wheels below! At last
He is come then? No . . . the trees
VII
And the night-wind—nothing more!Set the chair for him to sit,
When he comes. And close the door,
For the gust blows cold thro' it.
VIII
When I think, I can rememberI was born in castle halls—
How you dull and dying ember
Glares against the whitewasht walls!
IX
If he come not (but you saidThat the messenger was sent
Long since?) Tell him when I'm dead
How my life's last hours were spent
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X
In repenting that life's sin,And . . . . . the room grows strangely dark!
See, the rain is oozing in.
Set the lamp down nearer. Hark,
XI
Footsteps, footsteps on the stairs!His . . . no, no! 'twas not the wind.
God, I know, has heard my prayers.
We shall meet. I am resign'd.
XII
Prop me up upon the pillows.Will he come to my bed side?
Once 'twas his . . . . Among the willows
How the water seems to glide!
XIII
Past the woods, the farms, the towers,It seems gliding, gliding thro'.
‘Dearest see, these young June-flowers,
I have pluckt them all for you,
XIV
Here, where pass'd my boyhood musingOn the bride which I might wed.’
Ah, it goes now! I am losing
All things. What was that he said?
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XV
Say, where am I? . . . this strange room?Gertrude!
GERTRUDE.
Ah, his voice! I knew it.
But this place? . . . . Is this the tomb,
With the cold dews creeping thro' it?
THE EARL.
Gertrude! Gertrude!
GERTRUDE.
Will you stand
Near me? Sit down. Do not stir.
Tell me, may I take your hand?
Tell me, will you look on her
XVII
Who so wrong'd you? I have weptO such tears for that sin's sake!
And that thought has never slept,—
But it lies here, like a snake,
XVIII
In my bosom—gnawing, gnawingAll my life up! I had meant,
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Near me —
God, thy punishment!
XIX
Dare I judge her?—O, believe me,
'Twas a dream, a hideous dream.
And I wake now. Do not leave me.
I am dying. All things seem
XX
Failing from me—even my breath!But my sentence is from old.
Sin came first upon me. Death
Follows sin, soon, soon! Behold,
XXI
Dying thus! Ah, why didst leaveLonely Love's lost bridal bowers
Where I found the snake, like Eve,
Unsuspected 'mid the flowers?
XXII
Had I been some poor man's brideI had shared with love his lot:
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And made glad his lowly cot.
XXIII
I had been content to mateLove with labour's sunburnt brows.
But to be a thing of state—
Homeless in a husband's house!
XXIV
In the gorgeous game—the strifeFor the dazzling prize—that moved you,
Love seem'd crowded out of life—
Ah fool! and I loved you, loved you!
GERTRUDE.
Yes. I see it all at last—
All in ruins I can dare
To gaze down o'er my lost past
From these heights of my despair.
XXVI
Oh, when all seem'd grown most drear—I was weak—I cannot tell—
But the serpent in my ear
Whisper'd, whisper'd—and I fell.
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XXVII
Look around, now. Does it cheer youThis strange place? the wasted frame
Of the dying woman near you,
Weigh'd into her grave by shame?
XXVIII
Can you trace in this wan formAught resembling that young girl's
Whom you loved once? See, this arm—
Shrunken, shrunken! And my curls,
XXIX
They have cut them all away.And my brows are worn with woe.
Would you, looking at me, say
She was lovely long ago?
XXX
Husband, answer! In all theseAre you not avenged? If I
Could rise now, upon my knees,
At your feet, before I die,
And my shame, and say `forgive,
That which will be dust to-morrow,
This weak clay!
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THE EARL.
Poor sufferer, live!
XXXII
God forgives. Shall I not so?Nay, a better life, in truth,
I do hope for. Not below.
Partner of my perisht youth,
XXXIII
Husband, wrong'd one! Let your blessingBe with me, before, to-night,
From the life that's past redressing
This stray'd soul must take its flight!
XXXIV
Tears, warm tears! I feel them creepDown my cheek. Tears—not my own.
It is long since I could weep.
Past all tears my grief hath grown.
XXXV
Over this dry wither'd cheek,Drop by drop, I feel them fall.
But my voice is growing weak:
And I have not spoken all.
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XXXVI
I had much to say. My son,My lost child that never knew me!
Is he like me? One by one,
All his little ways come to me.
XXXVII
Is he grown? I fancy him!How that childish face comes back
O'er my memory sweet and dim!
And his long hair? Is it black?
XXXVIII
Or as mine was once? His motherDid he ever ask to see?
Has he grown to love another—
Some strange woman not like me?
XXXIX
Would he shudder to beholdThis pale face and faded form
If he knew, in days of old,
How he slumber'd on my arm?
XL
How I nurst him? loved him? miss'd himAll this long heartbroken time?
It is years since last I kiss'd him.
Does he hate me for my crime?
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XLI
I had meant to send some token—If, indeed, I dared to send it.
This old chain—the links are broken—
Like my life—I could not mend it.
XLII
Husband, husband! I am dying,Dying! Let me feel your kiss
On my brow where I am lying.
You are great enough for this!
XLIII
And you'll lay me, when I'm gone,—Not in those old sculptured walls!
Let no name be carved—no stone—
No ancestral funerals!
XLIV
In some little grave of grassAnywhere, you'll let me lie:
Where the nightwinds only pass,
Or the clouds go floating by;
XLV
Where my shame may be forgot;And the story of my life
And my sin remember'd not.
So forget the faithless wife,
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XLVI
Or if, haply, when I'm dead,On some worthier happier breast
Than mine was, you lean your head,
Should one thought of me molest
XLVII
Those calm hours, recall me onlyAs you see me—worn with tears:
Dying desolate here; left lonely
By the overthrow of years.
XLVIII
May I lay my arm, then, there?Does it not seem strange to you,
This old hand among your hair?
And these wasted fingers too?
XLIX
How the lamp wanes! All grows dark—Dark and strange. Yet now there shined
Something past me . . . . Husband, hark!
There are voices on the wind.
L
Are they come? and do they ask meFor the songs we used to sing?
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Listen—
Birds are on the wing:
LI
And thy Birthday Morn is rising.May it ever rise as bright!
Wake not yet! The day's devising
Fair new things for thy delight.
LII
Wake not yet! Last night this flowerNear thy porch began to pout
From its warm sheath: in an hour
All the young leaves will be out.
LIII
Wake not yet! So dear thou art, love,That I grudge these buds the bliss
Each will bring to thy young heart, love,
I would claim all for my kiss.
LIV
Wake not yet!—There now, it fails me!
Is my lord there? I am ill.
And I cannot tell what ails me.
Husband! Is he near me still?
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LV
Oh, this anguish seems to crushAll my life up—body and mind!
Gertrude! Gertrude! Gertrude!
GERTRUDE.
Hush!
There are voices in the wind.
THE EARL.
Still she wanders! Ah, the plucking
At the sheet!
GERTRUDE.
Hist! do not take it
From my bosom. See, 'tis sucking!
If it sleep we must not wake it.
LVII
Such a little rosy mouth!—Not to night, O not to night!
Did he tell me in the South
That those stars were twice as bright?
LVIII
Off! away! unhand me—go!I forgive thee my lost heaven,
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Would my sin, too, were forgiven!
LIX
Gone at last! . . . Ah, fancy feignsThese wild visions! I grow weak.
Fast, fast dying! Life's warmth wanes
From me. Is the fire out?
Speak,
Gertrude, speak! My wife, my wife!
Nay she is not dead,—not dead!
See, the lips move. There is life.
She is choking. Lift her head.
GERTRUDE.
Death! . . . My eyes grow dim, and dimmer.
I can scarcely see thy face.
But the twilight seems to glimmer,
Lighted from some distant place.
Husband!
THE EARL.
Gertrude!
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GERTRUDE.
Art thou near me?
On thy breast—once more—thy breast!
I have sinn'd—and—nay, yet hear me,
And repented—and—
THE EARL.
The rest
LXIII
God hath heard, where now thou art,Thou poor soul,—in Heaven.
The door—
Close it softly, and depart.
Leave us!
She is mine once more.
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