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EUTHANASIA.
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The world is full of lovely things;We need not borrow Fancy's wings
To waft us through the sky
In quest of change, through any dearth
Of glorious objects here on Earth
To feed our inward eye.
II
Nor deem I that all-bounteous HeavenHath, to the poet only, given
A power which doth reveal,
In Nature's every sound and sight,
Deeper and more intense delight
Than common souls can feel.
III
'Tis holy Love—'tis Faith and Hope,Which Beauty's secret chambers ope
To minds of humblest mould;
And paths of heavenly light are trod
On Earth by every child of God,
Which no gross eyes behold.
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IV
And he—there's not a spot so sadBut he can make it bright and glad;
No scene so dark and drear,
But he therein doth well discern
Celestial lights, which blaze and burn
Through its thick atmosphere.
V
In towns or woods, on towers or trees,The impress of God's hand he sees,
And hears his well-known voice;
In hope and fear, in woe and weal,
His presence doth he ever feel,
And in His smile rejoice.
VI
With searching glance 'tis his to scanThe deep, mysterious heart of man—
Its secret movements trace;
The spirit's silent growth to mark,
And track, through windings dim and dark,
The wondrous stream of grace.
VII
The griefs and joys which others feelMore closely to his heart appeal
Than godless minds can guess;
'Tis his with all to smile and weep,
And share, with fevour kind and deep,
Their joy and their distress.
VIII
And thus,—whate'er his walk may be,—Full of sweet sympathies is he
With pleasure and with pain;
Wherever human hearts are found,
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The world is his domain.
IX
In court or camp, in hall or cot,Rich contemplations fail him not;—
A peasant at the plough—
A soldier—or a merchant grave—
A monarch—or a menial slave—
His heart hath range enow.
X
And yet, methinks, one task there isMore sweetly and more truly his
Than other tasks can be;—
The gospel message to convey
To souls from Heaven still far astray;—
The task assign'd to me.
XI
To us, and to our pastoral care,Is many a human heart laid bare
In many a varying mood;
All human sorrows, doubts and fears,
All cares and troubles, smiles and tears,
Supply our mental food.
XII
To us the wounded spirit fleesFor words of comfort to appease
Its own afflictive smart;
The penitent, by fears opprest,
Comes to us, and asks ease and rest
For his o'er-burden'd heart.
XIII
Our aid is lent, our prayers are saidBy saint and sinner's dying bed
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Confidingly both young and old
The soul's mysterious depths unfold—
Its weakness and its power.
XIV
Then, if I may revive once moreThe powers, which, ere life's spring was o'er,
Were mine, or seem'd to be,—
What need to urge, beyond the sphere
Of vision which surrounds me here,
My light-wing'd phantasy?
XV
Nought care I for heroic strains;—I leave to bolder hearts and brains
The lofty epic style;
Enough for me what I can win
Of calm and tender thought, within
The space of one square mile!
XVI
Here, in this quiet shelter'd spot,Where Providence hath cast my lot,
In love and peace, so long,—
This spot, which saw my children's birth—
Here, by my own still blissful hearth,
Shall be my world of song.
XVII
From things which gladden or which grieveFamiliar hearts, my Muse shall weave
Such garlands as she can;
Noting, in this her narrow sphere,
All storms which shake, all gleams which cheer
The troublous soul of Man.
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So now to hearts of gentle mouldA simple tale will I unfold—
A tale of humble love,
Of suffering long and faith intense,
In one who late departed hence
To dwell with Christ above.
XIX
Of humble parentage was she,And yet not born in poverty,
No child of want or shame;
Her parents still in comfort dwell,
And earn a decent living well,
And bear an honest name.
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Herself—in sooth I would not speakOf beaming eye or blooming cheek,
Fine form, or noble mien,
Had such been hers:—'twould suit as well
The unromantic tale I tell,
Had she an Ethiop been.
XXI
There are, whose chance-caught looks expressAn intellectual loveliness,
Which makes us turn and start,
Even when no outward sign we trace
Of beauty in the form and face—
Looks kindled from the heart.
XXII
But such were not her looks or mien—No token in her face was seen
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Even though you sought, you scarce would find
A symptom of superior mind,
Or high-wrought feeling there.
XXIII
She was a meek and simple maidAs ever roam'd in greenwood shade,
Or sat in summer bower;
Though little of green shades or woods,
Lone dells or silent solitudes,
Knew she, or felt the power.
XXIV
Scant store of sentiment refinedHad she—her pure but humble mind
Small culture e'er had known;
Few were her books, nor much she sought,
Through knowledge gain'd of others' thought,
To elevate her own.
XXV
So fares it oft with those design'dThe loftiest place 'midst human kind
In other worlds to hold;
Though here they seem, to human eye,
Compass'd with much infirmity—
The feeblest of the fold.
XXVI
We see not how their spirits grow,We know not whence the breezes blow
Which life to them convey;
Through what dim workings of the thought
The silent work of grace is wrought,
And error purged away.
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But mark them well—in lowliest hut,Or, poorest among paupers, shut
Within a workhouse walls;
And you will own that heavenly light,
In streams of glory pure and bright,
On their weak spirits falls.
XXVIII
No doubts have they through learned pride;They hear God's promise and confide,—
Their faith is faith indeed;
And thus from height to height they go
Of hope and love, while we, below,
Plod on with laggard speed.
XXIX
Yet was not she, of whom I speak,Left all her little lore to seek,
Or rear her own poor thought;
But placed beneath the Christian rule
Of one who kept a daily school,
And Christ's pure lessons taught.
XXX
Nor may we deem the years mis-spent,In which, from day to day, she went
To that instructress kind;
Though then no goodly growth was rear'd,
No promise of rich grace appear'd
To blossom in her mind.
XXXI
Her teacher plough'd the virgin ground,And scatter'd in its soil profound
The seed of truth divine;
Which there unseen, unnoticed lay,
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Religion's sun should shine.
XXXII
And thus her tender years were past—Until the time arrived at last
When she, a woman grown,
Should, as the Church's laws allow,
Renewing the baptismal vow,
Confirm it as her own.
XXXIII
A blessed time is that to me,—Of all my pastoral ministry,
To toil most pleasant given;
When, face to face, in conference sweet,
The younglings of my flock I meet,
To speak of Christ and Heaven.
XXXIV
A blessed time, when heavenly truthPress'd firmly on the mind of youth
In many a close appeal,
Lays bare undreamt-of depths within,
And the whole mystery of sin
Doth startlingly reveal.
XXXV
A time of fresh and fervent thought,When Heaven and Hell at once are brought
Before the young mind's eye;
And the thick veil is rent in twain
Which on the wondrous world had lain
Of immortality.
XXXVI
So fell it in that maiden's case;The deep, mysterious work of grace
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The seeds, in childhood sown, then first
To life and sudden vigour burst,
Beneath religion's sun.
XXXVII
With thoughtful brow and tearful eyeShe heard, and in her heart laid by
The lessons then instill'd;
Truths known, but never felt before,
Which now she ponder'd o'er and o'er,
Through soul and spirit thrill'd.
XXXVIII
And when the holy rite was done,And from the altar, one by one,
Her young companions pass'd,
Whatever thoughts in them might stir—
Some had, that day, been waked in her,
Which would for ever last.
XXXIX
The emptiness she now had learn'dOf things below—had well discern'd
The worth of things not seen,
And, in the Everlasting arms,
From Earth's temptations, Hell's alarms,
Received and shelter'd been.
XL
Strange passage! from youth's dreams of blissInvesting such a world as this
With glory most untrue,
To calmest faith and sober love,
Which almost bring the world above
Within the Christian's view.
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XIL
Strange passage!—and to her most blest!—For so she found a place of rest
And comfort all her own,
When on her gentle head did rain
A storm of such fierce grief and pain
As few on Earth have known.
XLII
When summer leaves were on the boughs,She ratified her Christian vows,
Began her Christian race;
But long ere winter's icy chain
Was broke, disease and bitterest pain
Had paled her patient face.
XLIII
She came to church on Christmas Day,The homage of her love to pay,
And celebrate His birth,
Who, eighteen hundred years ago,
Exchanged Heaven's bliss for human woe,
And dwelt with Man on Earth.
XLIV
That morn what peaceful joy was hers,As with his chosen worshippers
She at his altar knelt!
But ere another Sabbath day,
Ah me! how like a corpse she lay!
And yet what anguish felt!
XLV
Hard lot, ye think, my readers young,While every heart and every tongue
Save hers was full of glee,
And friends and neighbours vied in mirth
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To groan with agony.
XLVI
Hard lot, ye think, was that for her;And yet was she (I dare aver)
Far happier where she lay,
Than could the loudest laugher be
Of any joyous company
Which then kept holiday.
XLVII
Far happier—for her Saviour stoodBeside her in her solitude,—
Beside her stood and smiled;
And sounds were to her soul convey'd,
Which seem'd to say “Be not afraid,
Mine own adopted child.”
XLVIII
A peace seraphic, night and day,Upon her gentle spirit lay,—
Peace, sent her from above,
Which told that nought which might betide
Thence-forward should her soul divide
From Heaven's eternal love.
XLIX
And think ye, while she felt this peace,Nor fear'd lest it should ever cease—
That she could wish to be
Once more with a light-hearted crowd,
Midst roars of laughter long and loud,
And boisterous revelry?
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Would she one glimpse of Heaven foregoFor all Earth's merriment?—ah, no!
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She listens to the angels' song,
In draughts of rapture, deep and long,
She slakes her spirit's thirst.
LI
Whoso had look'd on that sick bedWith thoughtful eye, must needs have said
A contrast strange was there;
Disease and racking pain without—
Within—a soul from fear and doubt
Made free as summer air.
LII
And yet 'twas pitiful to seeWith what extreme severity
Heaven chasten'd its dear child;
What pangs did that weak frame devour,
From day to day, from hour to hour,
Made fiercer and more wild.
LIII
In sooth but slender skill have IIn phrase of learn'd anatomy;
Nor know I how to name
Whatever tortures urge the pulse
To wildest throbbings, or convulse
Our sinful human frame.
LIV
Yet I may say no limb was freeFrom its peculiar agony,
But, downward from the face,
Through all her frame convulsions went,
Which every separate fibre rent
In swift and ceaseless race.
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LV
From year to year did she sustainA dread diversity of pain,
Still gathering more and more;
And this physicians did declare—
That all which flesh and blood can bear
Their gentle patient bore.
LVI
So three years pass'd;—the fourth begun—We deem'd that now her race was run,
Her conflict nearly o'er;
For then a storm of pain did pierce
Each part, more fiery and more fierce
Than she had felt before.
LVII
Nor was this all;—the light of dayWas now for ever swept away,
And ceaseless night began;
Her eyelids closed, nor might she trace
Thenceforward any friendly face
Or form beloved of Man.
LVIII
You deem perhaps that then she foundSome compensation from the sound
Of living voices near;
That friends would from a distance walk,
With pleasant and familiar talk
Her loneliness to cheer.
LIX
And that beside her dying bedFrom morn to night her sisters read
Sweet words of truth divine;
And prayers were said, and hymns were sung,
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More eloquent than mine.
LX
Ah, no!—so fierce her tortures wereThat she could now no longer bear
The softest human tone;
A footstep, though it trod on down,—
The rustle of a silken gown
Thrill'd through her to the bone.
LXI
And thus they lay (her pain and she)In sorrowful society,
While twelve months more roll'd by;
She wasting silently away
With imperceptible decay,
And yet too strong to die.
LXII
'Twas the meek patience of her heartWhich, through such fierce and fiery smart,
Her life did long sustain;
And had her faith and love been less,
She had escaped the bitterness
Of many a month of pain.
LXIII
Throughout that time full oft did IFor entrance to her room apply,
Which mostly was denied;
Such were her pangs, she could not bear
A soothing word, a whisper'd prayer
Put up at her bedside.
LXIV
At last the final conflict came,Each part of her exhausted frame
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The lungs with inflammation dire
Were last attack'd, and raging fire
In every vein did glow.
LXV
Then 'twas that me they came to callIn her last tranquil interval
Of partial rest from pain;
Such rest as lulls the wintry deep,
When the spent storms at evening sleep,
Ere morn to wake again.
LXVI
I came;—her quick and struggling breathTold of the near approach of death,
As by her side I stood;
Her painful toil was nearly done,
The conflict o'er, the victory won,
The sinful soul renew'd.
LXVII
A glorious sight it is to seeA dying saint's felicity,
When death draws gently nigh,
And no sharp pangs disturb the peace
Preceding the glad soul's release,
Or clog the parting sigh.
LXVIII
A glorious sight!—for then Heaven's fieldSeems to be visibly reveal'd
To faith's expiring gaze;
And we almost can hear the hymn
Which cherubim and seraphim
For its new inmate raise.
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LXIX
But deaths like this, I deem, are rare,For mortal weakness, pain and care,
Cleave to us to the last;
And few of saintliest souls there be
From all life's galling bonds set free
Till life itself is past.
LXX
O! shame! eternal shame to themWho would the penitent condemn
In his expiring hour,
Because his fainting soul is toss'd
By waves of doubt, nor yet hath lost
All sense of hellish power.
LXXI
O! shame to such! they little knowThe warfare to be waged below,—
The mystery, dark and strange,
Of inextinguishable sin,
Subjecting the whole world within
To doubt and fear and change.
LXXII
By many a death-bed have I stoodBoth of the wicked and the good,
And this will I maintain,—
That while the former smile on death,
The latter oft yield up their breath
In trouble, fear, and pain.
LXXIII
But such was not our sister's doom:—Strong pains she had, but care and gloom
And fear had fled for aye;
One toilsome fight was still to win,
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And welcome endless day!
LXXIV
And yet no rapturous flights had sheOf feeling or of phantasy,
No visions heavenly-bright;
'Twas patience all, and faith and love,
Which with her giant sufferings strove,
And triumph'd through God's might.
LXXV
Once, as I bent above her bed—“Now, Mary, you approach,” I said,
“Death's dark and shadowy vale;”—
“It is not dark”—was her reply,
And a faint smile pass'd radiantly
Across her features pale.
LXXVI
No more she spoke;—her anguish grewFiercer and fiercer, till we knew
The final strife was come;
At length the web of life was rent,
And, with a sigh, her spirit went
To its eternal home.
LXXVII
But was this all?—to mortal eyeNo more 'twas granted to descry;
And yet the soul within
Had felt a more stupendous strife,—
The struggle between death and life,
Heaven's grace and human sin.
LXXVIII
By prayer intense and fervent thought,Strange transformation had been wrought
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And ever, as the flesh decay'd,
The spirit was more heavenly made,
A steadier race she ran.
LXXIX
Yet think not that her sainted soulOf peace and joy attain'd the goal
By easy steps and few;
Or that from height to height she went
With swift and regular ascent,
As happy angels do.
LXXX
Ah, no!—though now, for many a year,She to her Saviour had been dear,
And in his flock received,—
The Tempter's power was not yet past,
But still assai'd her to the last,
As ere she first believed.
LXXXI
Full surely, all the time, he knewThat all his legions were too few,
His subtlest efforts vain,
The ranks of that bright host to stir,
Invisibly encamp'd round her,
As on a battle plain.
LXXXII
Yet though he could not overcome,Nor lure her from her heavenly home,
Dread power he wielded still;
Power to disturb, to haunt, to vex,
Confuse and fearfully perplex
With dreams obscure of ill.
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LXXXIII
The sin which still was unsubdued,In many a dark and dreary mood,
He show'd to her mind's eye
In frightful forms and hues intense,
O'erwhelming her bewilder'd sense
With fear and agony.
LXXXIV
Doubts and dark thoughts did he suggest,Robbing her soul of peace and rest;—
“O am I christ's indeed,—
So weak of faith, so cold in love?—
Could he who lives and reigns above
For such a sinner bleed?—
LXXXV
“Hath all this sharp and bitter pain,Borne for long years, been borne in vain?—
Is all this woe for nought?—
Is this vile heart e'en now unchanged?
From Him—from hope—from Heaven estranged?”
—Thus darkly fancy wrought.
LXXXVI
But soon such terrors pass'd away,And then in bliss untold she lay,
Though still in grievous pain;
Heaven's gates once more were open thrown,
And Faith and Hope and Love came down
To dwell with her again.
LXXXVII
Nor lack'd she, ere her anguish grewToo deadly, friends, nor cold nor few,
Who daily to her came,
Spake with her of Christ's dying love,
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This world of sin and shame.
LXXXVIII
And blest, to her, those seasons were,When to her chamber did repair
Souls touch'd by grace divine;
And the Lord's table there we spread,
And bless'd and brake the living bread,
And shared the mystic wine.
LXXXIX
Thus joy and grief together wroughtTo purify her springs of thought,
Her heart for Heaven to train;
Thus was her spirit cleansed from guilt,
And God therein a temple built
Where He might ever reign.
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Nor did her faith and patience (shownThus sweetly) to herself alone
Most rich in blessing prove;
For few to her sick chamber came
In whom she kindled not the flame
Of her celestial love.
XCI
The careless, when her pangs they view'dSo meekly borne, with hearts subdued
And sadden'd went away;
The weak grew strong, the timid bold,
Her patient warfare to behold
With suffering and decay.
XCII
She was a silent preacher, sent(Silent, but O! most eloquent!)
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Showing o'er what fierce depths of pain
A tender maiden's soul can gain,
Through faith, the victory.
XCIII
But little now remains to say;She died ere dawn upon the day
Of last St. Valentine;
And on the following Monday morn,
With reverence, to her grave was borne;—
The last sad office mine.
XCIV
Few mourners at her burial were,In truth, the day was far from fair;
And while along the street
The scant and slow procession pass'd,
The thickening clouds pour'd down full fast
A storm of rain and sleet.
XCV
Yet One there was whom all respect,—A man of noblest intellect,
Great heart, and station high,
Who, that day, all his toils forsook,
And on her funeral came to look
With sad and reverent eye.
XCVI
For service high perform'd to truth,For Christian lessons taught to youth,
Deep thanks to him are due;
And I, for one, may truly say
How happy I esteem the day
When first his worth I knew.
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XCVII
Yet ne'er, methinks, for him I feltRespect so deep as when we knelt
Together by her bier,
And I beheld him not too proud,
Amidst the meanest of the crowd,
To drop a parting tear.
XCVIII
To him, with cordial heart, to-day,I dedicate this humble lay,
Which he will not despise,
But treasure as a record true
Of one whose faith on earth he knew,
Now throned above the skies.
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