September 12.—
I am weary of inventing
excuses for absenting myself from
V—hall. My lady has done soliciting
me, yet continues her friendly and affectionate
visits; I fear she guesses my situation,
though she has not as yet hinted at
it; but her forbearing to press me any
more on the subject of going to her, and
at the same time not requiring a reason for
this breach of civility as well as friendship,
convinces me, that she suspects the
cause of my restraint. I am now perfectly
recovered, yet do I still confine myself
to my house, to avoid as much as possible
giving umbrage to lady V—: but
this restraint cannot last much longer;
Mrs. Gerrarde teazes me to come to her,
and I have promised to make her my first
visit.
