| | 1 | Author: | Brand Civil War Collection: Brand, William Francis | Add | | | Title: | Brand Civil War Collection: Letter from William Francis Brand to
Amanda Catherine Armentrout, 1865 December 12  | | | | Published: | 2000 | | | | Subjects: | University of Virginia Civil War Collection | UVA-LIB-BrandLetterscivilwar | | | | Description: | It has been so long since I have tried to put up a letter that I am at
a loſs to know how to commence. When I cast my eye up at the
top of the page & see the heading
Alone,
It calls forth a short sigh, & I imagine
shall it always be so, I am alone at heart, while company are around me inviting
me to be cheerfull I noticed in the last Specta tor the Marrige
of Mr Peck & your Cous, Lizzie, Does this not create a sigh in my breast If I had been a child of for tune I might have been blest with a smiling bride, and alas I wait on the
uncertain future, when thy noble heart may change towards me, & eaven
score
eaven the omble path I pursue why is it
that fears torment me, on thy account Well I know you have never
giv
en me of late room to doubt
you consistency, Sometimes I imagine I
see you looking at
me; and saying; I once
loved you, but now I pity you. Weell I know thare is know tender cord in thy posom
but wich I can cause to vibrate with feelings
of pity, The last time I was in your presance you desired to be united in the holy
bans of marriage in Nov. The month is past & you have never hurd from Mr. Dear Lady
can I account for my inconsistancy
It must be my carleſsneſs & fate, If I could have willed it to my sadisfaction you would now be with me,
But well do I recolect that I have
hurd you say time and again that you never would
be willing to marry me, untill I had some
little home of my own to take you too. at that
time I coinsided with you
But know I fear many moons will grow old before I can claim
a home of my own.own or such as I would have a
little lot I would not have if I it was made a presant to me I believe I could keep a mate at my presant acupation with ease. & would be willing to risk it next fall. & at presant but we have
not house room. as
Mr C, has
a
young couple living with him this winter. His wifes
bro, Why am I writing thus,
what makes my heart throp & say
oh Kate what must I do to make thee happy. While I am writing I
am sad. I know not what recep tion this may meet
with. “Maybe” cold &
formal, Once I believed the sight of my scribling created a
pleasent sensation. But that
time has propably past. & may be
left to morn because I was the dupe of time. Time
waits for no one & I have been wait
ing for time. I may wait on & in a few short years I may sleep
with my mother earth. Dear Kate I intended comming down in four weeks from the time I was
down, But my ocupation is so
confining that I cannot always go when I desire.
& I have neglect
ed writing untill I am ashamed to write, Busineſs & love are two
conflicting eliments, Belive me I remain yours
with unchan
ed devotion. & if you will wait
untill another Summers
Sun shall paſs I will give the
my hand with my heart. if not your will shall be
my desire I do not know when I will get
down during hollodeys I hope I will bring this
to a close hoping you will excuse all my past errors & love me as
your Willie boy | | | Similar Items: | Find |
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